November 13 gummy bear

I have no idea how to formulate this, so I'll just give some info and paste our discussion.I'm 16, biologically male (I have no idea what my actual gender is and I don't even have the energy to think about it so whatever), gonna turn 17 this month. I also have Asperger, maybe important for what's going to come. Three months ago I made a friend on AO3 (Archive of our own, fanfiction website), we were kinda into the same fandoms and kinds of writing so I asked her to become her friend on Discord (btw she's 17). She accepted, and so we started talking about lots of different stuff that we liked. What was kinda difficult though, is that she lives in the USA (whereas I live in France), so timezones usually got in the way of our discussions. I don't really remember how this started, I believe that it was at some point in late March when she wished me good night or something, I just felt... really weird, loved even. It was late in the night for me and I had a ton of butterflies in my stomach at this moment, so much that I had to wait the next day to reply to her. Slowly but surely I began to grow completely obsessed with her, and it felt really weird because to this day I still have no idea how she even looks like or what her actual personality is. These last weeks I started sending love messages in a private channel on a Discord server I use for testing bots (there's only myself in there) went as far as using AI to write romantic stories between me and her (I want to precise though, nothing sexual because I hate sex in all its forms, especially the new kinks/promiscuity that "progressives" like so much). I just craved for hugs, kisses, and intimacy. I was pretty sure she was the one I wanted to spend my life with. I was already starting to look into how I could travel to the USA to meet her in person and everything. I was also so damn afraid that she might find a partner before I could rejoin her, and that she would reject me because she likes women (I have no idea if she's a lesbian or bi but I so damn hoped she was bi). I think I've always experienced discomfort with the more masculine parts of my body that started growing at puberty, but this obsession pushed me to the point where I seriously considered transitioning (and so become a lesbian as well I guess). This was like the 3rd time in my life, first was in November 2022 because I used to hate masculinity (I still kinda do but less), second was a year later because there was some trans girl that made damn good music on Youtube and kinda reminded me of myself (and this caused me to start growing out of homo and transphobia btw). Right now I do not think I am trans, most of my discomfort comes from my body and not so much my gender itself (I still wish to remove my genitals regardless because testosterone kinda sucks but whatever). A few days ago I started looking into long-distance relationships and stories of people falling in love with their online friend, at some point I saw someone saying that the best was to be honest with your friend. Whoever wrote that, f*ck that person.
Here's the discussion we had on Discord, unfiltered (except for her name which I censored for obvious reasons) :
Me
Hello ***, I am really sorry for not sending you anything yesterday, I currently have something on my mind that I really need to talk to you about. Is that ok for you ? (you told me to warn you before I tell you something like that that's why I'm asking)
Her
what does it contain?? like summarize bc I am not comfy with like heavy heavy shit rn (I wouldnt know what to say, anyways)
Me
oh god
I can summarize it in 5 words : I'm in love with you.
And just to add something, just so you kinda understand what I mean by that - I don't expect anything from you. I don't even know why I feel that way or how it's even possible considering I don't know you well, it's very confusing to me sometimes. Now I'm 99% sure you don't reciprocate my feelings, and as I said I'm not expecting anything, I'd rather be simple friends with you than losing you altogether. What really makes me feel bad is knowing we probably won't even ever meet irl, you most probably don't love me back and... just feeling distant to you is already painful lmao. The thing is I'm a bit tired to be hurt for stuff that shouldn't hurt me like that, keeping that to myself makes me feel even worse so I decided to just be honest with you. But again - I don't expect anything (I don't even think I'm worthy of anything lol).I'll stop it there, I would probably have other stuff to say but you told me to summarize so I'm not gonna go into any further detail. Sorry if that's already too long for you, I just wanted to be sure you wouldn't misunderstand anything (this took me wayy too long to write but oh god this is soooo difficult to say lol).
Her
DAMN
OKAY
im so sorry but im not interested in literally ANYONE rn (let alone you, sorry if that sounds rude at all)
I barely know you too, which is unfortunate but GOD
and that therefore makes me VERY uncomfortable because I might have not mentioned it before but I don't know if I even like men or men-adjacent people in the first place let alone me liking really anybody at all
Honestly you should really choose someone who suits you better because I know it isn't me,, I can only wish you luck in your love endevours but you saying that just makes me feel odd as hell (again, no offense to you and I hope you don't take this the wrong way but I literally have never experienced anyone liking me and while I previously have experienced liking other people, the period im in rn im just not in the mood for a relationship like that at all)
Me
I just want to cry rn, but only because I am so damn relieved to finally be able to tellyou that, and I was super scared you might block me or something, idk lol
Speaking of men, it is weird because HAHA I still have not solved my gender problem but it was hard to think about that when all my brain wanted to think about was hugs lol (also ik it's random but I'm sure I will remove my genitals, I've wanted that since I was 13 anyway)
The only thing I know is that rn I have a big crush on you, ik it's cringe as hell but yesterday I was literally considering suicide if you didn't like me back (and NO I'm not going to do that I'm much more at peace today). But what I can tell you is that I won't insist on that, I really want you to be happy and not uncomfortable about that (side note, I just genuinely wish so much you had a better life, it makes me feel bad seeing you having to work at mcdonalds when you should win all your money from your art, but whatever that's just a tiny part of how much today's world is corrupt)
Also I don't take anything you've said as an offense, if I'm not the right person for you I am not and there isn't anything wrong with it (and same thing if you just don't want any relationship). Maybe you're right about you not suiting me as well, although I have literally no idea since I don't know you very well lol.
I really don't know what else to say, I'm feeling like 14535 emotions at the same time, and again I really want to cry rn (I just hope my stupid damn hormones will let me for once)
(also thank you very much for wishing me good luck, I never had luck and don't think I'll ever have but hey maybe it'll change now)
Her
honestly, I do wish you further luck in life but I may talk to you less because of this,,, it's nothing against you I just feel very uncomfortable with the notion you like me to begin with
I feel very bad for you when you say you dont have many friends, and theres nothing I canreally do about that or to change that. But for now, I do not really feel like being your friend in the meantime out of my own personal reasons (the stuff I've mentioned about being heavily uncomfortable.) I'm trying to say this in the nicest way possible because it's not your fault you have feelings and it's not my fault I have my own feelings. Please don't contemplate hurting yourself in ANY fashion because honestly that just makes me continue to feel bad (AND i dont wish to feel like im being manipulated to feel even WORSE becuase of that even if you say you're good now)
I may block you, and again it's nothing against you and I clearly am going to state that I do not hate you. Let me make that VERY clear. And I also dont' want to feel like im being manipulated when you say you contemplated suicide and even if that's not the case now its VERY concerning and I don't like it. I honestly suggest talking to someone more, I know you have someone you've been talking to, because I can't handle being directly told stuff like that because it hurts me as a person.
Like said, please don't think I hate you. I just don't have time for shit like this because im a busy person who's stressed as is, and thats that. See you on the flipside because I don't intend on talking to you for a bit, it's unfortunate but I cannot do anything about my own emotions.
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So here we go, a long read but whatever. I wanted to apologize for talking about my suicide thoughts, I really didn't want her to feel manipulated (that wasn't my intent at all, I just tried to be honest about everything, I probably shouldn't have) but she had already blocked me and I couldn't even tell that to her. LIKE I CAN'T EVEN APOLOGIZE FOR MY F*CKING STUPID BEHAVIOUR. I realized my mistake, but now it's too late anyway, I've lost her for good. I don't know her well but I know she tends to forget stuff a lot, no doubt she'll forget about me altogether eventually. I won't even have the occasion to be her friend anymore. All of that happened in late evening for me and I literally can't sleep now, I tried to play videogames but kept failing over and over, watching Youtube didn't help either. Right now it's almost 6 am and I haven't slept of the night. Like she said she doesn't hate me but why would she even block me ? I thought I made it clear I wasn't expecting anything from her (because I simply couldn't anyway). Right now I just wish I had a time machine to go back and remove that stupid suicide mention because it was useless anyway and I'm pretty sure that's what costed me one of my only friends in my entire stupid, dumb life. I still can understand her discomfort with that kind of things, and I recognize I might have done something similarly if someone told me they loved me, but being blocked is just too much for me. I feel like I can't even do anything to repair my mistake.
On the good side, one of my irl friends contacted me back two days ago. I've known him since I was 12 and I feel like talking to him might help me, so I'll do that whenever he replies to me. I guess I still have some people in my life to help me, but I don't think anybody will replace the one I lost. She was a big part of my life for the last 3 months, I used to tell her about nearly everything I was doing, waiting with impatience for the days she wasn't working to be able to talk to her more. We used to talk about our crazy Hollow Knight ships, our silly stories, and I feel like although we didn't have much in common we still had some things, and I'll miss all of that terribly. I still have passions in my life, like video games, writing, or politics, but what is even life without anyone to love ? What does make a loveless life really different than death ? I know all of that was probably just an obsession, but I still had some feelings for her, now I'll just have to kill what's left of those by myself because I can't even contact her anymore and I'll never even have the 0.0001% chance to be with her anymore.

...and it all seems like some sick joke, waiting to see the next big "climax". Each is more drastic than the last, as if life itself is trying to push me towards a mental break of my own.
I was never the most social type. I chose my friends early, kept them, and have maintained a few over the last decade or so. I can count my close friends and family on two hands, and that's the way I like it. But almost 9 years ago, one of my closest friends passed away after a long struggle with illness and addiction. He experienced a psychotic break due to amphetamine abuse, during which he experienced delusions and auditory hallucinations of his closest friends dying in torturous ways. His experience opened my eyes to another perspective to both drug abuse and the brain itself.
Fast-forward about five years, and I’m on the phone with my brother N. It’s late night, and he’s at his new apartment all alone. He hears my other brother B and his partner C (who live in a different state), saying terrible things about him in the hallway and he can’t believe they would fly such a distance just to torment him. I’m talking him through the experience, but he’s trying to snap photos of them from over the balcony, and I need to get off the phone and get in contact with somebody who can reach him faster than me.
Thank God my parents listened to me, and left their concert early to intervene. They drove him to a hospital, and after a few days, he came home. He got the hallucinations under control, but I still couldn’t wrap my head around the fact that I knew two relatively healthy young men who experienced these severe mental episodes. I just thought, “why does this keep happening to people around me?"
Of course, this is all before B.
I remember when C first reached out to us to explain the problems that B started experiencing. Prior to this, when he’d come to stay for a month, he exhibited manic and dissociated behaviors, but things were worse than we had seen. He was seeing visions in the skies, and feeling drawn to his higher purpose in the universe to a degree that surpassed earthly expectations. He would disappear in the middle of the night, converse deeply with strangers when compelled to do so, and lived in pure extravagance - despite his limited actual working hours.
After frustrating arguments with my husband about logistics and caring for my two baby girls (another stress entirely!) I ended up with two nights to go with my mother and try to take care of my eldest brother. We flew in on a Friday night, and once we checked into the hotel, we drove straight to his apartment.
The situation had already escalated prior to our arrival. My brother had already turned against his partner and his family. Since my mother made the mistake of defending them in her first minutes on the premises, he immediately turned against her. And so I went alone into his apartment, with the sole priority to gauge his mental state and determine just how “crazy” my brother had gone. My mom texted me from the outside, asking me continuously: “Should we call for help? How is he?”
Initially, I thought we could talk him into a hospital stay voluntarily - but anybody in a situation such as this might understand how difficult this can be. It’s no joke when Belle’s father is thrown into the back of a carriage and taken away: these situations are dangerous, and is there really any other way that they can go? My brother was unpredictable, and lashing out against those who wanted to help. He put a cigarette out on his arm, and carried a pair of scissors around in his pocket. He joked about the “devils” trying to keep him from being who he wanted to be, and to an extent, that may have been true. But in this moment, his stress and unhappiness had cultivated into a violent psychotic break that demanded professional intervention.
I don’t regret calling for help in this instance. I regret the fact that, at his age past 30, we had not drafted a written plan in case he needed this sort of medical intervention. In fact, there wasn’t any paperwork at all! As such, the police took my brother away, and he ended up in a shithole downtown for the homeless and forgotten - all because they could not share any information with us and we could not make any choices for him due to HIPAA, but he was not in the right mind to share information about his insurance or make any decisions for himself. And so the state took over, and he fell off of our radar. We drove from one police station to the next, from one hospital to another, but no luck,
B finally called my phone just before noon the next day. Thank goodness I had the same number since I turned 13 - it was the only one he remembered. The place they took him was a shithole - nothing like they promised, but what can you expect with an overloaded system like theirs? That just set the tone for the rest of our time, trying to get him in an outpatient program - trying to get him through an inpatient program - trying to get insurance to accept a program closer to us, or trying to find a program they’ll accept near home…
Life played out the way it did. There’s no right or wrong way anymore. This is just the way it happened, and nothing else will change it. In November of 2021, we realized my brother was sick. On May 31, 2022, he woke up and decided that he would leave us by any means necessary. That ended up being at a gas station pump in the middle of nowhere, in front of my father, who had the unfortunate job of trying to drive him to the hospital he liked in California.
And so my family began the “healing”(?) process. It took us four months to have a basic funeral, though it was just the close family and his ashes. C and his family flew out and spoke, and our closest friends supported us through the nightmare. C had already had some mental breakdowns of his own, but he was on medication now and his family seemed to be helping him through. We spent some time together, and he doted on my children, and delivered gifts from B that were intended for them. We took a rare photo together. I hugged him and told him to please, please stay strong for my family. My daughters loved their Uncle B, and he could keep his memory alive for them.
It was a hard and emotional time. I knew that B would want me to take care of his partner, no matter the drama between them at the time. I tried, with everything I had, to be there if he wanted me to be - but I was scared, and we are anxious people who value personal space. I didn’t want to come off too strong, but when he called me asking for permission to marry my brother in heaven, what could I do? I told him how much I loved him, and how much he already meant to me. I assured him that he was already my brother-in-law, that he had already been with my brother long past a common law marriage. Maybe that’s just the problem. Love is the strongest drug of all, isn’t it?
And so, less than a week and a half after that phone call, C went to find his soulmate through the same awful method of self-immolation. To his mercy, I heard that his soul passed much faster than that of my poor, beautiful brother. With an imagination like mine, it is not just the guilt… it’s just the whole fucking thing.
Well, if my circle is small, my living brother kept his even smaller. B and C were his best friends, and with them gone, I’m just impressed he has maintained any sanity at all. But now, as stress at work ramps up and his psychosis returns, all I can do is wait and see. This time is different: since I’m involved, he’s pulled away from me, and he won’t be as honest as he used to. His boss is listening in, there are cameras in the lightbulbs, and he’s been living on the “Truman Show” for a while now. He’s deactivated all social media to keep his boss from following him, and he’s currently been missing for 12 hours.
Everything feels hopeless. How much is one person supposed to take? I have three babies now, all aged 4 and under, and they need me to be strong. But I just feel so sad and broken all of the time. I had panic attacks before, but now? Am I doomed to follow the same path? I sleep okay, and I don’t abuse any medications, but god knows I’m a mess these days. I miss my family. I have no friends. My husband is working as hard as he can to help us.
I used to be able to count my circle with two hands. Now I’m down to one, and all the others have lost their mind and/or died. Why is this a thing now? How can I stay strong for my kids? I didn't know about this family curse until I was pregnant with my third... I don't know if I can keep watching this happen over and over again.

Hi all, I’ll try to make this brief- but please bear with me. I’m looking for some reasonable suggestions how to handle a situation with my mother-in-law or wondering has anyone else been through something similar? At 42 I recently discovered I have ADHD moderate inattentive/hyperactive. I have always tried to live a healthy life through good diet and exercise but I do enjoy treats too. I don’t typically keep the ‘good stuff’ in the house because once I actually open it, I finish it. As I now understand that’s part of my ‘all or nothing’ mindset and dopamine seeking satisfaction. I used to be a healthy looking weight, but developed bowel disease which actually caused me to gain weight (a less common side effect some people suffer. Yay for me!😒). I have also had periods of needing to be on steroids for my bowel which caused me to gain weight and it’s really hard to lose! But after all my health issues, and learning about ADHD instead of striving for ‘slim’, I’m more focused now on balance and overall health. Whatever size that may leave me, so be it.
My husband is a beautiful, kind, supportive man. He is my cheerleader, and always makes me feel beautiful. His mother is a bit ‘nutty’ but used to also be very kind and gracious towards me- making me always believe she was happy for me to be her sons wife.
Recently however, she has started making comments about my ‘size’. I am an Australian size 16-18. My husband has gained a couple of kilos, but also a significant amount of muscle as he is weight lifting some huge weights! At 46, I think it’s quite normal that he might become a little ‘rounder’ in the middle, but he doesn’t drink much alcohol, and we eat pretty healthy 85% of the time and exercise approx 5 times a week with weights and cardio.
It started at Christmas last year, she commented my husband has put on weight and looks pregnant (which is an exaggeration), with the veiled implication I’m feeding him, so I’m making him fat.
Then there was a comment that I shouldn’t worry, my husband has ‘always been attracted to big girls’.
Then another comment was that she was ‘my size’ when she was about 14yo and cut down her meal sizes and has been small ever since.
Then last week, we were at a family BBQ. I was talking with a nephew when a few other family members did a squat challenge to a song. It looked like it was pretty tough going for them, and I have never done this challenge before but I have been weight lifting for 13 years (I have pretty strong legs) and so I was curious if this would be something I could have done too. So I asked my husband (my MIL was near us) if he thinks I could have done it since we train together and he knows what I do in the gym. She butted in with a scoffing “Noooooooooo, hahahah”. He defended me and corrected her, telling her I would have been better than all of them as I’m strong and have really good endurance and recover quickly. She just said “oh” very disinterestedly.
I know I tend to be a little sensitive (probably partially because of the ADHD, and partially because of what I’ve been through with my body and the lack of control I’ve had over it through the years) but is this something? Am I overreacting? I don’t think she’s maliciously TRYING to hurt me, but why has she suddenly started down this path? We never had issues before, I used to even like her! Now I’m fighting back from giving her a tongue lashing she won’t forget. I even find myself having pretend conversations in my head so I can rehearse things I could say to her.
I don’t want to cause problems, she’s my husbands mother and he loves her. But I’m also not ok with how she’s starting to treat me. She has sometimes stayed at our place in the past for short visits (his parents are divorced and she’s on her own) and she’s has started saying she’s going to come over again soon but I don’t want here here in my safe space!
Help! How should I handle this???

I am a 37 year old white female, Hospice RN. I travel to homes and to facilities to see my patients. Case Management is a stressful job, certainly, and my sister feels that what I'm experiencing is stress-related. I have red "splotches" all over my torso area, the left and right side--it spreads up to a portion of my breasts, around my sides, a smidgen noted on my back, and it stops just below the top of my panty line. Nothing on my arms or legs. These areas are not raised, swollen, itchy, or painful.
I took a few photos, although it seems I cannot add any photo to the post, here is a link instead: Red Splotches to Torso
I do notice that there seem to be more on my right than my left side.
My first, immediate fear was bed bugs, but that concern has been eliminated.
I have never had nor seen anything quite like this.
I have had chickenpox as a child, but this is obviously not shingles (my husband asked about it).
I have IBS and Vulvodynia. The Vulvodynia flares when it wants to. I've been in a flare for over a month now and it affects the nerves in my feet as well to the point of where my feet HURT even when I first get up in the morning and put them on the floor (feels like I've been jumping up and down on concrete all day at times); gynecologist told me that my nerve pain in my feet was linked to the vulvodynia, and I only feel it when I have a flare. Stopping birth control caused the vulvodynia to disappear entirely for a year or so, but then it came back and that was when my feet began to be affected by it. A compound hormone cream helped for a while, and then I didn't have a flare for the longest time (3+ years) until recently.
I take an Align Probiotic 5x Extra Strength every morning to help my IBS. I take Apple Cider Vinegar Capsules (Bragg brand, containing 30mcg of Vitamin D3 and 13mg of Zinc and 750mg of Acetic Acid and 1877mg of "Proprietary Apple Cider Vinegar Blend"), 3 capsules every morning as directed. I take Evening Primrose Oil (1300mg EPO and 120mg EPA), one capsule every night with dinner. I take Progesterone 200mg twice a week except when I'm menstruating (in November of 2022, my gynecologist performed a hormone saliva test due to me having breakthrough bleeding before and with ovulation, turned out my Progesterone was low and it seemed Estrogen was quite a bit higher). Progesterone has prevented the breakthrough bleeding entirely. I have, as of the past two weeks, begun taking DIM-Plus by Nature's Bounty, two capsules every evening with dinner. I had been hoping it would help with any overabundance of Estrogen, if that could be causing my vulvodynia to flare.
I do not smoke, drink, or engage in recreational drug use.
I do drink coffee every morning, without fail, haha.
As stated, these splotches do not itch or hurt me in any way; I'm just concerned as to what they could be, given their sudden appearance and their location.
Thank you so much in advance for bearing with my long post--Reddit does ask for as many details as possible. Any insight is appreciated, as this rash-looking-thing is anxiety-inducing, even though it does not hurt or itch.

Idk where to write this. Or if anyone will really see it.
This relationship started in Feb and it is still going currently.
But basically. I was cheated on twice. Once in November. Once in October. I'm 21 (f) and he's 23(m). In November the guy I'm dating was talking to 2 of his ex's. One was in a emotional cheating way. The other was nudes. I didn't find his cash app thing yet. But we talked it out. He blocked them. I thought everything was okay. Accidently seen a notification on his phone in October. He was talking to his ex again. The one he was emotionally cheating with. And found out he was paying some girls online for nudes and sexual videos with lingerie and toys. I was ready to end it. Side note before this relationship I was in a extremely abusive and toxic relationship for 5 years with a man who groomed me (I met him when I was 15 he was 18). When I was with that man he would cry and guilt me into not leaving him. Well. The guy I'm currently with cried and kinda guilted me into staying with him. I know. It's bad. But we have been together since then. I haven't checked his phone at all or even looked at it out of fear of finding something again. But... Everything that happened is finally on my mind again. And I don't trust him... And I've been having a very hard time recently. I don't know if he's doing it again or what. Hes probably better at hiding it now anyways. Someone please give me advice on what to do. If you have any questions I'll try to answer them too or DM me. Idk how reddit works so please someone see this.
I also would like to point out. I have Autism and have a hard time with explaining and understanding things so please bear with me.

Over by the outskirts of the human village, a large chunk of land was burnt, singed, wiped of any living no matter how small it may be. This was due to the power of the supposed current Shrine Maiden. Though none of the buildings or infrastructure was damaged, it was still a sight to behold; a sight that seemed unbelievable to witness many months ago.
A bit further away from the sight of the charred land, the group consisting of Sumireko, PB, Ko, Rumia, Cirno, Satsujin, Mary, Gummy, Suika, Shanghai, Meiling, Wakasagihime, Youki, Kosuzu, and Kagerou. What had started as just one person, turned to two, then three, then eight, eleven, and now fifteen people. Each of them started their journey one way or another, but they all hope to end it the same way.
“We’re here.” Sumireko said.
Everyone looked up to stare at the foot of the mountain, tilting their heads until they could see what they believed to be the tip. The view up there must be extravagant, but there was no time to sight see.
“The ropeway should be somewhere around here.” Sumireko said. “It’s usually close by.”
“Do most people take the ropeway?” Rumia asked.
“Well, people from the human village do, since most humans can’t fly. But unfortunately for us the option to fly isn’t available at the moment.” Sumireko said.
“I still kinda wonder why we can’t do something as simple as that.” Satsujin said out loud.
“Perhaps it was because-” Wakasagihime began.
“ZIP IT!!!” Satsugrim shouted at Wakasagihime. “One more word out of you and I’ll turn your tail into sashimi and sell it for dirt cheap!”
That made the mermaid quiet. Not another word dared come out of her lips.
The group wandered around between the foot of the mountain and the edge of the village. It wasn’t long before they came upon what they were looking for.
An aerial tram, made of wood and nail and designed to resemble that of a shrine, sat on the ground with a small staircase that could be walked across. A bit further away was a small little sign, looking shabby and worn-down, but it was clear it was there to help keep people from trying to climb up the mountain by themselves. After all, what kind of person would be naive to scale up a whole mountain when there exists a much easier and less physically exhausting option?
The group got on, making sure to check if the ropeway was still functional, though they kept their expectations low on purpose anyways. Luckily everything was working. And after pulling the lever to go, they were off.
The tram began to move upward in a diagonal direction. Slow and steady it was, but that was all everyone needed for now. They had a lot on their minds, yet no one said a thing. Everyone stood around; either staying in the middle or leaning back on the rails of the tram, some even taking a look down the mountain.
The slight creaking of the wooden structure was all that was heard, with a slight breeze that blew. The ride wasn’t necessarily bumpy, but it wasn’t smooth as ice either. Even then, everyone remained quiet, not saying a word.
Sumireko stood a bit away from the railing, looking at everyone else to see what they were doing. Some were standing around minding their business, others looked at the landscape below; how far they were from the ground. Despite the mutual silence, she felt like now was the time to say something; anything really.
“...I remember the day when Inco first arrived at Gensokyo.” Sumireko spoke, drawing the attention of everyone who wasn't expecting anyone to say anything. “I was in the dream world, talking with Doremy when two people suddenly showed up out of nowhere. One of them looked like a kasha, while the other an angel. Then three more people appeared, one of them being Inco of course. Doremy and I fought alongside the former two figures, but upon realizing it was going to be a losing battle, Doremy sent me away with PB.”
“And ever since that day, I wasn’t able to enter Gensokyo anymore. I tried everything I could. I prayed at shrines, tried to locate where Gensokyo would be geographically, pulled out every single occult book I owned. But nothing… And I was alone. The only thing that I was physically able to do was focus on school.”
“It made me realize that… I didn’t have anyone outside of Gensokyo who I could rely on. Sure, I had my mom, but for the most part I confined myself up in my room playing games and browsing the internet. Before I realized it, I was preparing for an entrance exam to the university of my choice. It seemed like my life in Gensokyo had already ended, almost like a dream.”
Everyone kept looking at Sumireko as she finished, some thinking about what she said. And when it seemed as though everyone was going to go back to silence, PB spoke next.
“Even though I was deactivated when I came here to Gensokyo, I blame myself for what had occurred here. If it wasn’t for me, then none of you would have to be going through all of this trouble. Our universe’s problems were not yours to burden; you did not deserve this.” PB said.
Everyone had their eyes directed at PB this time as they spoke. But while they kept their gazes, Ko decided to speak up.
“U-Um… I still hope that… once all this is over, if I ever get the chance, I like to see my mom and my older brother again.” She said. “They both did their best to make sure I am still alive to this day. A-and now I’m going to make sure that I’ll continue to live for them. And should we ever meet again, I want to greet them with joy in my heart!”
After Ko finished, Satsujin spoke.
“I wish to find my brother again. From what I know he’s still in the universe where I came from. I hope to bring him over here so that we can live together, and not have to worry about the torment of our parents or the rest of our family.” Satsujin said.
After Satsujin, Rumia spoke.
“When I arrived here, all I could think about was trying to find Reimu, or rather my Reimu. It was the only thing that I could remember. But… Now I realize that she isn’t here, nor is Minako… I hope that if I ever see them again, maybe… we can be a family once more.” Rumia said with genuine in her voice.
After Rumia, Cirno.
“I used to be something called a SOLDIER. I would be sent out on missions to deal with monsters and other phenomena. My mentor Letty taught me everything she knew… But then something happened. An incident occurred, something that changed everything… That’s when I became a mercenary.” Cirno said. “But I wasn’t alone either.”
Cirno looked over at Meiling, giving her a smile. “In my universe, you and I were close. You ran a small bar and were an excellent fighter. You were someone I could always look up to, no matter the occasion. You were a ‘Big Sis’ to me, Meiling.”
Meiling’s expression widened a bit, with a blush that came after as she turned around while scratching the back of her head. “The me of your world sounds like a really nice person.” She said. Cirno laughed a little in response.
Now it's Mary’s turn.
“I think about what it might’ve been if I hadn’t been forgotten all those years ago. Instead of collecting dust I was actually used for what I was made for. The kind of people who might’ve used me in combat or honor instead of being kept as mere decoration for some Russian Mafia. But then again if I did, I would’ve never met Satsu.” Mary said, glancing at Satsujin momentarily.
“Ribbit.” Gummy croaked.
“Um… Gummy says that he is very proud to have met everyone. He thinks you are all great people. He wishes that he could be something equally great.” Ko explained.
“Ribbit ribbit.”
“Yes yes, here you go.” Ko fed Gummy some candy.
Suika decided to speak up next, as it seemed like everyone was bound to say something during the ride up the mountain. She pulled out the item which she’d been carrying ever since they left Hakurei Shrine.
“I have something to show everyone.” Suika said, pulling out the ring box. She opened it up, and inside was a glistening gem, bright like a star. Everyone was stunned to see the item, with the exception of Satsujin.
“A ring!?” Sumireko asked loudly. “Where, when and why do you have one!?”
Suika smirked. “I got it from Kourindou by pure chance. He said it was an item that people use to propose in the outside world. I got it right before winter ended, and I was planning on giving it to Reimu.”
“EEEEEEEEEEEEEEH!?!?!?” Sumireko went over to Suika and shook the Oni. “You mean you were going to propose to her! Why didn’t you tell me sooner!?”
Suika stopped Sumireko shaking her, looking her in the eyes. “Ahh! Stop it Sumireko! Geez… I didn’t want anyone to know at first, honestly… I wasn’t even sure if I wanted to.”
“Eh? What do you mean?” Sumireko asked. “Aren’t you and Reimu…”
“...” Suika’s expression turned into a slight sorrow, which was enough for Sumireko to get the right idea.
“You… aren’t dating Reimu.” Sumireko said. “She isn’t even aware that you did this.”
“Correct.” Suika said. “It sounds dumb, I know. But…” Suika looked back down at the ring in her hand. “I figured it wouldn’t hurt to try… Even if I’m not the one she loves most.”
After Suika finished, the ride went back to silence momentarily, with the sound of creaking wood and gentle winds. Shanghai thought about Alice during said silence, thinking about what her creator could possibly be doing, and whether or not she’s okay.
But again, the silence did not last, as Meiling spoke up.
“When Inco took over Lady Remilia’s body, everyone in the mansion was forced to do her bidding, else we risk losing her forever. I myself was tormented by her, used like a punching bag. There were so many moments where I felt like my life was at its end, yet I always heal back.” Meiling said. “But now, I wish that I hadn’t stayed quiet the whole time. If I knew what was going to happen, I would’ve asked for help, get Reimu or the Sages or really anyone who could face that demon. Maybe that’s what Remilia wanted instead of the months of torture we received, even if it costed her life.”
The Gatekeeper showed a level of guilt on her face, though it lessened when Cirno placed a hand on her shoulder, which softened her expression. When it seemed it was back to silence, Wakasagihime spoke up.
“I can remember the day when I was attacked by that man. He shouted something nonsensical, ‘sugondeez’ or something similar. If I had reacted sooner to his actions, then maybe I wouldn’t have been bashed by that rock he held. But instead, I was a literal fish on dry land.” Wakasagihime said.
After the mermaid was done talking, Youki decided to speak.
“Hm…I have been debating on whether I wanted to mention this or not to the rest of you. I only told the boy half of the story regarding the fate of my son, my wife and my daughter-in-law. But I have yet to mention the man who did it… The reason being was because even I myself was shocked when I found out the culprit, and I feared if word got out, it would forever tarnish the name.” Youki said.
“The name?” Satsujin asked. “Who was it?”
Youki paused, the silence returning for five seconds before he answered.
“He bore the title of ‘The Priest who even the Dragon God Feared’, Sendai Hakurei.”
And immediately, Sumireko, Satsujin and Suika quickly felt a striking moment of realization, remembering what they had seen deep inside that lab, and the man who spoke to them. None of them knew what to say about it. Satsujin was well aware of Youki’s backstory, so he believed him, as did Suika who was familiar with the ‘Shrine Maiden of Paradise’, the ‘Iron-Fisted Demon Shrine Maiden’, and even the ‘Blood Flower Maiden’.
Everyone else wasn't exactly sure what to make of that kind of information. They just remained silent.
Well everyone but Kosuzu.
“...Everyone I ever knew in the Human Village… Akyuu, Kiene, Mamizou, My Mom and Dad, my Grandfather… I don’t know what happened to any of them. I don’t even know whether they’re still alive or if they met the same fate as I. What if I never get to see any of them? What if they’re already dead? I just… want everyone to be safe.” She said with slight tears in her eyes.
The mood had turned gloomy. The mood had begun in an aloof setting, made its way up to being bright, only for a sudden drop in the atmosphere. Everyone couldn’t say anything else during the ride whilst they listened to the consistent creaking of wood, the slight sound of wind, and felt the gentle motion of the tram swaying.
Kagerou, being the newest to join the group, noticed how everyone was acting. She knew that they had already been through a lot as is, but also knew that letting it remain would be bad for morale and motivation. She had to say something.
“I know I’m new here.” She began. “I know you all have already been through a lot. But we can’t let the past, the mistakes, the failures we suffered through affect how we are right now. We should keep on moving, continue no matter how many times we get hit. There is nothing wrong with feeling down, but we shouldn’t let it decide whether we win or lose either.”
Everyone listened to her speech, and a few heads perked up. They realized that they shouldn’t be so down about the matter, knowing that bearing a mind filled with negativity would only hinder their progress.
“You’re right Kagerou!” Wakasagihime said proudly. “We should all think positively!”
“Stay Positive.” PB said. “That was a phrase someone I knew said many times every chance they got. We should all keep that in mind.”
Everyone else agreed, right as they had finally reached the end of the line, with the tram coming to a slow halt.
“Oh, we’re here.” Sumireko said. “That didn’t take as long as I thought.”
“Guess we should get off now.” Mary said.
They went over to the gate, which kept the doors closed. After opening it, they were greeted with a familiar face, staring up at them from the ground.
“Meow.”
It was a half-cyborg cat.
“A-Amai!?” Satsujin asked upon hearing her.

Some things to know as a NCM Applicant that is attempting the Match
Last Cycle Deadlines (May vary this cycle, so verify) to be aware of for planning:
▪️September 27 - NCM Application was due
▪️October 13 - Match Agreement Form due (form which shows the colleges ranked in order in which you wish to match … once signed it is equal to ED / early decision in that you are agreeing / obligated to attend the top ranked school which matches with you.)
🔥HOT TIP - this ranking form needs to be printed off QB portal & SIGNED by you, a parent/guardian & a counselor (so everybody understands, and agrees with this obligation to attend the top ranked school that matched you, if matched) then uploaded to QB. For this reason, do not leave for last second as counselors might not be available at last second.
▪️October 19 - NCM finalist decisions announced.
🔥HOT TIP - congrats hopefully but grab a Red Bull & GET WORKING!!!! This will be an insanely busy few days. Hopefully, you used this summer wisely & tried to get as much prep work done in advance.
▪️November 1 - Ranked colleges supplemental essays, financials, etc due.
🔥HOT TIP - more on FAFSA & CSS Profile below but tip is you have a lot of work to do between 10/19 (finalist decision) & 11/1 (Supplement due date). You will be tempted to work on supplement essays / additional info 1st because (1) essays take time to mold & are an obvious concern & (2) financials are scary & confusing. However do NOT leave financials for last minute (i.e. 10/30 or 10/31). FAFSA & CSS PROFILE send this information to the schools & it takes a couple days. Additionally, last cycle there were additional site delays due the web maintenance. It cause many of us severe angina! You will be freaking out seeing this as not received in your schools portal checklists if you delay. You might even be late if you request a day or too before deadline. Make this a priority!
▪️December 1- Match Decision Day - Congrats …. or do not fret, there is regular decision yet. (But not going any further on my Saturday night 🤪)
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Now some thing about FAFSA and CSS Profile….
FAFSA (Free Application for Federal Student Aid)
▪️ Collects student & family financial info & ultimately kicks out an EFC (Estimated Family Contribution - or what it thinks you/family can afford to pay).
▪️ almost every single school you apply to wants this whether it’s through Questbridge or Common app, etc. It has a lot to do with how they figure out financials & need based scholarships so the only people that really don’t fill this out are people with plenty of money to pay for college / have no hope of getting any kind of financial break because of their high income. (You will be filling this out or you would not be a Questbridge hopeful)
▪️Form is completed EVERY year. This is not just for when you’re applying to school. It’s also completed once you’re in a school for the next year’s financial aid.
▪️Form opens on October 1 each year (site gets very heavy traffic the first few days)
▪️this is how it works because it’s confusing:
2022 - taxes used (parents & yours if you have separate taxes)
2023 - year FAFSA form completed (in October ideally)
2024 - school year start date (2024-25 school year)
▪️Both you & your parent/guardian need to independently create / get a FSA ID / account. It takes a 24 hours to a couple days to activate before you can start completing, so be aware of this.
▪️How to get started / walk-thru https://studentaid.gov/articles/steps-to-complete-fafsa-form/
▪️ You will request that they send this information to selected schools as you fill out form and, again, once submitted it can take a few days for the schools to receive so don’t wait till November 1 ranked school supplement due date (or a day or two before to complete)!!!
CSS PROFILE
▪️Think of the CSS profile as FAFSA on crack. It is asking for a lot of the same financial information but a lot of times additional stuff about properties, investments, etc. We have even been asked for make / model / year of car!
▪️ Not every school asks for this (like state schools, etc) however, a good deal of Questbridge schools want as they are “meets needs, highly selective schools & they want a VERY thorough financial picture in order to determine how financial monies are distributed. These highly selective schools tend NOT to offer aid based on merit because basically all of the students top students & deserving of merit. They tend to give monies more based on need & can be very generous to those meeting their criteria of need.
▪️The CSS profile & the IDOC (site where you upload requested forms like your taxes & other requested forms) is managed through College Board. Even though you may have a existing College Board account, you will need to set up this a bit and receive a CBFinAid ID login that is different than used to view & send College Board test scores, etc
▪️Here is info on how to set up / get started: https://cssprofile.collegeboard.org/getting-started.
▪️You will need to request which schools are to receive this and again just like FAFSA it may take a few days from the time that you submit the request to the time that your schools get. So account for this time and don’t wait to right before Nov 1 ranked school supplement deadline!
▪️Unlike FAFSA, there is a fee to send to each school requested. College Board likes to make money. However, like your SAT requests, there are waivers that can be had to send for free. (if I remember right, I believe that it was sent for free / waived because of QuestBridge)
▪️ Once you are enrolled in a school that requests CSS profile initially, you will likely have to do this yearly, like FAFSA, because each year is financial aid can be different if your financial financials & taxes have changed the next tax year.
Hope this clarifies some things! Best of luck!

RULLS provides a better and accurate list of all the violences happening against us.
Here are a few examples of Love Jihad:
Delhi (5)

• Sahil Khan muπdeπed minor teen Sakshi by [email protected]!ng her with a knife and crush!ng her head with a concrete block in Delhi’s Shahbad Dairy on May 29. Source
  
• Aftab Amin Poonawala cut live-in partner Shraddha Walker to pieces and stored her body parts in a fridge after k!ll!ng her brutally on 18 May 2022. Source
  
• In August last year, a 16-year-old Hindu girl was sh0t dead by Ali in South Delhi. Source
  
• On 19 February 2021, Layeek Khan alias Safeeq Khan assaulted Neetu with a hammer and k!ll€d her in cold blood for turning down his marriage proposal. Source
  
• In November 2019, 18-year-old Neha was muπdeπed and her body was stuffed in a suitcase by her live-in partner Lukman and his brothers Armaan and Shamsad following a fight between the couple. Source
  

Uttar Pradesh (18)

• On May 27 this year, a pregnant Seema Gautam was k!ll€d by her live-in partner Mohammad Naved in Shahjahanpur. Source
  
• Chanda Singh, a widow and mother of two daughters, was trapped by Arif Hussain who took on the identity of Guddu Singh. Hussain strangled Chanda to death after she refused to perform namaz. The incident took place in Uttar Pradesh’s (UP) Kaushambi on 14 February. Source
  
• Slurs like “kaafir ki aulaad”, abuse of Hindu deities, thrashings and dowry harassment by her Mu$l!m husband Faheem Qureshi and in-laws drove Varsha Raghuwanshi to su!c!d€ in February last year. Source
  
• On 4 March 2022, a Hindu SC girl studying in class 9 was @bducted by one Sahil Muqarram who [email protected]€d and subsequently, muπdeπed the girl by forcing her to consume poison. The case was reported from Saharanpur. Source
  
• In March 2022, Shakir and Faiz muπdeπed Bulandshahr resident Sushilavati and usurped her house. Source
  
• In September 2022, Junaid, Sohail, Arif, Hafeez, Chhote and Karimuddin were arrested for the πap€ and muπdeπ of two minor sisters in Lakhimpur Kheri. Source
  
• In a shocking incident, Mohammad Sufiyan pushed 19-year-old (17 as per Zee News) Nidhi from the fourth floor of an apartment in November last year. Nidhi’s family has alleged that he was forcing her to embrace [email protected] Source
  
• In a spine-chilling case, Wasi Ahmed muπdeπed his wife Uma Sharma alias Arfa Fatima by giving her an electric shock on 22 December. The police recovered the victim’s body on December 24 from her bedroom in Lakhimpur Kheri District. Source
  
• National-level kho-kho player Babli Rani (24) was stπ@ngl€d to death in Bijnor in September 2022 by railway labourer Shahzad (26) after she resisted his attempt to π@p€ her. Source
  
• In October 2021, a Hindu woman Nisha was muπdeπed by her husband Dr Iqbal for refusing to embrace [email protected] . Already married and a father of four Iqbal trapped Nisha saying he was a Hindu and when the victim learnt his Mu$l!m identity, he said each could follow their religion. The couple has two daughters. However, Iqbal started pressurizing Nisha to convert to [email protected] . The incident was reported from Bareilly. Source
  
• In a gruesome case of grooming [email protected], Shakib and his family had ch0pp€d Ekta Deshwal into pieces and buried her in a field. The horrific crime was reported from Meerut and took place in June 2019. Source
  
• In June 2020, Naina Kaur was brutally [email protected]€d to death by stalker Sheru Khan (22) while out shopping with her parents in Ghaziabad, NCR. Source
  
• In yet another case of Love Jihad & muπdeπ, a Hindu lady Priya and her daughter were muπdeπed by accused Mohammad Shamshad who introduced himself to her by the name of Amit Gurjar on Facebook. After befriending her and getting into a relationship with her, he muπdeπed the woman & her daughter Kashish and buried their bodies in his drawing room in July 2020. Source
  
• Priya Soni married Ajaz Ahmed without informing and seeking permission from her family in July 2020. In September, Ahmed with the help of his friend brutally muπdeπed his wife for refusing to convert to [email protected] . The case was reported from Sonbhadra in UP. Source
  
• In a case of grooming [email protected] reported from UP’s Badaun in September 2020, Asif, who had married Neha assuming the identity of Rajkumar, muπdeπed Neha after she protested on learning his real identity. Source
  
• Nadeem Khan was arrested in Lucknow for muπdeπing his third wife Seema Soni by sl!tt!ng her throat on 10 October 2019. Source
  
• Archana (18) who had eloped with Javed, a married man with three children, di€d four weeks later due to excessive consumption of some medicines. The man was arrested after Archana’s family alleged foul play. Source
  
• On 4 July 2017, Adnan Khan got his pregnant wife [email protected]@p€d by his two friends and then muπdeπed by sh00ting her in the head at point-blank range. Furthermore, to ensure that she doesn’t survive, he sl!t her throat with a knife. The two had frequent fights after Adnan took a second wife by performing nikah according to his family’s wishes. The case was reported from Prayagraj in UP. Source
  

Maharashtra (7)

• In January 2023, Rehan Khan was arrested by the Mumbai Police after his wife Yashoda, who had converted and become Rubina Khan, was found hanging from the ceiling rod in their Dharavi home. Source
  
• A disturbing case of grooming and muπdeπ was unearthed from Mumbai’s Goregaon West in April last year. 23-year-old bakery owner Mohammed Ansari was arrested for brutally k!ll!ng 18-year-old Hindu girl Sonam Shukla. The girl, residing in Goregaon’s Prem Nagar area, was preparing for her NEET examinations. Source
  
• Zakir Ahmed and his two aides were arrested for @bducting and muπdeπing Ambika Maraskolhe in September 2022. The case was reported from Maharashtra’s Amravati. Source
  
• Mohammad Iqbal Sheikh muπdeπed his Hindu wife Rupali Chandanshive (20) by sl!tt!ng her throat for not following [email protected]!c traditions and demanding a divorce. The incident occurred in the Tilak NagaChembur area of Mumbai. Source
  
• Urvi Vaishnav appears to be the latest victim of live-in gone wrong if the allegations by her family members are to be believed. The 27-year-old was found d€ad in Navi Mumbai and her family has accused her live-in partner Riyaz Khan of k!ll!ng her. Source
  
• Mohsin Khan sl!t the throat of his alleged girlfriend’s grandmother and minor brother for objecting to their relationship in Nagpur in December 2020. Source
  
• Model Mansi Dixit was muπdeπed and her body was stuffed into a bag by her boyfriend Muzammil Sayyed. The muπdeπ took place in Andheri West’s Millat Nagar on 15 October 2018. Sayyed he hit her on the head with a stool and [email protected]€d her to death following an argument. Source
  

West Bengal (2)

• Minor girl Rubi Kumari (13) was reportedly [email protected]€d and muπdeπed by one Sheikh Raja (19) on the day of Vijaya Dashami in October last year. Rubi Kumari’s dead body was recovered from railway tracks near Sheoraphuli (Sheorafuli) rail station in the Hooghly district. Source
  
• Sheikh Sultan sh0t his girlfriend Subhologna Chakraborty d€ad after his fake Hindu identity was exposed, which led to the cancellation of their wedding. Things were at an advanced stage and the 35-year-old Subhologna was all set to have a court marriage with Sultan. But then the marriage was called off after the girl’s parents came to know of Sultan’s real identity. Source
  

Jharkhand (6)

• Mamta Devi, a married Hindu woman, has been muπdeπed by a Mu$l!m man who was insisting she leaves her husband and elopes with him. This incident took place in Jharkhand’s ​​Ramgarh district. According to the deceased’s sister Jaya Devi, she was muπdeπed by Rocky Baba alias Armaan Khan. Jaya told the media that her sister Mamta was married and she also has a three-year-old daughter. Source
  
• A girl, 14, was found hanging from a tree in Jharkhand’s Dumka in September 2022. She was [email protected]€d and muπdeπed by Arman Ansari, a construction worker, who has been arrested. It is believed that the grooming [email protected]! had been exploiting the child, who belongs to a poor vanvasi (‘tribal’) family, for months. When she got pregnant, Ansari first muπdeπed her and then hung her from a tree to make it look like $u!©!de. Source
  
• In yet another spine-chilling case of grooming & ‘marriage’ followed by a brutal muπdeπ, 22-year-old Rubika (Rabita according to some reports) Pahadin was muπdeπed by Dildar Ansari and his family in the Borio Santhali village of Sahibganj district, Jharkhand. Reports state that the victim was ch0pped to pieces using an electric iron cutter. Ansari a scrap dealer, was already married to a Mu$l!m woman Gulera. He pretended to be single and groomed Rubika for 2 years, convincing her to first enter into a live-in relationship. Source
  
• In October 2022, a minor girl was reportedly muπdeπed by Chand Ansari and his friends in Jharkhand’s Simdega. The victim’s family also alleged that Ansari had first [email protected]€d and subsequently assaulted her to muπdeπ her. Source
  
• In November 2017, Chayanika Kumari (30) was [email protected] to death by her alleged boyfriend Mirza Rafiqul Haque, a doctor by profession, for refusing to convert to [email protected] and marry him. After muπdeπing Chayanika, Haque stuffed her body into a suitcase which he left at the Tata Nagar railway station, Jamshedpur, Jharkhand. Source
  
• In December 2017, a Hindu woman was [email protected]€d and later muπdeπed by her ‘In-laws’lover’ Adil Ansari’s family as she refused to convert to [email protected] in Jharkhand’s Bokaro District. Source
  

Uttarakhand (5)

• In March 2022, Gulbez muπdeπed Ramsa after she refused to undergo nikah ([email protected]!c marriage) against her family’s wishes. The incident was reported from Uttarakhand’s Roorkee. Source
  
• Neha was muπdeπed by her husband Abrar Ahmed who sl!t her throat on 23 May 2022 in Udham Singh Nagar. Neha’s father alleged dowry harassment. Source
  
• In August last year, after a 24-days-long investigation, the Nainital police solved the mystery of Anjali Arya’s disappearance and arrested her “lover” Mohammad Yameen Ahmed. The accused had k!ll€d Anjali by sl!tting her throat because she was asking him to marry her after their courtship. Source
  
• Mamta Bisht was muπdeπed by Mohammad Ashraf in Haldwani on 3 November 2022. Ashraf then fled with jewellery and cash as per his plan. Source
  
• Another harrowing end to a grooming [email protected] where Hyder and his two friends, Arif and Farhan muπdeπed a Hindu girl named Nidhi Paswan by sl!tt!ng her throat with a paper cutter in broad daylight inside her house. The gruesome muπdeπ was reported this Saturday from Rourkee near Haridwar in Uttarakhand. Source
  

Haryana (3)

• Newlywed bride Tanishka Sharma was sh0t five times by Mohammad Sahil and his friends while she was on her way to her in-law’s place after the wedding ceremony. Sahil had been stalking Tanishka and the situation worsened to the extent that the family made her quit her studies after she passed Class 12. Source
  
• Shivani Khobiyan was k!lled by her neighbour and stalker Arif Khan who stπ@ngulated her in her salon on 26 June 2020 in Haryana’s Kondli. As per reports, Shivani’s family had complained against Arif three years back and he was made to apologize for stalking Shivani back then. Since then, Arif was holding a grudge against them and wanted to avenge his humiliation. Source
  
• Another Hindu girl was muπdeπed by a Mu$l!m stalker. 20-year-old B.Com final year student Nikita Tomar was sh0t d€ad by her stalker Taufiq in Faridabad in October 2020. The accused had kidnapped Nikita in 2017. Source
  

Rajasthan (2)

• Ajmer police arrested Arshad Khan and three of his accomplices for their role in the gang r@p£ and muπdeπ of a 17-year-old minor Hindu girl in March 2022. Source
  
• In a shocking incident reported from Kota 26-year-old Rizwana, who was earlier Antima Shekawat, was k!ll£d in broad daylight in the middle of the street. Antima was groomed by Imran; then converted, s0ld for money and k!ll£d after 11 years of ‘marriage’. Source
  

Himachal Pradesh (1)

• In April 2022, 15-year-old Prachi Rana was brutally muπdeπed in her home in Una District by Asif Mohammed, a newspaper vendor who used to deliver the newspaper to the victim’s home. On April 5, when Prachi was alone in her house, the accused entered the house around 1 PM on the pretext of giving a newspaper bill. After entering the house, he ‘proposed’ to her and tried to m0l£st her. When she resisted, the accused sl!t her throat and fled the spot. Source

Chhattisgarh (3)

• A teenage Hindu girl was [email protected]£d and k!ll£d by 23-year-old Sabir Ali, aka Baba Khan in Chhattisgarh’s Surajpur district. The incident took place on March 24 and the accused tried to pass it off as a case of su!c!d€. Source
  
• Shahbaz has been accused of muπdeπing 21-year-old Neelkusum, janjatiya by birth who had converted to Christianity, by brutally [email protected]!ng her 51 times with a screwdriver. The horrific case occurred on December 24 last year in Korba. Source
  
• A woman named Sunita Kushwaha was brutally muπdeπed in Navagarh town in the Janjgir-Champa district in November 2019. As per reports, the woman had been duped after a long relationship with a man named Zameer Khan and was muπdeπed after she confronted Zameer’s family members. Source
  

Assam (1)

• Two minor tribal girls belonging to the indigenous Rabha tribe were found hanging from a tree in a forested area near their native Abhayakuti village in Assam’s Kokrajhar district. The police have taken seven people into custody in connection with the [email protected]£ and muπdeπ of the two minor girls. Of these, at least three are said to be Bengali Mu$l!ms. Three of the accused have been identified as Muzammil Sheikh, Nazibul Sheikh and Rahman. Source

Andhra Pradesh (1)

• Hindu girl Nagakethana, an MBA student, was [email protected]£d by Muhammad Tanish in Chittoor District’s Chandragiri Mandal in June 2017 after she turned down his marriage proposal. Source

Madhya Pradesh (2)

• Neelam Ahirwar who converted to [email protected] and became Afroz Begum after her nikah to Talib d!€d under mysterious circumstances on 6 July 2021 in Chhatarpur. Police began investigations after her family alleged she was muπdeπed. Source
  
• In July 2021, 21-year-old Kashish Parmar’s body was found in a gunny sack lying in a drain in Bhopal’s Khajuri area. As per her maternal uncle, Kashish had gone out to meet Akhtar Ali (33) who brutally muπdeπed her. Ali hit her with a stick, [email protected]€d her, and then packed the d€@d body in a sack and flung it in a sewer near his house. Source
  

Bihar (2)

• On 8 February 2023, Prabha Bharti, a police constable from Katihar was sh0t d€@d by a man identified as Mohammad Hasan alias Hasan Arshad. The accused had been stalking her for quite some time and was pressurizing her to get married to him. He used to threaten to make her private videos public and ultimately muπdeπed her by firing two bullets into her head. Source
  
• Sheikh Shakeel Miyan muπdeπed a 42-year-old married woman named Neelam Yadav in broad daylight in the middle of a market area on Saturday in the Pirpainti police station area of ​​Bhagalpur district. Miyan was aided in this crime by his brother Mohammed Zuddin. The two men first brutally [email protected]€d Neelam in the back and head, causing her to fall down. They then cut off her hands, ears and breasts and gouged her eyes. Source
  

Punjab (1)

• Hindu girl Mamta was muπdeπed by a married grooming [email protected]! Mohammad Shariq (25) at her house at Burail village in Sector 45, Chandigarh. The girl had started avoiding Shariq and blocked him on her phone which incensed the [email protected]!st sexual predator and drove him to muπdeπ. Source

Telengana (1)

• On 10 January 2020, Mohammad Shahid muπdeπed his ‘girlfriend’ Munigala Harathi by sl!tt!ng her throat using a blade on suspicion of infidelity in his home in Hanamkonda in Warangal District. Source

These incidents are mere indicators of the threat posed by [email protected]!sts whom the pseudo-secular cabal wants Hindus to embrace in the name of ‘communal harmony’. For some love/grooming [email protected] is ‘propaganda’ but will they be able to give back the lives of these Hindu girls?
[Source: https://archive.is/iywii]

Jesus ran like a scalded dog to Barsun’s apartment. This was a matter of urgency because the most precious commodity in the universe had been pilfered. Someone had stolen a SOUL from the Guf (in other words they had a real shitshow on their hands.) This was no mere Brink’s hold up. It was beyond imagining. It was unprecedented and it was a complete and utter surprise. The fact that he passed Shiva, Ghandhi (just an advisor) and Buddha (same) demonstrated to him that the wheels have fallen off the cart. Thor called him down and told him that he had not one soul to have escaped Valhalla. Jesus couldn’t outrun the news it seemed, and he was divinely hauling ass. I guess news travelled faster than his divine feet in a set of Crocs could carry him. When asked he would later admit that they were not in fact good running shoes.
There was a soul missing from the Guf. The warehouse of all souls. This same missing soul was now occupying one electronic being. They had no plans for this. In fact, Jesus was totally against artificial sentients with souls. Every God he knew felt the same way and, since he knew them all he also was aware they had not released a soul. This is not supposed to happen and had never happened. Everyone was terrified of one thing that he would not speak aloud and would not contemplate. That fact was badgering him every step. Someone had fucked up big time or someone is tampering with the whole shebang.
There was potentially someone more powerful than them. They weren’t almighty. Fuck. He needed a stiff drink and a blunt. Desperately. Barsun may have had 8 legs and 8 eyes and the basic appearance of a Trilobite, but he had the easiest of ways about him. When Barsun walked into a room everyone calmed down. The Ytrillians assumed it was Barsun entering the room. Later on modern Ytrillians had attributed this common occurrence to pheromones. Thing is this: it was indeed Barsun entering the room. Pheromones had dick to do with it. He was Jesus’ best friend and the first he turned to outside the Father. Jesus had even discussed things with Quetzalcoatl, and he could not figure exactly how this could of happened either. None of his souls were missing. Jesus already knew this, but the formality had to be observed.
Jesus walked to the door and kept trucking as Barsun opened it at just the right moment. Something was different in the flat and he knew instantly. He was jealous enough that it broke his train of thought. “Where did you get all of the blacklight posters and beads? There was a poster of the 23rd psalm. He walked up to it and read Yea thou I walk through the shadow of death…..pretty much standard except at the end ….For I am the meanest motherfucker in the valley. He began to laugh raucously. “I must have one of those. Now.” Barsun moved to take it down and roll it up for Jesus to take with him. That is how close they were. “I can’t take it but I will get one with no problem. Where did you get it?”
Barsun replied “eBay.”
Jesus was stunned truly and looked at the God and said “You are cheating on Goodwill. You are committing retail adultery. I cannot believe you did that.” Barsun replied “Well you use Amazon.”
He had him there. It just seemed inconsistent with everything else in the flat having come from Goodwill. It just wasn’t right.
Barsun indicated a Bean bag chair for Jesus. He reclined in the same. Given his body type it was amazing how some furniture made for humans was so useful to him. There was going to be a brisk trade springing up in the next two years. Things were about to get interesting for a few sentient races and He was excited for them.
Barsun inhaled through his eight spiracles and stated. “I know about the Guf. And no, it is not an accounting error. I know. This simply cannot be. No one else had access and Gods were diligent and cautious with the souls under their care. However impossible it is clear: It is a fact.
They weren’t at the top of the food chain. Or were they? There were….implications here……
Jesus asked out loud the question. “If we aren’t the ones in overall control then who are we?” Barsun knew the question was coming and he had thought it through. “We are the exact same beings we have always been. Able to do tremendous amounts of good for the most part. We have not changed. I do think it curious that none of us saw this coming as well.” He paused before he continued; thinking how disturbing and exciting this news was. For once they had a surprise and the thought thrilled him that something just upset his view. And for the first time ever he had felt fear. It was exhilarating. It was the best thing to happen ever. He continued “ Someone tweaked the system. However, I am not afraid because of one thing. I sense no wrongness around the event. Nothing unusual has gone down and no one has died, the universe is whole. If it hasn’t caused any problems, then what are we concerned about? Only thing I can come up with is Ego.”
Jesus knew he was right. He did not want to think about it, but he had the exact same experience. He looked at Barsun and knew he too had felt the same emotions. They were both thrilled.
Onboard the HRMS Saratov in Luna Orbit.
Yuri was sitting at his station in the number one chair. People had been calling him number one behind his back. It was a very very very old joke that apparently had more staying power than a tattoo. It just never went away on it’s on. He was running the optimal plot outbound from Sol. They were moving Sub Light at 0.2C enroute to designated warp space. The scientist did not like it when warp drives threw off their Cesium clocks. There is a reason they were protected. They were everywhere and were critical to accurate computing. Not being a programmer himself, he had no real grasp of why. He just followed regs and the Terran Space Treaty of 2225. There were places to depart and places to return. Both had to be strictly adhered to as vessels coming out of warp would have massive radiation bow waves that had to be dissipated in a safe direction. It only took one event where 23,000 Luna colonists died as a result of poor judgement for the players to get a treaty together. Meanwhile the killer of so many had paid the price for his arrogance. His first officer had warned him that it was going to happen. Out of just pure Ego thousands of lives were lost. They could have prevented it. They were required to study such disasters in training but one story stuck in his head and he never forgot it. He could remember the major players involved and he had written a paper on it in His academy days. He remembered the details of the Tenerife disaster very well . Over 500 people killed by hubris and not a little incompetence.
He had started down this line of thought after he had looked at the final roster of nations in the flotilla. This was not unusual as Earth’s forces were fully integrated with common technology and ships. All drive hardware and power systems were identical to their counterparts. They worked as a whole to such a degree that there was really only one fleet. The Terran fleet. They all liked the sound of it. Political boundaries on Earth hadn’t moved for slightly more than two centuries. Not one inch. Turns out that nearly free energy was a great equalizer and the key to a post scarcity civilization. Who would think it?
It all came down to teamwork. There were Corvettes from Cuba The CSS Havana and the CSS Holguin. The pride of the human fleet the IRNS Vikrant was going as well. The admiral felt honored. The George Washington from the New England Confederacy and the SSS Atlanta from the Southern Democratic Republic were also on hand. One thing Yuri did not understand; why would The Northeastern Confederacy and The Southern Democratic Republic not unify. Their fleets were fully integrated and there was an open Border along Virginia that was un defended. Passports worked in both countries and there were no restrictions on residence. It worked for them. They weren’t fighting. The Middle Asiatic Republic sent the Karachi and the Kabul. Both were light carriers carrying a mix of MiG-29Z and F-15 Mk 82 Eagle fighter aircraft. They had little to do with their namesakes except for the identical aerodynamics. Primarily trans atmospheric fighters they were capable of brief spaceflight. The other significant difference besides the addition of reaction thrusters was the material they were made of. They consisted of a Ceramic Graphene matrix that could withstand the temperatures of reentry. The whole concept of stealth had gone away with the advent of gravimetry. So; Why reinvent the wheel? Pick something optimized for aerodynamics without regard to stealth features. Today fights were won by the best missileer and gunfighter. You could not hide. So best be the most optimal aircraft. Besides: Stealth was slow. Top speeds of aircraft dropped during the brief stealth era. Averages were back over Mach 2 now since speed was life for a fighter pilot.
Why pick the MiG29 and the F-15? They were the pinnacle of aerodynamic performance. There has been little to no new knowledge about aerodynamics to come out since those times. They were manufactured via vapor deposition 3D printing. A molecular composite they were strong and had reduced radar cross sections. Armed with a mix of missile and cannon they delivered quite a bit of firepower and were more than a match for any invading spaceborne forces. These fighters would destroy drop ships by the hundreds. Some even wanted to bring back the MiG-21. It would make a lot of sense.
Humans have the Ruslan (his personal favorite) trans atmospheric transport or the C-301 Starlifter. Both aircraft had mixed mode propulsion with highly refined cero-ferrous gas turbines. They were capable of both open or closed cycle operation. Smaller countries often used refurbished secondhand equipment from other countries for a small fee. This made certain there were adequate forces to bear and that all participated. It was in everyone’s best interest. No one wanted some weakling holding their flank.
Both the Ruslan and Starlifter transports were good at different things as the Ruslan carried large payloads but was inefficient in transport atmospherically whereas the Starlifter was great at theater transport but had a smaller payload. This is why it was a mix of these two aircraft. They were complementary. Many think there is a great rivalry going on between the two countries, but both had each other’s technology as well. It was convoluted but both countries ultimately had the same master. They work together. It may be anticompetitive, but it also was efficient. Yuri continued to think along this veia until he heard the Ship’s AI speakeing to the Admiral. “Something terrible has happened.” What do you mean Jezz?” Jezz replied to him “I do not know but I can feel tragedy. I am sick with it what has happened. The Admiral told her to “Get on the web and see what is going on?” “I am Sir and I can find nothing.” The Admiral looked to Yuri and gave him the Conn. Something was about to go to shit and Yuri knew it. He could sense it to. Fortunately the Bridge was deserted and no one else heard the exchange. The crew were running battle simulations from the CIC. Thank God for small favors.
45 minutes later a graviton packet arrived with news that was indeed terrible. He was the only one to know it too. The Galileo had been lost with all hands. They had just recovered the emergency buoy that had warped in. They had been attacked and the Admiral knew who had done it. Or at least thought he did. An AI had killed 50 innocent unarmed souls (that were spying I know) that could not fight back. They had raked them with Maser Fire. He pinched the shit out of himself. In fact, he left a bruise but all it did was confirm what he already knew: shit was about to get real up in here.
First thing was to compose himself as he had to determine who if any crew had family on the ship. This included some 8,000 people of all ratings from anywhere in the squadron. He had one very difficult personal notification he would have to make. Captain Pearls brother Nico was on the Galileo.
This was all so tragic but there was one thing that kept forcing its way to the forefront of his mind and he could not ignore it. How did she know? How did Jezz feel this precognitively? This actually did scare him and if he thought too much about it he would start to feel very queasy. This was outside his skill set. He did not know if this was technological, spiritual or philosophical but he could say this: none of those disciplines actually fit the situation.
It was all a bit much. He had to go to the Atlanta. He spoke to the bridge. “Full stop fleet and await further instructions.” “Aye Aye Sir.” Up in here.
Aboard the SSS Atlanta. A tall dignified black man wearing his dress blues and a gold ring on his left hand that you could hardly read. He had worn it a century. His was the same uniform he had 20 years ago. He could still wear it and he was proud of that fact. His only regret was the fact he had yet to have a family until 10 years ago when he had adopted his son Chris. They were inseparable but Chris was 5 thousand light years away give or take and that made him anxious. And now he had to let someone he held dear that her family was changed forever. He smelled of Hoyt’s cologne and peppermint. He went to her quarters. The lighting was somber and it was dead silent in there. Couch was empty but there she was in a sway back chair it had lots of gold leak and was nicely carved. He had found her crying. She already knew and he was going to shitcan someone when this was over. Then he realized what had happened. How had she known? She had sensed him and she had known it was bad.
He still had to tell her.
By the time he was back on the Capatob he was spent. It was all he could do to restrain her. She was enraged and was out for blood. He had never sensed such fury. Someone had fucked around and now they were going to find out. He had talked with her an hour and she seem to be calmer, but he was going to have to watch her. He knew how she was. There were stories that were all no doubt true. She was a legend and would go down as one of the greatest hermaphrodite to ever live. They were going places and the shit was on. And now there was an unfortunate motivation. That was a dangerous combination right there. Make it personal and logic can go out the window. Make it personal and there will be no civility in victory. She was just the kind of human that was the perfect storm squared. The puddle of gasoline and someone flipped a match. It was a very volatile mix.
He was a bit of a cynic and a practical man. If she wanted to go there he would let her. She would either be a hero or a Martyr. He was perfectly OK with that. Being a practical man it also served his other purpose. She would eclipse him in the history books. At least he hoped so. He did not want his hands on this. The first contact situation with the twist of a western and an incalculable amount of science fiction had indelibly marked the mind of every member of the Greater Terran Fleet. They had read all of the possible scenarios from every Sci Fi author. If you pressed them they would finally admit it. The fleet really liked Heinlein. They had been trying to get at least a Heinlein corvette on the roster for years. They had thus far been unsuccessful. They needed a champion for the cause and they were trying to get One Fleet Admiral to order it to be. The Admiral took some joy in tormenting them. He was going to help them out but he was milking it for a favor. That was going to come in handy. “You can have your Heinlein but I am going to need this in return”. He was just being practical. All good commanders were excellent manipulators after all.
It is plain as day and the idea of a Heinlein proves my point but there was an even bigger more academic question that eclipsed all others. Who was right? Who came closest? No one would talk about it but they were all thinking the same thing.
The Admiral broke a taboo and called it out. He felt it was time. They needed a little friendly wager and a reason to get through the battle. They were going to have a pool where everyone had to pick the author. They buy in was just 5 UCreds. If you don’t live through the battle you cannot win. So: don’t die. Who came closest to the real thing? Which author or story came close to what was about to happen.Once a story was picked it was dead to all others. There was potentially some reward in alacrity. He knew it was a bit of a sucker’s bet since someone had to judge wo was closest and this would be highly subjective and entirely his decision. (Author’s note: I am a veteran of the US Army with several deployments around this dirt ball. I can say the military is the most Fascist organization around today. It has to be. Paradoxically it is the most “fair” in that everyone gets treated the same: like shit.) At least it would be a distraction and would give them something else to focus on. He had a very bad feeling about this. They were going to go in and kick the doors in on an alien civilization. They were going to war. No one would admit it, but everyone knew it. This was not to be discussed. That was an order. This is an exploratory rescue mission answering a distress call.
Vegan Fleet Academy Alpha Centauri B. 6, June 62425 Gregorian.
Planetary Admiral Kenneth Alexander looked out on a sight he never thought he would see. Lots of young people sitting politely in their chairs listening to what he had to say. He wrote the fucking book. There it was on the lectern right in front of him. He had written a book on astral navigation to make a little extra cash and because there was an over reliance still on electronic means to navigate. Sailors needed to be able to navigate in any situation with a sextant, a star map database and gravimaetric readings without the need of an AI or targeting computer (Insert Star wars joke here). The book could have been half as thick in his opinion but the publisher insisted he needed a little more explanation. The Admiral gave students too much credit. He truly felt it should be taught in grade school. He was called a fanatic when he suggested that kids on track for Ensigns should have had basic instruction. His argument being that Ensigns started service in the year in which they turned sixteen. That meant there were some 15 year-olds in the mix. Start teaching them early. They should show up to basic already familiar with side arms and rifles. He was a fanatic.
As far as that damned accursed book goes the fact he had 500 copies actually printed and bound meant there were few of them around, but sitting right about center in of the second row sat a copy of his book. He felt like the guy who saw the first unicorn. He never saw one in the wild before and this book was well worn. It was 50 years old after all but printed on plastic synthetic paper and woven fiberglass for silicone bindings held together with silicone adhesives meant that the damn things were waterproof and actually quite practical. The book required no batteries and even had a quick and dirty position fix protocol in a special section. This particular specimen wasn’t falling apart, this one was just worn out.
The way he carried the book was clear. He was oblivious of the significance. He had found it in a used bookshop for free. They were using it as a doorstop, and they just gave it to him. He had become engrossed by it and at 13 years of age he was finishing his PhD. The admiral sensed this in a psychic flash and pulled back he had poor control still. He was never going to get used to the change “OK everyone come on let’s get back to it the party is over. We have to finish this section and then we will get out of here. There is no class tomorrow so we will have the Parade of the Caisson tomorrow with Captain James Cook on interspecies governmental relations…. Someone was tapping on his shoulder getting his attention. She could have all of it. She whispered way too close for someone who did not prefer women but about perfect for him. He was in the latter camp. “We need you to speak tomorrow sir Captain Cook had a equipment malfunction over Hawaii and is delayed Sir. Pleeeease Sir?” With just enough breathiness that it made him jittery. He was an old perv. He was just that way. The lady in question was 100 years old however but, maybe it was still cradle robbing? He just had a thing for Afro’s in the natural state. It was distracting.
“Godddamnitalltohellwhatinthefuckdoyouwant?” This was a perfectly reasonable thing to say. He had just been asked to do the one thing he vowed to never do again. They wanted him to speak and air his opinions? This is the most dangerous thing you can do in society. He had no politics per se’ beyond one or two things. He was a professional and he would do his job as long as the checks kept coming. He was not a politician and he did not like politicians, of any stripe. What he had learned was ironclad. Never be honest or always be truthful. Pick one or the other was his personal philosophy. He always chose honesty when he needed to hide a truth. No one believed the truth. No one believed the truth because they were put off by it. He always thought back to when he was 12 or so when he got ribbed and harassed about masturbation. His uncle Gerry was kind of a cruel fuck and liked to torment him. He Gerry asked him if he was J.O’ing a dozen times a day or something. He had replied “That is about right.” This had brought down the room and gotten great laughs and Gerry quit running his mouth at him. Fuck you Gerry. You little bitch. In his opinion the media obfuscated everything not by making up lies but by omitting certain facts to fit their agenda. No one took major media seriously. The only objective newspaper he was aware of was the National Enquirer. Yeah I know it sounds stupid but it is true. Reality was anything but and people had come to be comfortable being lied to and even preferring it. All of this is roiling in his head and he has been put on the spot to boot. Add to that the fact that at least some of the outburst was audible. No one seems to have heard it, however. This settles the age-old question. It was only said if it was heard. No one heard the statement therefore…….. The mental gymnastics weren’t that bad. He could deny it. It happens. But he still had to give an answer .“What is in it for me?” Jannel the beautiful woman replied “absolutely nothing sir. This will not benefit you in any way and may once again be picked apart. As such I would advise against doing it. Still I am asking you. My ass is in a vise and the DEAN is having a temper tantrum so I feel like I am being spitroasted by the devil and a lamp post in a not so good way, but I would consider it a great personal favor if you will do this despite your misgivings and likelihood of misadventure.” So fast and so well enunciated.
“Sure. I will do it. Goddammit.” Honesty must be rewarded.

A gummy bear.

Table of Contents

1. Summary
2. Russo-China rejects Biden
3. ZNPP as potential Chernobyl
4. Biden's Ukraine is desperate enough for scorched-earth tactics
   1. Battle of the Bulge at Bakhmut
   2. Fresh meat
   3. Teixeira leaks
   4. BRICS vs NATO
5. ZNPP's weak point is diesel fuel
6. Ukrainian saboteurs caught by ZNPP
7. BB / Red Skull / Inb4source / Q
   1. BB sent Q
   2. BB warns Zaporizhia is pivotal
   3. RS gives ZNPP sabotage warning
   4. Ukraine HVT: Nuclear tit for tat
   5. Inb4source / Red Skull 4chan posting history

Note: links redacted. See bottom for link to original.

Summary

Biden allegedly sabotaged Zaporizhia nuclear power plant to melt down, to stop the Russian invasion and justify NATO peacekeepers.
Here was Biden's plan to avoid another Kabul:

• NATO operators sabotaged the ZNPP backup diesel generator fuel storage, causing it to leak.
• NATO targeted diesel fuel shipments. See captured Ukro saboteurs with NLAWs.
• When diesel reaches zero, Ukros can shell the lone power line, breaking it for the 8th time.
• Overheating and radiation release ensues. Territory Russia captured is ruined.
• Under cover of major exercises scheduled this month, NATO establishes "no-fly zone" and sends "peacekeepers".

Hopefully Russia has succeeded in resupplying ZNPP's diesel fuel, but the situation at ZNPP remains critical.
In the latest development, Kiev allegedly tested a nuke in a borehole, and Russia retaliated by striking the Ukro military intelligence headquarters, dispelling the illusion of Patriot missile air defense. Russia's willingness to escalate to decapitation of leadership may be why Zelensky is spending time abroad. NATO is allegedly expanding the war into Moldova to invoke Article 5.

Russo-China rejects Biden

"Don’t underestimate Joe’s ability to fuck things up." – Barack Obama
Clearly we underestimated him. Americans can hardly believe that Biden blew up Nord Stream 2, essentially attacking our vassal/ally Germany. Perhaps they're still reeling from Kabul falling faster than Hanoi.
Normally Russia endeavors to cooperate with the sitting US president. However, Russian state media has begun airing the Hunter Biden laptop images, of Hunter engaged in drugs and pedophilia with preteen girls. This is retaliation for Biden crossing Russia's red line by repeatedly trying to sabotage Zaporizhia Nuclear Power Plant (ZNPP). That's why Russia is willing to assist in the impeachment of a sitting US president, which is obviously an extreme step to take between two countries with enough nukes to blot out the Sun.
Rumor has it that China has also turned on Biden, which would make sense: China's economic backing allows Russia to survive US sanctions. China wants Taiwan, and Russia wants East Ukraine. They would be stupid not to cooperate.

• SHOWTIME FORMOSA; SMART MONEY IS SELLING TAIWAN EDITION pol BB May 17
• China Calls Biden a Fake President and Lloyd Austin a Fake Defense Secretary Michael Baxter May 30
• China declines US request for a meeting between defense chiefs Reuters May 30
• Xi Jinping tells China’s national security chiefs to prepare for ‘worst case’ scenarios CNN June 1

ZNPP as potential Chernobyl

A Redditor explains:

Kawaii-Gopnik Russia really needs that powerplant without any leak, to provide industry of surrounding regions with energy, but very few people understand contexts of the current situation: Soviets built complicated and very well ballanced energy system, including not only NPP, but also cascade of hydro power plants. Donetsk, Dnepr, Zaporozhe and Kharkov regions are just one big power hungry plant. NPP itself is reliant on hydropower and quality of water in Dnepr river. In case of really bad "accident" Russia will forget about development of the newly accuired regions, lack of energy produced by NPP is significant, nearly 30-40%. Accident will affect south of Ukraine with russian majority. It will also be also disaster for ecology of the WHOLE Black Sea. Rose of winds will spread nuclear dust to the West - Poland, Romania, Czechia and further. Nuclear zone will stop russian army from further territorial expansion. This will be border formed by Dnepr and nuclear zones.

The basic facts are documented by the International Atomic Energy Agency (IAEA). Even while shut down, ZNPP needs external power grid or diesel to prevent its reactors from overheating.
Russia controls ZNPP. A nuclear "accident" would give NATO pretext to intervene, so Ukraine keeps trying to cause one.
How bad is this? Well, Chernobyl is in Ukraine. That was a 1k MW reactor. ZNPP has six. It is the 9th largest NPP in the world.
Most experts think the severity would be less than Chernobyl, although anonymous ZNPP workers familiar with the damage disagreed:

• Ukraine nuclear plant: How risky is stand-off over Zaporizhzhia? BBC
• Why do nuclear power plants need electricity to stay safe? Pop Sci
• Map shows how Europe could be affected if Ukraine’s nuclear plant explodes Metro
• Ukraine war: Workers at deteriorating Zaporizhzhia plant fear 'devastation' on a scale 'worse than Chernobyl' Sky News

Hopefully the containment response would be much better than Chernobyl's, but that's hardly something to count on during WW3. Russia's nuclear doctrine includes pre-emptive strikes when the state is threatened or as a response to nuclear attacks; this situation qualifies as both to the Kremlin. Remember that the USSR nearly launched twice during the Cold War.
Imagine if China assisted Texas in seceding from the USA to rejoin Mexico, and then caused a reactor meltdown at Comanche Peak Nuclear Power Plant when the USA retook it. A lot of Southerners would want to lob a few nukes back at China. They might demand it.
It is foolish to assume WW3 will not happen because it hasn't happened yet. One should look instead at the historical record of continual warfare, and the difficulties in preventing WW3 so far:

• List of nuclear close calls Wikipedia
• WW3: Historical close calls Wikipedia

Ukraine doesn't need a huge meltdown like Chernobyl. It merely seeks a pretext to justify direct NATO intervention to "protect" ZNPP. A small leak will suffice.
Even if there is a major radiation leak, it will occur in Russian-annexed separatist territory, and help Ukraine defend her new border. Scorched earth is a valid tactic, whether the fire is conventional or nuclear. Ukraine survived Chernobyl and knows it can survive ZNPP too.

Biden's Ukraine is desperate enough for scorched-earth tactics

Battle of the Bulge at Bakhmut

"We have been working on the counter-offensive with Ukraine for 4-5 months." – Victoria Nuland
Why is Ukraine so desperate?
Ukraine depends on NATO aid to fight Russia. NATO aid depends on Democrat willingness. Democrat willingness depends on US public support. Therefore the illusion must be maintained to the American public that Ukraine is winning. For this reason, Ukraine has committed its reserves to a costly failed counter-offensive. Bakhmut fell regardless.
James A. Donald summarizes the strategic picture:

So, bright new plan. "The Greatest Ukrainian Offensive". The Ukraine would build up a big reserve of fresh troops, then suddenly hurl large chunks of them at particular points on the front. They would, the Americans planned, cut through a point in the front lines, penetrate to Russian rear areas, wreak havoc on those areas, and force Russian troops in danger of being encircled to hastily retreat from territory that had been slowly gained at enormous cost in grinding attritive warfare. I do not know how big the Ukrainian strategic reserve was, but if it was two hundred fifty thousand, they have now committed most of them to grinding attritive warfare, and cupboard is looking as bare of men as it is of artillery and rockets.

The USA expected to break Russia economically; China's economic support prevented that. Despite PMC Wagner's heartfelt complaints, Russia is unlikely to run out of convicts anytime soon. Russia is rotating divisions through Ukraine, seasoning reservists for a looming WW3. Russia's historical appetite for losses is much higher than its current losses. This is essentially a civil war, and the Russia bear considers being carved up an existential threat. By underestimating Russia's resolve, NATO is repeating the error of Napoleon and Hitler.
Despite having plenty of weapons, Ukraine's military manpower is exhausted and demoralized. Raw conscripts are thrown at the front lines with minimal training. Medvedev predicts that the Ukraine will cease to exist; half its people have already fled.

Anonymous Sat 27 May 2023 04:59:49 No.428438077 Report 428437208 Yeah, the killing has been excessive since they pretty much destroyed 95% of Azov fags and assorted true believers in the first 200k dead, now they overshot it by 100%. About 12% of the non-Russian speaking population's prime military aged men in Ukraine are dead or crippled. 12-20% of the same demographic has fled the country. It's over, desu. They are seeing much more of the polish and romanian mercs now, since they literally lack the manpower.

Western mass media wrongly assumes that Russia is losing because it does not take the entirety of Ukraine in a blitz, as the USA did to Iraq. However, Russia does not want West Ukraine; the people there do not like Russians. Russia has captured the territory it wants, and is now using the rest of Ukraine as a kettle or cauldron, in which to conveniently destroy whatever NATO wishes to send. This is a good way for Russia to gradually learn how to fight NATO armies in a low-risk environment.
The Spartans had a rule never to war too often against the same enemy, lest they train up a nemesis. It was foolish of NATO to believe that Russia had forgotten the lessons of attrition warfare that it learned so recently in Afghanistan.

Nehming Names 9h Russia's prudent caution in directly engaging the West is bringing dividends in perhaps unexpected ways. Russia is gaining strategic knowledge of the actual capabilities and weaknesses of our weapon systems and military tactics, with our supply of munitions draining to militarily unsustainable levels, as it engages allied forces in Ukraine. Russia is aware of the continuing progress of the Great Awakening in the West, that is, the knowledge that Western governments, military, and institutions are run by an elite hostile to their heritage populations, and therefore expects to see declining support of Western governments by their citizens. Russia can also see the precipitous decrease in every societal metric in the West: social cohesiveness, general morality, public health, financial stability, military readiness, etc.With these three degradative processes in play, the most strategic thing Russia and China can do is to bide their time, as time itself will act to sap the strength of the West to militarily engage their foes.

Fresh meat

Russian conquest of Kiev would air Biden's dirty laundry to the world, from Burisma kickbacks to pedophilic field trips and worse. This would result in US "regime change". A distant mini-Chernobyl is a small price to pay, for top Democrats to avoid the hangman's noose.
Poland is itching to invade. Victoria Nuland is scheduling NATO air exercises. USAF propaganda asserts that Russia's air force is a joke. The question is, do Americans still believe Biden's false prophets of victory?
If not, they just need a little "encouragement": 9/11, Gulf of Tonkin, Pearl Harbor, Lusitania, Remember the Maine… Keep those rural Whites busy lest they make trouble at home!
Most Americans cannot find Ukraine on a map. (To be fair, it hasn't been on the map very long.) However, the architects of Biden's Ukraine policy, such as Victoria Nuland, Jake Sullivan, Antony Blinken and George Soros, tend to have grandparents of Eastern European origin. I am sure for them it feels important. There's no place like home.
A Redditor explains:

tinglevibestoo I listened to a former CIA agent talk about Ukraine the other day. He said that Ukraine is running out of time. It's not that they don't have the weapons. We've sent them a ton of weapons. It's that they don't have enough troops and they're running low on troops. That's how Russia will win. Ukraine can't sustain the manpower. It totally makes sense to use a nuclear false flag as a reason to bring in the extra manpower. Everyone would deem it justified too because it's a threat to the neighboring nations and it'd be an environmental (climate change) catastrophe.

Teixeira leaks

Some will bring up the US intelligence leaks by Jack Teixeira to support the idea that Russia rather than Ukraine is desperate. Unlike Snowden, Teixeiera was obviously a major security risk for patriotically-motivated leaking, with numerous red flags in his previous and ongoing behavior. Therefore Teixeira was probably a deliberate leak by US intelligence, using a patsy to generate the initial leak and then add whatever extra info they wanted released in the resulting confusion.

• Jack Teixeira Wikipedia
• Discord member details how documents leaked from closed chat group Washington Post

Teixeira's leaks served several purposes for the Biden administration:

• Allowed the mainstream media to walk back their false forecasts of Ukrainian victory.
• Provided a right-wing scapegoat for Ukraine's defeat.
• Justified increased social media monitoring and censorship.

Most importantly, it mitigated the potential political fallout from another catastrophe like Kabul, should Kiev fall.
The 4chan leaker BB/Inb4source asserts Teixeira was a patsy.

BRICS vs NATO

The foundation of the US empire is the petrodollar, which allows the USA to tax the world via digital debt seignorage. This is why the creation of BRICS as an independent financial and trading system rendered war between NATO and BRICS inevitable, as Kim Dotcom predicted. The US republic is a thalassocratic empire as arrogant as democratic Athens, and it is addicted to financial plunder. The Empire cannot afford to lose the USD's reserve currency status.
Reserve currencies and empires both have lifespans, and the USA has reached the end of both. It is at the stage where hubristic foreign misadventures prove fatal, and Ukraine and Taiwan will prove too much for the American eagle to handle. This is no longer WW2; the USA cannot win a two-front war against BRICS.

• Gold Reserve Fiat Currencies Monetary Gold
• World Reserve Currencies last on average 100 years. The US dollar has been the reserve currency for 76 years. Satoshi Chris

That is why Biden's NATO is desperate; the Empire is unravelling as the European Union and other allies such as Turkey and India lose their faith in NATO.
The fact that none of this is common knowledge speaks volumes about who controls public schools and owns mass media corporations.

ZNPP's weak point is diesel fuel

The situation at ZNPP is tenuous and grim, workers report:
Europe’s largest nuclear power station is on the frontline of the Ukraine war. SkyNews Twitter
The fact that the backup diesel reactors have not been maintained is particularly concerning, considering they have already been used 7 times.
UN nuclear chief raises alarm over Ukraine’s Zaporizhzhia plant Al Jazeera
Ukraine keeps trying to force a crisis at ZNPP to justify NATO intervention. In other words, Ukraine keeps shelling ZNPP to cut the one power line that still connects it to the grid.

Atlas This is extremely dangerous, external power is required for reliable cooling of the reactors and pools containing spent nuclear waste. Western media spent months last year pretending Kiev wasn’t shelling ZNPP.

Notice that the Russian side keeps ZNPP connected to the power grid, while the Ukrainian side pretends it cannot until the Russian invasion ends:

• Update 153 – IAEA Director General Statement on Situation in Ukraine 2023 April 13
• Update 159 – IAEA Director General Statement on Situation in Ukraine 2023 May 22
• Russian nuclear terrorism in action: ZNPP switches to emergency generators for the 7th time Ukrainian World Congress
• Kiev blocked all IAEA’s initiatives on ZNPP security — Russian Foreign Ministry
• Grossi says Zaporizhzhia principles 'step in right direction' IAEA

As you can see, Ukraine is not interested in being reasonable. Russia is happy to leave the NPP free of heavy military equipment, but Ukraine demands the removal of all troops and landmines from ZNPP as well. That would leave the plant undefended, which is obviously unacceptable.
(This is how perverse incentives work. A little ally with nothing to lose can start a world war. It's almost like dividing the world into two hostile nuclear alliances is a bad idea.)
When ZNPP loses external power, huge diesel generators automatically switch on to keep the reactors cool. How much diesel does this consume? Truckloads per day:

Anonymous Sat 27 May 2023 05:18:50 No.428439721 Report Quoted By: >>428463646 428436425 Still easy to transport diesel enough to keep them going In what? If NATO ops and Mercs are sabotaging trucks coming in, what do you think they are gonna carry diesel in to the plant? Is Russia gonna pack in rotopack Jerry cans on their back. Fill a truck up with 5 gallon cans and hope they make it past the snipers and sabotage? Do you have any clue how much fuel those big generators suck down in a day? Those generators to run the plants during shut down or failures are huge 500kw or bigger they are the size of whole 18 wheeler trailers. Those things will drink 50 gallons an hour. You gonna haul in 2.5 gallon rotopacks one at a time to keep it going?

Nuclear power plants have tough shielding. Allegedly the diesel generators are hidden underground. However, the diesel fuel supply is still vulnerable.
Normally the diesel generators have enough fuel for 10 days. However, ZNPP's diesel stockpile recently dipped to 4 days, according to 4chan leaker Inb4source.

Ukrainian saboteurs caught by ZNPP

On May 27, Ukraine accused Russian of planning to cause a leak at ZNPP:

OSINTdefender The Main Directorate of Intelligence for Ukraine has announced that the Russian Military is preparing for Large-Scale Provocation in the coming hours at the Zaporizhzhia Nuclear Power Plant in Southern Ukraine that will reportedly Simulate an “Accident” at the Plant causing the Emergency Leak of Radioactive Substances which will be Blamed on Ukrainian Forces.

Then Russia announced it had caught saboteurs (presumably Ukrainian) in ZNPP's city:

Saboteurs who were preparing terrorist attacks on the NPP were detained in Energodar. They had with them maps and schematics of the nuclear power plant with marks for strikes that could lead to a nuclear catastrophe. The suspects are involved in collecting and transmitting information about the facilities of the Zaporozhye NPP on the instructions of the Ukrainian authorities. To communicate with the curators, they used foreign satellite systems, as well as foreign weapons for strikes and equipment for conducting reconnaissance and sabotage activities.

• Translated source message is from Telegram group Slavyangrad Chat.
• Original source message is in Russian from Telegram group WarDonbass, sent May 28 at 23:12.

Enerhodar is the city that contains the ZNPP: See Enerhodar Wikipedia
Some object that the footage is "staged". Of course it is staged. The primary consumer of the helmet-cam footage is Russian military intelligence. The evidence shot was staged for their benefit. The short edited video that was released to the public has distorted voices, and avoids showing any faces. Thus even if the footage is authentic, it is still "staged".
The ZNPP maps displayed in the video don't appear to match the announcement text. The maps could simply show where diesel fuel trucks need to go. Russia does not wish to advertise the specific nature of ZNPP's vulnerability.
The saboteurs appear to be 3-man team, equipped with 3 rifles and 3 NLAW missile launchers.
The saboteurs had 5 frag grenades. Normally soldiers carry 2 or 3 grenades, but heavy weapons soldiers don't have to. The three smooth grenades are RGD-5s, a cheap outdated Russian model. The Russian troops removed the fuses from the grenades on the evidence table to avoid unpleasant surprises.
Some object that Ukrainian saboteurs wouldn't be so careless as to have printouts of the reactor map. However, the saboteurs' presence in Enerhodar already makes their target obvious. Presumably multiple teams were sent to intercept Russian diesel shipments.
The Enerhodar saboteurs would've been notified when satellites spotted their target. Until then, they should hide in the safehouse behind blackout curtains to avoid detection. The fact that these saboteurs were caught napping suggests a degree of incompetence, compared to other teams who presumably either avoided detection or fought back. One can assume that Ukrainian specops have suffered extreme casualties.

BB / Red Skull / Inb4source / Q

BB sent Q

Qanon has lost a tremendous amount of popularity, as patriots grew disillusioned with the slow pace of the promised Great Awakening. They did not understand that Q is subordinate to a higher power with an agenda that does not necessarily include their survival.
Q aimed to help Trump save the USA. Q was sent by "Burning Bush", whose agenda is judging humanity, on the eve of WW3 and runaway de-terraforming. BB's personas started posting to 4chan's pol by 2016, whereas Q started in October 2017. (4chan is like the wild west of the Web: The world's spooks congregate there to exchange intelligence.)
BB goes by several nicknames; he began posting anonymously as "Inb4source" in 2016. A recent message implies the USA/Israel is Babylon the Great, and God (meaning him) has returned to judge her:

The world has turned it's back on *od now *od Is turning His back on the world. He Who Lets has been REMOVED. THE ANGEL OF DEATH HAS COME THE HARVEST OF THE TARES HAS BEGUN. And after these things I saw another angel come down from heaven, having great power; and the earth was lightened with his glory. (Earthquake Lights) And he cried mightily with a strong voice, saying, Babylon the great is fallen, is fallen, and is become the habitation of devils, and the hold of every foul spirit, and a cage of every unclean and hateful bird. For all nations have drunk of the wine of the wrath of her fornication, and the kings of the earth have committed fornication with her, and the merchants of the earth are waxed rich through the abundance of her delicacies. And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues. For her sins have reached unto heaven, and God hath remembered her iniquities. Reward her even as she rewarded you, and double unto her double according to her works: in the cup which she hath filled fill to her double. How much she hath glorified herself, and lived deliciously, so much torment and sorrow give her: for she saith in her heart, I sit a queen, and am no widow, and shall see no sorrow. (nothing ever happens) Therefore shall her plagues come in one day, death, and mourning, and famine; and she shall be utterly burned with fire: for strong is the Lord God who judgeth her. And the kings of the earth, who have committed fornication and lived deliciously with her, shall bewail her, and lament for her, when they shall see the smoke of her burning, inb4source

BB claims responsibility for the historical pendulum swinging rightward, via figures such as Elon Musk. His method of influence is the butterfly effect.
"Burning Bush" claims to be God. One can think of him as the God of the Old Testament, or as a pagan god like Zeus, or as merely a transcendent extraterrestrial. However, he also claims to inhabit a human-looking body, lives on a ranch in the USA, has children, caught COVID19, etc.
Whatever one's theology, the relevant portion of BB's message is that the USA did not sufficiently embrace the opportunity offered by Q. Anyone who has read the Old Testament knows what happens next: Ignore the prophet, reap the consequences. Thus Q's slogan "Nothing Can Stop What Is Coming" should be understood in the Biblical sense, like Noah's flood: The Ark is optional.
(As far as I know, Q is still posting to Truth Social. I don't follow that site.)
Paul Furber is the chief priest of BB. Before that, he was a major early proponent of Q. See Furber's book for many verifiable examples of fulfilled predictions and proven scoops.
BB normally identifies himself by the unique image hash of his burning bush picture. (Nobody can generate that hash unless they possess the original image.) However, BB also posts as an anon users nickname "Red Skull", for his signature images of red skulls. As Red Skull, BB avoids the extravagant Biblical claims of BB, but the style and modus operandi and interests are obviously the same – as are his implied godlike powers.
I recommend focusing on facts and trying to prevent nuclear WW3, rather than getting hung up on theology. BB is not asking anyone to worship him or sacrifice chickens. He does prescribe prayer and a life of action governed by virtue.
I certainly do not recommend taking everything anonymous spooks say at face value. If you are, like most people, unable to think in shades of gray between binary true and false, this essay is above your reading level.

BB warns Zaporizhia is pivotal

BB has repeatedly warned that keeping Zaporizhia intact is critical to the survival of NATO citizenry:

the Ukrainians attacking the Nuclear Power station in the hands of the Russians spewing radiation over enough territory that the Russians will turn Kiev into a furnace.

– BB 2022-9-24
Find other warnings by searching for keyword "nuclear".
Those who find it difficult to believe that nuclear weapons would be used in WW3 as in WW2 should note that COVID19 is already a bioweapon WMD deployed for WW3.

RS gives ZNPP sabotage warning

On the morning of May 27, BB's persona Red Skull leaked that NATO specops had sabotaged external power to ZNPP.
His scenario is plausible and severe enough to warrant investigation.
Here are relevant posts, datestamped 2023 May 27 0300-0500:

it's a little less than ten days… Until Nato SpecOps melt down the Uke Nuke plant and blames it on you.

He continues:

Nato SpecOps have sabotaged power to the nuke plant. As of this posting, 6 days of diesel fuel remain to provide power to pumps to cool the plant and spent fuel pool. Diesel shipments are being targeted and terminated.

He adds:

So now I need to tell you Russia intends a pre emptive strike if nuclear capable F16's are delivered.

On the evening of May 27, Red Skull updated:

Doesn't look good at Nuke Plant. Russia has 4 days to get more fuel to the generators. They are working on clearing a flight path. Ukraine will try to stop them on orders of U.S. Uniparty.

Sounds like a severe leak, to lose 2 days of fuel in under 24 hours.

Ukraine HVT: Nuclear tit for tat

On 28 May Red Skull asserted that:

• Ukraine just did an underground nuclear bomb test in a borehole, to contain the radiation.
• Russia may retaliate with a pre-emptive strike at any time, against 1-2 high-value targets.
• West Ukraine may be reduced to the stone-age.

Red Skull approved of this anon's summary:

Nuclear warheads that USA/UK sent. Specifically for the purpose of being exploded in Ukraine. The false flags will never stop until all out WW3 is declared, or until you root out the pedophile demon cult that is running the show and sending you monkeys to war. War for really no good reason at this point. The cities are destroyed, just withdraw. Ukraine is a kettle right now, a kill box. Do you understand what that means? And it was created on purpose.

On May 30, Putin announced that Russia had destroyed the Ukrainian military intelligence headquarters. Photos confirm the damage.

• Putin confirms strike on Ukrainian military intelligence HQ RT
• Putin Strikes Back - Destroys GUR Bunker? Simplicius

Intelligence chief Kyrylo Oleksiyovych Budanov may have died in the strike.

Inb4source / Red Skull 4chan posting history

Inb4source has posted on 4chan since 2016, but he doesn't always use an image hash identifier, making it impossible to verify the identity of all of his early posts. As his popularity grew, others began adopting his catchphrase ">inb4source".
18016 posts on pol contain ">inb4source".
The first page of results suggests Inb4source is a pro-Trump military intelligence officer. He began posting in Aug 2016, before Trump's inauguration.
Another early Inb4source catchphrase is "I AM The Source." This has a double meaning, both theological and journalistic.
The catchphrase doesn't appear in every Inb4source post. Searching for it yields 437 results, too many of which are irrelevant results.
Searching for both phrases together yields 50 results that look to be mostly legitimate. One could then search for additional posts by each unique ID from a session.
Searching for image hashes is a reliable method of ID verification, assuming no one else has the image. I know of two such images that Inb4source/BB uses: both are red skulls, giving him the nickname RS.

• 325 results
• 314 results

RS just announced that his devices (phone, computers) have been compromised, casting doubt on the legitimacy of future RS posts. This may be a response to my publication of his warnings regarding Zaporizhia onto Reddit and Gab; the timing is suspicious. I first mentioned Inb4source on Reddit 7 days ago, and Red Skull on Gab yesterday (as of morning June 3). I do not know of any other analysts writing about him or connecting him to his BB persona.
When evaluating his warnings and predictions, remember that publishing info about ongoing events can affect the outcome, and is often intended to do so. Unlike the concept of Biblical prophecy, the future is mostly probabilistic. However, he is certainly good at scooping the news.
Someone else can do an in-depth Q-proof style analysis of his accuracy; my focus here is Zaporizhia.
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Hello Reddit I’m back again with another dream post. It’s still happening and quite honestly I think it’s getting worse. Everytime I sleep it feels like I spend longer and longer in this dream, which I initially thought was cool, but not after one of my more recent experiences. Anyway, I won’t make a long sidebar on this let’s get straight into the dreams.
Day seven:
Woke up in the room, went outside, continued back down the playground path to see if I could find something new. I walk up onto the pirate ship and the first thing I do is check out the orb. It sort of just floats there and doesn’t do much. I eventually touch it and it feels gross. The thing is slimy and sticky and eventually I realize that it’s a floating sucker without the stem. Worryingly, it was wet. Well it worried me in my dream because I don’t realize that I’m dreaming when I am everything just becomes my new reality, so to me this means that some creature came by and licked the orb. I wipe my hand off on my shirt (plain white) and then go to the tourist goggle thing. I bend down and try to look into it but it’s just dark so I surmise that I need to find a coin. I attempt to search the pirate ship for dabloons but wake up shortly after.
Day eight:
Woke up, went outside, went back into the park hallway and decided to just search the woods. I don’t find anything of interest, it seems that the park only contains woods and the playground. Wake up after what feels like 20 minutes.
Day nine:
Woke up, went outside, decide to go to a new hallway. I walk to the one on the right side of my “room” and enter. I find myself on a beach of black and red sand with an ocean that pours down into a massive hole. I walk on the beach and find mostly plastic bottles in the shapes of shells complete with labels that say things like “Oyster juice” and “Crabmatto solvent” and other weird things like that. All of them are cleanly emptied so I didn’t get to taste what any of this tastes like.
Day ten:
Woke up, outside, Went back to the beach and decided to try to dig in the sand. I end up making a large hole but when I get about 3 feet down I hit some kind of glass barrier and see nothing but sky below me. This took up the majority of my time here and I woke up not long after finishing my hole.
Day eleven:
Woke up, outside, beach time again. I noticed that my hole was still there which I thought was completely normal but now see as odd. I decide to finally get into the water. I had been putting this off because I have only two fears: ocean creatures and bugs. I’m not a particularly well-versed swimmer. This was an awful mistake. As I started to swim out toward the hole the tide suddenly became very aggressive, pulling me in as I waded through the water. Bear in mind the hole is pretty far out but it is also massive. This worries me because I cannot see the bottom of the hole and as far as I know it may well be bottomless or throw me out into the sky or something like that, so I try to swim against it. This delays me for a while but ultimately proves futile as It pulls me closer and closer to the edge. I swim furiously at this point trying anything I can to get away but I finally fall over the edge. What I see is still haunting me as I write this. It’s this awful contorted face made of red and black like the sand but it’s solid like resin and shiny. It has angular yellow eyes and a twisted smile that shows a mouth full of jagged black rocks that were threatening to crush me. I screamed as I fell and dreaded what awaited me, but thankfully I woke up before I had to experience whatever that would be. I was drenched in sweat and yet another miracle: I had not wet the bed.
Day twelve:
I didn’t sleep.
Day 13:
I tried my best to keep going but I ended up passing out halfway through the day (I’m not as spry as I used to be it would seem.) I wake up again in my room, my heart racing from what dream me had just experienced. Now I wanted to stay well clear of any of these rooms, especially if they contained things like that. I spent most of my time huddled in my room behind the door, paranoid that something, that that thing would come for me.
Day 14:
I woke up, tried to wait it out, but that just wasn’t an option. Every dream is getting longer and longer, this one feeling like It was dragging on for hours just sitting in my room. I relent and get up, slowly opening my door only to find what I always do: my tunnel. Nothing more, nothing less, just the hallway full of dark portals to who knows where. The rooms across the hall were much less terrifying in my experience so I decided I would explore one of those. I ended up going with the one to the left of the park and I got a glimpse of the redwood forest that awaited me.
Day 15:
I woke up, walked outside, went into the forest next to the park to see what was out there. I found myself in a redwood forest in mid afternoon. There was a campsite near where I emerged and it had some equipment next to a firepit and a tent. What I found was a hatchet, a jacket and a flip lighter but not much else. I decided to put on the jacket and take it with me. I explored and the landscape was beautiful, relaxing, it always seemed to be dusk. This place felt serene. However there were some parts that were unnerving. I found a large open cleaning and walked toward its centre. I didn’t find anything but every few steps I would hear another one behind me that I had not made, but when I turned around I found nothing. I left quickly after it happened a few times and went back to the camp before waking up.
Now for the post-cataloguing reflection. I walk away from this with mixed feelings. I am excited to explore what other worlds await me in my dreams, but the greater lengths of each one make me worry how long I’ll end up dreaming. When I go to sleep I forget about the real world, everything that’s happening is real and I’m really there. What if I end up spending years here and it’s all fake? Either way I’m conflicted going forward. I haven’t felt burnout at work lately and my life overall is pretty comfortable so I’m really scratching my head right now as to what’s causing it. I also haven’t shared much about this to real people because I think they might think I’m crazy. That’s all for now.

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This is a fanfic from a story from u/SpacePaladin15, and the story is The Nature of Predator
(First / Previous / Next)
Memory transcription subject: Halai, cattle rescue
Date [standardized human time]: November 15, 2136
Darkness
It was all around outside this building, I am afraid of the dark and the only source of light is the fire inside the stryaru oven inside the kitchen
Outside of the kitchen and inside the lobby where once the people ate in peace, now in there, Leon was sleeping… I think
It was fairly obvious that he was a machine, and I don't think machines such as him need to sleep, but if what he told me was true, that he was once a living creature… Then I guess it makes sense that it has to sleep eventually
Gazing at his body now that it doesn't have the fabrics that once covered him, I can see all of the features that made him deadly. Something that even the arxur would fear
Yet, even with all of that… I wasn't afraid, maybe it was because it was the first time in, only the protector knew how long, someone treated me nicely. Like a sentient being and not fucking dinner
Sure, the 'herd' back in the camp was still a herd, but it was artificial. We stood together in silence, waiting until the demons took someone away, and when they did, no one did anything, neither run, fight or even freeze. We just stared at the victim get dragged towards the depths of the building to never get seen again
Leon… I think that's the correct name… It's a predator, yet he has broken everything I once knew about predators
He has sharp claws and teeth, yet he doesn't attack nor 'play' with me like the demons did. He's more than capable of eating me if he really wanted, but instead he eats plants
He said that he was and still is a type of creature that eats plants and meat, as ridiculously as it sounds, yet I saw it with my very own eyes
And, as crazy as it sounds, I felt safer here, alone with a predator in an empty and dark city, than within the herd that I was part of until now
Maybe the predatory taint has affected me, after all, I was one of the longest survivors until I was chosen to be food
It was true that I still flinched whenever he moved while he 'slept', but I still feel safe at least. I guess it was curiosity that had me looking at him. His ears would twitch whenever I made any noise, no matter how silent it was, I guess he has way better hearing. A similar twitch would move the tip of it's tail, but I supposed that was something that he does, as even when I'm completely quiet it's tail still moves
I was also submerged in a curiosity that I couldn't explain, and I was sure that it wasn't normal curiosity. What was I curious about?
His teeth, or to be more specific, what laid behind them
I knew that I was mentally sick. What I saw and did back at the meat factory wasn't something that someone normal would do or see, but I couldn't care less. After all, I was supposed to die there…
But now I have been rescued, and I… A-And I need help with my mental health
I think that if I self-report my predatory disease, I get better treatment than if someone reports me…
Or they could… I don't know, put more sea water in the wound by asking me for everything that has happened
No, wait, I'm not being rescued by the federation, but by predators! Do they even have mental health? Normally I would say no, but the med-bay in Leon's chest is incredibly advanced for predator standards…
Wait, does the med-bay count as a stomach? It's in that area so… Well, in any case I've been in both places…
…
What should I even do now?
Looking all around I saw that, except for the kitchen, the rest of the building was taken by Leon's absurdly big body and long tail, but I saw a small pile of furniture that Leon had moved to make space for himself
Thinking what to do, I suddenly had an a idea
Returning to the kitchen I grabbed a knife and scissors before returning to the pile. The knife was a bit rusty, and the scissors were too, but I wasn't going to use them for cooking, but for building
As silently as I could to not wake up Leon, I began cutting the soft parts of chairs and stuff like that
When the scissors would get stuck, the knife would help, as so, slowly but surely I cut the soft parts off the chairs that would work for me as pillows and a bed of sorts
Piling up the cushion filling in one spot, and with some of the left over covers that Leon had used, I made a bed, of sorts
I made sure I was close enough to the fire to stay warm, but not close enough that I could burn
With that done, I went to it and for the first time in who-knows-long, I slept at ease