2023.03.30 01:02 AntigonesCrowsDid yours also accuse you of making yourself into a victim?
On a few occasions when I tried to communicate my feelings to my expwBPD, he lashed out and accused me of making myself into a victim. (!!!???!) Now, the fact that I was sad or unhappy about something doesn't equate in mind to making myself into a victim at all, especially that I was always very careful not to assign blame. Never called him names, never said "it's your fault" or anything similar (I always assume relationships take two.) Never (obviously!!!) said I was the victim or that I was being abused or that he did something wrong. But he'd just go on those hateful rants about how I'm a "manipulative liar" and how my "twisted mind" "always" manages to "make myself into a victim" instead of "taking responsibility". And about how I "always make him into the jerk". (I literally never used that word or called him any other mean names.) All of that because, idk, I said I felt upset when he decided to give me silent treatment instead of talking to me about what he was upset about. Like, it should be OK for me to say, "I felt A when you did X", right? Why do they read into everything like it's an accusation or an insult. The level of projection and irrationality with those people. It's just mind boggling.
2023.03.30 01:01 EuphoricFortune9671Can a college just throw away your Fafsa application without telling you?
I applied to a college in utah with time before registration and fafsa deadlines. But I just got in contact with the college asking when financial aid would come out. They said it had already come out and they were now just finishing late applicants financial aid. I told them I finished before deadlines and I haven't received anything. They went looking for my fafsa and said they had suspended it (for a reason they didn't say). When I asked if it was because I changed my name, they just starting holding onto that and basically almost said it's my fault(even if I never applied to anything before I changed my name). It felt like they started using that reason to shift the blame onto me, and for a while I did think it was my fault, but I did everything right. I applied before deadlines, they suspended my fafsa for a reason they didn't know, until I mentioned my name change. Every other college accepted my fafsa. I'm bamboozled I'm a little upset that they suspended my fafsa and didn't tell me or have a reason, im upset it took me having to reach out to them to find my application. Plus they only told me til after the late registration deadline which means I won't get a ton of financial aid and my chances of scholarships through the school are all gone. To this moment I still have not heard back from them for financial aid:( My question though- is that normal, does changing your name really affect you into college? Or should I start a legal battle with this college for not informing me they suspended my fafsa and taking away opportunities?
2023.03.30 01:01 md28usmcSnowfall S06xE07 Charnel House Episode Discussion
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2023.03.30 01:00 minzchaelisI suddenly have 2 graphics drivers
I was experiencing more lagging than usual when playing some games (I have optimized my graphics settings in game already), and after Googling quick fixes it said to check for Updates to your graphics driver. When I went to do it, I discovered I have two at the same time? I have dual monitors, and figured that might be why, but I checked and they both use NVIDIA. I Googled this situation (two drivers at the same time), and it said they could be conflicting sometimes. Can I delete the AMD one and still be fine, and is that what's causing lag for me? My PC came with NVIDIA, but the little tag on the front says AMD, so I'm completely clueless. I'm about as knowledgable as a grade schooler when it comes to this stuff, please help... https://preview.redd.it/44hp2fdrcrqa1.png?width=230&format=png&auto=webp&s=ba1c8760764a279ec9aee77ef58e39878be6b43c
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2023.03.30 01:00 Gale-boyDo any of these mods affect default particles? Ive noticed that alot of the particles in my minecraft have been removed including Rain, Dust, Snow, etc
2023.03.30 00:59 nonselfimageIn Flames, Fear is the Weakness -AND- Zen for the non discriminating palette - Salt of the Earth, State of Slow decay... Your head is all in it
tombstone mentality; war soad Preface: 99% of this post is notes from past week, I never got around to flushing out. Ideas that came and went at work and in meditation, that I was NOT able to convey into writing in a timely manner, and am now moved on to other projects. Just posting what I had without proofreading or error correction or "flushing out". https://old.reddit.com/usenonselfimage/submit Lazy post. From notes. Lost meaning of it all. Just a submission to consider after. Maybe remember what I felt in it (great way). Merged/Combined Post. Original Edited/Deleted Post: This one written 29/3/2023: In Flames - all turned cold no one cares for anyon[e]: Empathy post a few weeks back. No one has empathy. Burning place reserved for devil and his angels. Reserved or rsvp means claim staked. Jesus adamantly says don't stake a claim he will make you get up and move. Yesterday wrote another in flames post but didn't post it. King lear in berzerk. Cold. He dies on a frozen throne. Arthas. Consistent theme. I even called empathy a hot potato the other day. Empathy is like warmth in a frozen universe. Frozen is a great album by Sentanced. Hell frozen rain. Common theme. A lot more forgot it all. Edit: inspired by the jungle post and the zen term nests in book of nothing Edit 2: Too Late - Type O Negative. Also why the lie, earth is flat. At altitude, horizon rises, not fall away. Sun still sets... etc. What point arguing with liar. endit nth: idk what this is saying but for sure maybe world does end in fake heat death of satan so called empathy he who tries to save it shall lose it style. Then hereafter (poop) is freezing. The hot lie. Thus the prominent and conspicuous the lie of empathy on reddit et al. Edit: Apollo and Daphne day comment and common quote I've seen a lot lately means same thing as weaving spiders come not here (better to be nice than correct). This one mostly written 28/3/2023 Zen for the non discriminating palette - Salt of the Earth, State of Slow decay... Your head is all in it (half post, not finished, just posting from notes because lost the train of thought) I'll probably bee busy this week. April 1 has always been a turning spot in my life. Started the book of nothing. Hsing hsing. Lots of notes but on other (work) phone. Bottom line who cares. What comfort. What comfort in "who cares". World looks after it's own. It's manufactured solutions to it's manufactured problems. Insurance and Marriage and Mortgage, oh my! In Flames has always kept the pulse on my psyche through the decades. Music from the soul... or the nausea of/wafting from it at least. Not unsurprisingly I'm writing this while taking a shit. Nicklas got out while getting was good, because I think In Flames took a shit and called it an album as well. Not all that bad just first album I wasn't crazy for. But it is what I've been thinking for years now. Salt of the earth. We are the salt of the earth. Salt was a preservative and wage in those days. So means literally our job to maintain the world (and it's double standards) for it; else it is spoiled and stinks to high heaven, goes rotten. Which reminds me. I made a thing. An album [note 1] for A band that doesn't exist. Its "debut" album title would be Heaven is just one more place to clean up after or Your head is all in it (play on it's all in your head, a swirly, zodiacal lights). No music. Idk. Seen angels inspiration in the "wafting" sense of souls. Also had first explicit djinn/genie dream last night. Like literally blue people. Maybe because I listened to the bubble by same people who do I'm blue... ? Idk. Yeah. Go figure. I declared war on djinn kind of something in the dream apparently. The prince or princess of some mighty djinn was trying to hide me from their father or some shit. I always saw the blue as black and white together, as like Aang/Kora to Vishnu to Rudra et al etc. Deva? Asura? Aesir? Vanir? Idk not looking up spelling. Don't care. Speculation. Definite all one illusion vibe. Story. All the puppets on the stage couldn't be in on it, all the dream characters in the dream couldn't be in on it, etc. World looks after it's own. Salt of the earth. Book of nothing pretty good. Also title of first book I tried to write back around 2008. Book about the logic of the term/idea "nothing" and "no one". Infinite infinite regresses. Notes from Monday or Tue, I think;
Not the person What is the person What are we Service to life Let him who(m?) Would be great among you be a servant of all
There were some posts a few hours after these notes on same topics, here on reddit. How to stay ahead of what you are manifesting and recognizing it as it is... carrying nothing, looking for nothing outside... Caught back up to NOW: Apollo and Daphne.
What is this about What does this mean What is the meaning of this
Der religious wacken (The religious essence). Nietzsche's "cold spots". The man whom is becoming religious astounds many as "hot" - he is icy hot, burns to the touch. It is not warmth but sheer cold that "burns". What I meant on devil and his angels comment. Hot and cold. Song of fire and ice. Like smelting a sword. A single distinction... and heaven and earth infinately set apart (holy means set apart) from one another. More on that some other time. Partial poem, notes from The fiasco the other day:
Way of world, way of man, way of lost redditors... Patchwork spunk, all directions and none; bound. Truant escaping koan sharks and Dharma creditors, Wayless ways and gateless gates; Path to destruction? Can't be found. Penny or pound of flesh If you take a stab, be sure to give it back
Even lamer and more gay but sharing anyway. Say and mean, ofc [note 1] The Album: (Album) Form of the formless Tracks: Tibetan book of the woke (Added) Beauty in a Bottle The rise and fall (this erection life) Everything is a 4 letter word (no it's not) This one (is called) (No) MMI (hd) Temperature in kilograms My heart is heavier than that damn feather Filthy do gooder My advice This heartache will go on Not the (one) Bonus track something like maybe cover of behind space in flames. Idk. Doesn't fit but that's the point. A joke. Notes: this one and not the go together. My advice inspired by like shit msi. Heartache will go on titanic joke. Feather concludes what started in woke. Thought of KoRn Love song and The Evil that men do while pensive of names. Blood of innocents and all that. Hatred for the mortal earthbound. One sip. Tongue/Tounge like knife in cheek. Not singing. Anyway shizo diary out of the way... Seriously all these come from "meditations" at work I try to recall later while taking a shit. Doesn't usually go so well as I can tell by looking over it. The following isn't even notes, just a few words like "Apollo, witchcraft, Deutsch, warsoad, bon, ahkheem, etc". Hoping I'd know what I meant when I got "home". That said, this was intended as a reply to this thread a while back but I'm not as lucid as I am at work or while meditating. I can't channel that state of mind (anger?) well when trying to type. The musician's curse. Close enough, as Nietzshe said, "it should have sang/sung, this new soul";
If you do not breathe through writing, cry out in writing, or sing in writing, then don't write, because our culture has no use for it" - Anais Nin
Better to be "polite" than "correct". Anyway that bit about cold spots and Nietzsche above. Make any distinction... need some of the Bon quote to proceed;
21 October 1974 am in Buddha Hall THE GREAT WAY IS NOT DIFFICULT FOR THOSE WHO HAVE NO PREFERENCES. WHEN LOVE AND HATE ARE BOTH ABSENT EVERYTHING BECOMES CLEAR AND UNDISGUISED. MAKE THE SMALLEST DISTINCTION, HOWEVER, AND HEAVEN AND EARTH ARE SET INFINITELY APART. IF YOU WISH TO SEE THE TRUTH THEN HOLD NO OPINION FOR OR AGAINST. THE STRUGGLE OF WHAT ONE LIKES AND WHAT ONE DISLIKES IS THE DISEASE OF THE MIND. WE WILL BE ENTERING the beautiful world of a Zen Master’s no-mind. Sosan is the third Zen Patriarch. Nothing much is known about him – this is as it should be, because history records only violence. History does not record silence – it cannot record it. All records are of disturbance. Whenever someone becomes really silent, he disappears from all records, he is no more a part of our madness. So it is as it should be. Sosan remained a wandering monk his whole life. He never stayed anywhere; he was always passing, going, moving. He was a river; he was not a pond, static. He was a constant movement. That is the meaning of Buddha’s wanderers: not only in the outside world but in the inside world also they should be homeless – because whenever you make a home you become attached to it. They should remain rootless; there is no home for them except this whole universe. CHAPTER 1. THE GREAT WAY Even when it was recognized that Sosan had become enlightened, he continued his old beggar’s way. And nothing was special about him. He was an ordinary man, the man of Tao. One thing I would like to say, and you have to remember it: Zen is a crossbreeding. And just as more beautiful flowers can come out of crossbreeding, and more beautiful children are born out of crossbreeding, the same has happened with Zen. Zen is a crossbreeding between Buddha’s thought and Lao Tzu’s thought. It is a great meeting, the greatest that ever took place. That’s why Zen is more beautiful than Buddha’s thought and more beautiful than Lao Tzu’s thought. It is a tare flowering of the highest peaks and the meeting of those peaks. Zen is neither Buddhist nor Taoist, but it carries both within it. India is a little too serious about religion – a long past, a long weight on the mind of India, and religion has become serious. Lao Tzu remained a laughingstock – Lao Tzu is known as the old fool. He is not serious at all; you cannot find a more non-serious man. Then Buddha’s thought and Lao Tzu’s thought met, India and China met, and Zen was born. And this Sosan was just near the original source when Zen was coming out of the womb. He carries the fundamental. His biography is not relevant at all, because whenever a man becomes enlightened he has no biography. He is no more the form, so when he was born, when he died, are irrelevant facts. That’s why in the East we have never bothered about biographies, historical facts. That obsession has never existed here. That obsession has come from the West now; then people become interested more in irrelevant things. When a Sosan is born, what difference does it make – this year or that? When he dies, how is it important? Sosan is important, not his entry into this world and the body, not his departure. Arrivals and departures are irrelevant. The only relevance is in the being. And these are the only words Sosan uttered. Remember, they are not words, because they come out of a mind which has gone beyond words. They are not speculations, they are authentic experiences.
That's what I mean, kind of. Not really. It's Greek to me. The Greek thing. I've often called the "Greek Gods" the satans. You'd be hard pressed to find a single story of the Greek Gods that does not in some way have something to do with rape. Thus, preferences. The case I thought of was Apollo and Daphne in particular (or Heracles as well). The Case As I knew it:
Apollo was boasting to Cupid, his bow of reason slew the Primordial dragon of Chaos/Madness. What could Cupid's little pathetic bow do?
Apollo made at least two distinctions; that between reason and madness, and between himself and cupid. Cupid famously shoots Apollo and Daphne. That's all really. Like with Arachne or weaving spiders, you can unpack as much as you want but I forgot it all, hey. PS to self... before you have an aneurysm, the "flushed out" comment was on GR not reddit. Bad religion: only entertainment. Msi: we want our money back. Edit: "old" urls
2023.03.30 00:59 harleennpamI'm not sure if this the right sub for this but...
So I recently received a sample of Vanilla Woods. I tried it on and immediately had to wash it off because I felt a bad...vibe, for lack of a better word. I just gave it a sniff again and remembered why. It reminds me of this shimmery body cream from mark. by Avon. It literally smells EXACTLY like it. I used to use it in high school...when I was horrendously bullied. However, I would like to know if anybody knows what I'm talking about and could tell me the name! It used to come a shimmery brown jar with a red lid.
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2023.03.30 00:58 NewWillinium[Excerpt: Descent of Angels] Lion'el Jonson before the Imperium
This has always been a moment that defined the inner soul of just who the Lion is underneath his duty and ambition and secrecy, to me. It is one of if not the only time we ever see the Lion just drop . . .all of his masks in a moment of comradery with a fellow Knight of the Order, slayer of the twin of the Calabanite Lion that Jonson slayed, as he shares his fears, his hopes, his ambitions, and his introspective thoughts on what it is to be human and mortal and free. Descent of Angels gets a lot of flack, but this moment alone makes it all worth it I feel. A deep, unabashed, look at the Lion before the Imperium and Emperer fell upon his world. -][- ‘It is good to look up at the stars,’ said the Lion, finally breaking his long silence. ‘At times like this, a man needs to take stock of his life. I find there is no better place to take stock than beneath the stars.’ The Lion smiled, and Zahariel found the smile dazzling. It was clear that the Lion was trying to put him at his ease, but Zahariel found it almost impossible to talk to him as though he was any other man. Jonson was too big, his presence too imposing. A man could no more ignore his extraordinary nature than he could ignore the wind and the rain, or the transition from day to night. There was something similarly elemental about the Lion. Lion El’Jonson was the apotheosis of all humanity’s dreams for itself. He was perfection given human form, like the first example of a new race of man. ‘The cleansing of the forest is entering its final stage, Zahariel. Did you know that?’ ‘No, my lord, I had thought the campaign was likely to continue for some time.’ ‘No, not at all,’ said the Lion, his brow furrowing slightly, though Zahariel could not be sure if it was in amusement or contemplation. ‘According to our best estimates, there are perhaps a dozen or so great beasts left in total, certainly no more than twenty, and they are all in the Northwilds. We have scoured every other region of Caliban and cleared out the beasts that were hiding there. Only the Northwilds are left.’ ‘But that would mean the campaign is nearly over.’ ‘Nearly,’ Jonson said. ‘At most it should take another three months. Then Caliban will finally be clear of the great beasts. Incidentally, you realise Amadis has asked that you be recorded in the annals of the Order as having assisted in slaying one of the last of them? A fearsome creature as well, from all accounts. Though Amadis killed it, you should be proud of your actions in the fight. You saved the lives of many of your brothers.’ ‘Not all of them,’ said Zahariel, remembering Pallian’s screams as the beast tore him apart. ‘I couldn’t save them all.’ ‘That is something every warrior must get used to,’ said the Lion. ‘No matter how skilfully you lead your warriors, some of them will die.’ ‘It was only a matter of luck that I didn’t die,’ Zahariel said, ‘the sheerest chance.’ ‘A good warrior will always take advantage of chance,’ said Jonson, looking up at the sky. ‘He should adapt to the changing circumstances of battle. War is all about opportunity, Zahariel. To be victorious, we must always be ready to take hold of opportunities as they arise. You showed initiative in fighting that beast. More than that, you demonstrated excellence, precisely as the Verbatim defines these things and sets them out as our ultimate aim. We cannot know what mysteries the universe holds, or what challenges we may face in the future. All we can do is live our lives to the fullest extent we can, and cultivate the virtue of trying to achieve excellence in all things. When we go to war, it should be as master warriors. When we make peace, we should be equally adept. It is not good for human beings to accept second best. Our lives are short. We should make merit of them while we can.’ Abruptly coming to silence, the Lion continued to stare up at the night sky, as Zahariel stood beside him. ‘I wonder what is in the stars?’ the Lion said. ‘The old tales say there are thousands, perhaps millions of planets out there, just like Caliban. They say Terra is one of them. It is strange, don’t you think, that every child born of Caliban knows the name Terra? We count it as the source and wellspring of our culture, but if the tales are true it has been thousands of years since we had contact with that source. But what if the tales are false? What if Terra is a myth, a fable invented by our forefathers to account for our place in the cosmos? What if our fathers’ tales are lies?’ ‘It would be terrible,’ Zahariel said. He felt a shiver and told himself the night was growing colder. ‘People take the existence of Terra for granted. If it all turned out to be a myth, we might start to doubt everything. We would lose our moorings. We would not know what to believe.’ ‘True, but in other ways it would free us. We would no longer need to be responsible to the past. The present and the future would be our only boundaries. Take the current campaign against the great beasts as an example. You are young, Zahariel. You cannot be aware of the bitter arguments, the threats and the recriminations that were directed towards me when I first advanced the plans for my campaign. All too often, I found that the causes of these objections were rooted in some dated custom that had long ago worn out its welcome. ‘Tradition is a fine ideal, but not when it serves as a shackle on our future endeavours. If it wasn’t for Luther and his fine oratory, I doubt the plan would ever have been approved. It is the same with so many issues that confront us today. The diehards and the sticks-in-the-mud oppose us at every step, irrespective of the value of the plans I put forward. They always make reference to the past, to tradition, as though our past was so filled with shining glories that we might actually want to preserve it forever. But I am not interested in the past, Zahariel. I think only of the future.’ Again, the Lion paused. Standing beside him, Zahariel wondered what Lord Cypher would make of this speech decrying the value of tradition. Might this be another test, one designed to see whether he would simply acquiesce to what the Lion was saying or stand up for the values of tradition. As he looked upon the Lion’s countenance, he saw a strange intensity to the way he stared up at the sky, as if he loved and hated the stars at the same time. ‘Sometimes, I wish it was in my power to wipe the past away,’ the Lion said. ‘I wish there was no myth of Terra. I wish Caliban had no past. Look at a man without a past, and you will see a free man. It is always easier to build when you build from scratch. Then again, I look at the stars and I think I am too hasty. I look to the stars and I wonder what is out there. How many undiscovered lands? How many new challenges? How bright and hopeful might our future be if we could make it to the stars?’ ‘Such a thing seems unlikely,’ said Zahariel, ‘for the moment, at least.’ ‘You are right,’ said the Lion, ‘but what if the stars were to come to us?’ ‘I don’t understand,’ said Zahariel. ‘Truthfully? Nor do I,’ said the Lion, ‘but on nights when the stars are bright, I dream of a golden light, and of all the stars of the heavens coming down to Caliban and changing our world forever.’ ‘The stars come down to Caliban?’ said Zahariel. ‘Do you think it means anything?’ The Lion shrugged. ‘Who knows? I feel I ought to know its relevance, but every time I think I sense a connection to the golden light, it fades and leaves me alone in the dark' Descent of Angels by Mitchel Scanlon p. 74, Chapter 5
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2023.03.30 00:57 No_League5502Best USED monitor deal?
Hi! Brand new here. Wanted to get some advice on which monitor deal is best value and suits my usage best. I’ve found the following used monitors listed near me: (Used, good condition unless specified)
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I'M building an ecommerce website in which i have made 2 checkout options buttons
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2 Cash on delivery when someone click pay online it navigates to payment page and in the payment page you have to insert card details and submit and if payment is successful the order gets created and stored in databse but I want to do the same for Cash on Delivery that if someone clicks on it the order gets and stored in database without doing payment but I don't know how to do it. Please help I'm new to react here's the code of payment online ConfirmOrder.js
2023.03.30 00:57 Hour-Definition189Just my thoughts
She is a weak “woman,” that so desperate for love, attention and affection. She has no constitution or self worth. She role plays and skin walks other people. People that she wished she could be or akin to. She lives everyday of her life off of the high she gets from views and likes. She gets glam in order to make herself feel pretty and worthy. She is going after us because we outnumber her fans at this point. She thinks that we are the problem, but in reality, when she is staring into the camera every minute, she needs to look deep and self reflect. I realize that most of what she has done has been for money and views, but for me, the Mr. Raney lies and false accusations really rubbed me the wrong way. She used her career to make herself look like a victim of something that woman aren’t taken seriously enough about as it is. She contributed to perpetuating the notion that woman that come forward are not to be believed, and they are to be scrutinized and doubted. This is sick and it is unacceptable. I don’t know much about the pedo that she dated, but I read some of it here. I cannot speak on that, but it seems that the issue was problematic enough to bring others here. Then we have Moses. The fact that she set the bar so low for her husband and father of her child. She jumped into a marriage with a man she knew nothing about, out of spite. I don’t know if she was aware of the Stealthing before she married him or not, but she did know that he was trying to hook up with minors. She did know about his stealthing at some point, and when we addressed it on this sub, neither one of them wished to comment on it then. True redemption does not occur because you need more money. True redemption does not occur because you afraid your husband will leave. Going after people that call you out on your bullshit is not redemption. Adjusting the playing field in order to make yourself look better, that is not redemption. There are many other things that others have touched on, but these are my top issues. I feel like she profited off of a dead man, and she smeared his good name. How many views and how much money did she get from those videos? A good start would be to give his family the money she made off of those videos. Since she is so into Judaism,maybe she can read this and take it to heart. “According to Jewish law, a person may not expect forgiveness unless he undergoes a sincere effort to perform “teshuvah,” meaning “repentance” or “return.” The elements of teshuvah include rigorous self-examination and require the perpetrator to engage with the victim, by confessing, expressing regret and making every effort possible to right the wrong that he committed.” Buddhism, “ Even an apology crafted by the Buddha himself is not complete unless the recipient accepts it with grace and offers something in return.” Christianity, “redemption is a metaphor for what is achieved through the atonement.” Not a religious wifey, but redemption comes at a price no matter what religion she chooses to hide behind.