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Table of Contents

1. Emergence Event Introduction
2. General Emergence Event Tips
3. Red Wizard Emergence Event Information
4. Emergence Event Shop Information
5. Emergence Event Variant Information

 

Red Wizard Emergence

Red Wizards are coming to Idle Champions! Fight back against the infamous Red Wizards of Thay and unlock exclusive rewards.
Red Wizard Emergence lasts for 9 days and runs from Wednesday, March 29th, 2023, at Noon, Pacifically, thru Friday, April 7th, 2023, at Noon, Pacifically.
You can find the official Red Wizard Emergence blog post here.
 
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General Emergence Event Tips

• Read the FAQ in-game! It's pretty solid. I swear.
• Corrupted Gems drop on average 1 CGem every 40 seconds. The server will track this for you and if you fall behind the average, it will catch you up automatically by dropping anywhere from 8-20 CGems at a time until you're caught up. This happens to make up for the fact that you cannot earn CGems while offline or in a background party.
• Nolzur's Marvelous Pigments can be applied to an item based on the Role(s) that Champion has. There are four different Pigments (DPS, Support, Tanking, Healing) so any individual item can have up to 4 Pigments assigned if that Champion has all four Roles assigned. A Champion with only one Role (Ex: Artemis - DPS Role only) can only have one Pigment per item. Pigments can be Dismantled. Fun Fact: NERDS is the only Champion in the game that currently has all four of those Roles so can have a total of 24 Pigments across all their items!
• Patron versions of the Corrupted Gems Variants do not grant more Corrupted Gems as a reward. Only the base Variant gives CGems as a reward.
• Despite offering time-based rewards, Bounty Contracts do not drop Corrupted Gems.
• The Emergence Shop (Thayan Enclave) will be available all the time and Corrupted Gems will be able to be spent there at any time. This is because you can still earn the CGem rewards from CGem variants even when an EEvent is not active.
• If you do not purchase Feats or Skins from a specific EEvent's Shop, they will ultimately disappear only to reappear in Wild Offers (Skins) and as available for regular gems (Feats) after a few months. If you do not buy all the offered Pigments, they go away and are refreshed with a new stock when the next EEvent starts.
• While only a few Emergence Enemies spawn when the EEvent starts, as the days go by, more and more will spawn to make it easier to earn all the Corrupted Gems available.
• EEvents will happen sporadically throughout the year. As each new EEvent arrives, they will announce the start date of the next one with it so you know at least when the next one will arrive.

 

Red Wizard Emergence Event Information

This time around, the EEvent is Red Wizard Emergence. Here's what you need to know about it.

• Red Wizards are the target this EEvent. Anywhere they show up, they will drop Corrupted Gems. They will always show up in Free Plays.
• This EEvent's Gold Chest includes gear for Calliope, Hitch, Hew Maan, Widdle, Fen, and Miria.
• This EEvent features Feats for Fen, Hitch, and Hew Maan.
• There are 20 new variants coming during this EEvent that will reward Corrupted Gems. 10 arrive on March 29th, and 10 more arrive on April 5th. See below for a full list of what's currently in the game.
• The next EEvent starts on May 24th.

Here is a list of some places you can find Red Wizards occurring normally in adventures:

• Tomb of Annihilation - Seeking Allies
• Tomb of Annihilation - Homecoming
• Tomb of Annihilation - The Immortal Warrior
• Tomb of Annihilation - The Guardian of Orolunga
• Tomb of Annihilation - The Lost Love

 

Emergence Event Shop Information

Here are the items available in the Shop for this Emergence Event:

Item	Description	# Available	Cost
Corrupted Gems	Used to purchase items	Infinite	10k/$4.99, 21k/$9.99, 44k/$19.99, 120k/$49.99
Marvelous Support Pigment	The chosen equipment piece will now also increase the damage of all Champions by 200%	10	7k Corrupted Gems each
Golden High Sorcery Robes for Miria	Increases the effect of Miria's Mage of High Sorcery ability by 550%	1	20k Corrupted Gems
Red Wizard Calliope	A skin for Calliope	1	10k Corrupted Gems
Red Wizard Widdle	A skin for Widdle
Fen's Wisened Friends Feat	Increases the effect of Fen's I've Got You, Friends ability by 80%	1	10k Corrupted Gems
Hitch's Five Questions Feat	Increases the effect of Hitch's Ricochet ability by 80%	1	10k Corrupted Gems
Hew Maan's Neverwinter Diversity Feat	Increases the number of other Champions counted by Hello, Fellow Humans by 3	1	10k Corrupted Gems
Modron Component Chest	Pipes for the Pipe Game!	8	2.5k Corrupted Gems
Supply Chests	6 random potions or contracts of rare or better quality	8	2.5k Corrupted Gems
Gold Red Wizard Emergence Chests	Contain gear for Calliope, Hitch, Hew Maan, Widdle, Fen, and Miria	Infinite	2.5k Corrupted Gems

 

Emergence Event Variant Information

This Emergence will feature 20 new variants that each reward 1,250 Corrupted Gems as part of the completion rewards. These rewards can be earned at any time, so you don't have to do them during this EEvent.

Sword Coast

1. Return to the Tomb - Keep Your Distance
2. Heatwave - Hands Off!

Waterdeep: Dragon Heist

1. Déjà Vu - Déjà Vu All Over Again
2. Alterdeep - Ulkoria's Escape from Alterdeep

Baldur's Gate: Descent Into Avernus

1. Into the Fire - Hearts Aflame
2. Dreamscape - Look Out!

Icewind Dale: Rime of the Frostmaiden

1. The Rite of the Arcane Octad - An Icewind Dale Reunion
2. The Netherese Necropolis - The Archaeologist and the Sailor

The Wild Beyond the Witchlight

1. Downfall - Third Third Out
2. Slack-jawed Lorna - A Steadfast Love

Searched around but struggling so hoping for some help please. New to Tau > just bought this army on EBay: https://www.ebay.com/itm/225487766125
In the description it describes having a custom paint scheme of ‘mobile suit gundam’ colors (think they look pretty cool) but also that they are Farsight Enclaves. Question: how would someone identify from this paint scheme that they are farsight enclaves? I think/thought they are red. Am I missing something? Is there anything to stop me painting up some Ethereals or other characters and running them as another Sept?
Sorry if I’ve overlooked something basic (I started looking at antenna on/near heads but colors are different) and thanks in advance for your assistance!

Growing up, my father was very Catholic, going to church every Sunday and even having an altar in his room fully dedicated to Jesus Christ. To say I found it intimidating wouldn’t be far from the truth, as I personally held no belief within religion… But I found staring at Jesus’ face to be unnerving.
The photo he hung up was like any other regular picture of Jesus, depicting his long hair, stony face, and palms which faced the door, but it was his eyes that made me the most uncomfortable. Those blank eyes made me feel like he was constantly staring me down; eyes glued onto me and judging me for unseen actions and words, like I was being watched all the time. It wasn’t a nice feeling to say the least and perhaps my parents would disagree, but I knew something was off, this being more of a gut feeling.
So I avoided that area of the house frequently, opting to stay inside my room or downstairs next to the kitchen.
My extreme dislike of this image only increased. It was a stormy night and I had just turned six, lying alone in my parent’s bed by myself. My memory is very vague when it comes to what I was doing before the incident, lazing about and laying in silence.
In the corner of the room where the altar was, I looked there, staring at the dim photo, the rosary draped across it. My eyes didn’t leave the picture of Jesus and the eerie silence didn’t make me feel any better. Then all of a sudden, I felt a cold whisper, like something was telling me to look to the right. Outside my parents room, down the stairs, I saw a tall silhouette standing at the bottom, looking up at me.
My heart stopped beating altogether and my eyes widened, frozen in shock as my eyes locked onto it. I propped myself up to get a better view. This person appeared nothing like my parents… but then who could it be?
The stairway was dark, as was the rest of upstairs, but I could still make out its face and I vividly recall almost every detail. It resembled… Jesus, that same Jesus from the altar, with the signature hair, clothes down to his face and feet… yet it had an unnatural height, about seven feet tall and towering, coveted in the shadows, and devoid of any color… save for the red liquids that ran down his head.
It was unmoving, still, not saying a word or interacting, just gazing back up at me; like a predator watching prey… It was unnerving observing him observing me. And those eyes, those sunken-in eyes, I’ve never seen eyes more empty than in that moment. The pitchblack that crept across his face only made my breath hitch.
I was frightened by the creepy apparition, sweat dripping down my forehead and stuck in place, waiting for him to move, to run up the stairs and snatch me… But that didn’t happen.
Instead, my mother started calling me from the attic and I snapped out of it immediately, looking to the hallway to see her by the backdoor.
“Mom… who’s that standing down the stairs?” I pointed down the stairwell.
She looked at me, puzzled. “No one.”
“But!” I turned back and it was gone, as if it was never there, nothing else at the bottom except for the dimness of the stairwell. “Oh…”
To this day, I still don’t know what I saw by the stairs. It was so real, so true, like I had actually seen some disturbing version of Jesus that very night. The experience itself was… horrible and from then on, I never looked at my father’s altar nor stayed too long in their room after that.
I don't necessarily believe in spirits but after this, I suppose there is something out there. It couldn’t have been my imagination, no, my imagination would never think of something so grisly... and I’m sure I wasn’t dreaming.
But after all this time, now in college and moving onward as an adult, I still get goosebumps from that same section. I still feel like I’m being watched every time I pass that corner, almost tripping on nothing but air sometimes. I try to pay this aspect no mind, but out of the corner of my eyes… I suspect it’s still here, still watching and waiting for the right chance to appear again, to surprise me once more… but so far, I’ve been lucky. Or so I hope.

Some suggestions for the ladies of bumble... if you open the convo with only a hi or hey it's gonna be an auto-unmatch for me dawg.
This is by far the most common opening line and I understand that many that send this are genuinely interested. That being said, on this app you are given the opportunity to set the tone and temperature of the conversation and Hi or Hey is ice-cold and you aren't doing yourself any favors with it.
Just something to think about.

I just need to rant a little bit because my permit expired right after they suspended issuing new permits, I couldn't afford to renew mine as I'm poor (The only reason I had one to begin with was a nice man at the PLA gave me a years permit free due to my situation) so I emailed asking if the PLA would be making permits more financially accessible for those on lower incomes in future like being able to pay monthly instead of over £100 lump-sum and she very rudely told me they don't make exceptions for people like me. (Even though they do because that's why I have a permit to begin with)
Mudlarking was the only thing that helped my depression and it could be years until they open for new permits again, I don't even know why I'm posting this I just feel so low, even walking by the river now upsets me.

My favorite is between the twitcher and guardians. I love the idea of the slasher being merged with the stasis module. Making it fast and deadly in an enclosed space. Guardians however gives me this horrific chill with how it captures it’s prey. Using the voice of friends or loved ones to lure you out and using it’s tentacles or pods that it shoots out to take you. What if that brain is still active? That you are aware of what’s happening to you. The marker already fucks with you mind, but is that one even alive? Screw it, I’ll add hunter and a infector because why not. The hunter, on my first encounter, is the nemesis/Mr. X of dead space. The infector is most memorable for the iconic opening to the second game. The remake version of it’s debut is cool, but something about second game’s is more, violent and horrifying.

I’ve been on bupropion off and on for years and I can honestly say it gave me my life back. I’ve never had any bad reactions or side effects until now. Recently I got back on it and it has been a roller coaster for me. I feel anxious, irritable and way more depressed. Also, it smells so bad I gag when I open the bottle. My doctor told me it was fine and it’s probably just the manufacturer and some meds are like that. So I researched the manufacturer and I found a lot of bad reviews and they have an F on the bbb. So I guess my question is has anyone else had bad results from DR Reddy manufacturer? Or is it just the bupropion?

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Modified Benchmade 550 (full size Griptilian) - SV 200/TV 250 Knife comes with Brass Meton Boss scales, titanium clip, pouch, old scales/clip, no box. I removed the DLC coating, acid etched, and stone washed the blade. It’s been sharpened on my WSPA and never carried since modifying.
Spyderco Canis - SV 190 Carbon fiber scales, second owner, I never carried the knife and the edge looks unused. I’d say this is LNIB, comes with box.
Smith & Wesson Powerglide- SV 65 Not an automatic, it folds to open. Like new, never carried or cut (except my thumb). Missing the belt clip.
https://imgur.com/a/Zn9ILBy
Buck Onset Flipper - SV 20, add on for 15 Steel handles, solid knife. Can’t spend your $20 in a better way. SOLD
Meton Boss fidget stick spinner thing - SV 50 Made of titanium, the top spins via bearing. Too small for me so I don’t really use it. Cool desk toy, fits in pocket easily.
PPF&F is preferred, will ship via USPS.
Feel free to shoot me messages or offers, priority goes to yolo comments (over DMs).

Hello. Im a 19 yo male residing near chicago. Last saturday, i was ticketed with failure to yield for an emergency vehicle. Allow me to explain. Leaving a car meet, a Chicago PD officer pulled out of the right hand side of the 4 way intersection with little regard of oncoming traffic with his lights on, forcing me to come to an abrubt stop, as he stopped his vehicle directly across my lane. After waiting a few moments of nothing, i peeked around his car, confirmed it was clear, and went around him, crossing a solid double yellow line. Pulling up to the rest of traffic, He traveled past other vehicles in the opposite way lane, and pulled up next to me. He then cut me off when traffic moved, and began a usual traffic stop. Multiple cops arrived and boxed me in. I cooperated flawlessly and gave the officer everything he wanted with no question. There was a bit of marijuana in the open that my passenger was using, thought not I, seeing this, we were instantly pulled out of the vehicle and cuffed and my vehicle searched. After finding nothing, we were uncuffed and allowed to pull my vehicle out of the roadway where i was then cited for failure to yield for an emergency vehicle. Im 19 with a flawless driving record and no criminal record. If i explain the story as, the officer pulled out in front of me causing me to come to an abrubt stop, waited a few moments and made sure the opposite lane was clear, while mentioning my clean history, do you think i have a chance at winning?

I tried to break up with my gf today. Something happened and it was the nail in the coffin for me. After I spoke to her about my feelings, we agreed to a break but then that turned into an argument and then we said we'd just end it anyway.
I was upstairs packing to go to stay somewhere else. She was in floods of tears begging for me to stay and try to work on things. She then brought up that if we break up that she wants nothing to do with me (even though we have a puppy and id need to collect my stuff properly eventually). She'd also mentioned that without me she has nothing left to live for and she kept hinting that she wouldn't be around for much longer (basically end her own life), she also kept having aggressive outburst and kept punching herself, the wall and doors, smashing pictures of us. She then disappeared to the bathroom and locked the door, afterwards she admitted to trying to hurt herself in the bathroom with a shard of glass from a picture frame she smashed. Somehow it's ended up us being on a break and she keeps saying that I'm not allowed to leave and kept asking if I'll always come back to her.
Im not an expert in relationships and havent had many serious ones. We've been together 6 years. She kept saying that I obviously don't care if I can throw our relationship away like that and not wanting to work on thing. All we do is say we'll work on things and end up in a simmilar situation. We haven't had the best time for months now and I mentally can't deal anymore.
I'm struggling to even want to go back after what happened tonight, even if I somehow don't remember agreeing to a temporary break. I didn't realise she was that person. I just need to vent and ask wtf.

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• What am I looking for?

I am looking for somebody to finish life together with outside of my race—somebody near the same age range as me, somebody child-free like me, and somebody that wants to start and have a family with me. I’m African American. What is more, I’m looking for somebody who is trustworthy (you are who you say you are), who is reliable (you do what you say you are going to do over and over again), somebody that wants to make an eternal difference in the lives of others/share my same faith, and somebody I can experience emotional safety with (that’s we are both confident bringing up any sort of issues without the fear of being shutdown, ridiculed, or judged).
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• What's keeping me busy these days?

I try to stay busy at my job (work with kids). Anyone know of the 8:8:8 rule? It’s where 8 hours go to work, 8 hours go sleep, and 8 hours go to leisure/or me-time. At the moment, my typical work weekday looks like 10:7:7. But over the weekends I have more time for myself to enjoy.
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• What do I enjoy doing?

I love collecting and playing video games on my windows laptop. Some games that I’m hoping to complete: the Lego games, Spiderman Remastered, Kingdom Hearts 3, and the Ni No Kuni games.
What is more, I love watching anime, and TV drama shows. Think FBI by Dick Wolf. FBI International. One Punch Man. My Hero Academia. Naruto. Black Clover. Bleach. Something else that I enjoy doing is playing the piano. I’ve been playing piano for over 10+ years, and the people (in my life) who have heard me play will say things like: you inspire me, or ‘you’re better than you think!”
I also love to read a good book when I’m able to (I read both ebooks and physical). Two of my fav books: Agent you, by Nicole Lynn. Set Boundaries, Find Peace by Nedra Tawwab. More tellingly, I love reading almost any book that has a good question in it. One of my favorite small talk questions: what is a question you like people to ask you?
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• What are my accomplishments?

I hold a two-year college Associates degree in General Studies, and a vocational certificate in Computer Systems and Information Technology. Nothing over the top or fancy. But it’s something. And who knows if I’ll be continuing my education in the future.
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• Some other things about me

I’m a homebody, and introverted on my best day. I live a clean lifestyle with no drinking, smoking, gambling, or drugs. I have no criminal record. No tattoos. Not a fan of long distance relationships, sorry for that. I will happily exchange pictures of myself with anyone who’s interested in getting to know me. Thank you for taking the time to read this, if you’ve made it this far!

Thanks to Connect-Abalone3863 for doing my job for me, but here's the full info for folks that want it...
When: 3pm-7pm every Thursday from March 30th (THIS THURSDAY) to November 2nd
Where: Tipperary Park - next to City Hall
How: the 106 bus stops nearby, we're quite central if you fancy a walk (weather should be really... oh... no... mustn't jinx it), cycle (we have bike racks!) or, if you must, drive (there's parking on Queens, Royal and 3rd)
What: well, that changes every week. You'll see some of your favourite vendors with us every week of the season and some others will come and go according to the season. But I CAN tell you that this Thursday will be our big Season Opener Block Party!
"Season Opener Block Party?" you ask.
Yes! Season Opener Block Party!

• We have FREE COOKIES for the first 100 customers!
• We have LIVE MUSIC from Sue Breton!
• We have Food Trucks!
• We have face painting and balloons from 4-6pm!
• We have a living statue performer!
• We have Member Appreciation Day discounts!
• Free music classes for under 5s by Music Box at 4 & 5pm!
• Lawn games!
• Crafts!
• Oh... so much! So much!

Seriously, there's too much happening for my little fingers but, if you wanted to know about everything every week then the best thing you could do would be... you know don't you because you've already done it... ok... sing along with me... sign up for our newsletter by clicking the banner on our website at https://newwestfarmers.ca/ - that will get you an email a week with our vendor list for that week - a full day before we announce it to other less-lucky folks. And go find us on Facebook and Instagram for more prettily formatted news postings.
On the subject of Instagram, we're also holding an Instagram contest. Tag @newwestfarmers in your market haul pics on Instagram for your chance to win $20 in Market Money! Make sure to post your pic and tag us within 24 hours of the market and we'll draw a name to pick up at our following market on April 6th!
But wait... what was that about Member Appreciation Day discounts? Well, if you're a member of the Farmers Market you get MONEY SAVING DEALS!
Where?

• Gary’s Kettle Corn- $1 off large bags
• PuppyPower SuperTreats - 10% off
• Homemade by Harris - 10% off
• Mandair Farms - 1 free jar of plain jam or pickled brussel sprouts with each purchase of $20 or more
• Occasionally Honey - $1 off frozen desserts
• Outwest Ranches - $2.00 off beef roast 3.5 lb+
• Sweet U Macarons - 1 free macaron per purchase for the first 100 customers
• Hett Creek Sourdough - Buy 2 loaves and get 10% off
• Rockweld Farm - Bone in, skin on chicken quarters are 25% off
• Spark Foods - 10% off

How?
Become a member! It's easy... hand over $10 at the pretty green info tent and you'll get a card and you'll get discounts at our monthly Member Appreciation Days for a whole year (usually first market of the month but not 6th April because we're bringing it forward a week). You also get other things like the ability to vote at our AGM but I know you're really here for the discounts.
OK, one last thing... this week's vendor list (and remember: mailing list... early access etc etc)
Artisans and Pet Products:

Artsy Candle Bonorlea Hearth and Home MeNom PuppyPower SuperTreats 

Bakeries:

BAK'd Cookies Gabi and Jules Hett Creek Sourdough Homemade By Harris Occasionally Honey Sweet U Macaroons Twins Donuts Waffled 

Beverages:

Festina Lente Gingeraki Mainland Whisky Studio Brewing Top Hat Kombucha 

Produce/Flower Farmers:

Mandair Farms Whistler Harvest 

Dairy:

Golden Ears Cheesecrafters 

Prepared Foods:

Angkor Harvest Anne's Kitchen Churchkela Empanada Gal Gary's Kettle Corn Mamma Musey Pierogi Mandi's Mickles Origo Pastaggio Pretty Bird Kitchen Spark Foods Tamaly Shop With/On Kimchi 

Meat & Fish:

Island Jerky Outwest Ranches Rockweld Farms The Butchers Guild Vancouver Smoked Foods Wild West Coast Seafoods 

Food Court: (Moved to Queens Ave for this season)

Bread and Cheese Crema Ice Cream and Desserts 

PS. Yes I know there's not many farms. We get asked that every year in March :) They'll be along in good time. The strawberries are always worth the wait.
PPS. Yes, I know we're a little smaller than last year but never fear... come the summer we'll expand again and take over the world the park as we did last year.
PPPS. And yes we have a portaloo. Huh? You think it would be nice if there was a permanent set of washrooms in Tipperary Park? Hmmm - us too!
PPPPS. If you got all the way through you deserve a prize. You don't get one but you MIGHT if you enter our Instagram contest.

I just wanted to share my experience with this year's grad admission season. It's been super weird! I applied to a few top universities for a master's program and felt pretty confident about my chances. I had good grades, work experience, and letters of recommendation.
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But then I started hearing about a bunch of mass rejections on Reddit and other forums. Even people with great credentials were getting turned down without even an interview. And then it happened to me too. I got an email from one of the schools I applied to saying I didn't make the cut. I was pretty surprised and bummed out.
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What's really frustrating is that the schools aren't giving any explanation for these rejections. Some people think it's because of the pandemic and too many applications. Others think schools are trying to keep up their rankings by only accepting perfect students.
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Anyway, I just wanted to vent and see if anyone else has had a similar experience. It's tough not to take it personally, but I'm trying to stay positive and keep my options open. Let me know if you've gone through this too!

Whenever I tilt the screen on my FlowX13 (like laying on my bed) Armoury Crate will automatically switch to Tablet / Vertical mode, which disables lots of stuff.
Silent, Performance, Turbo, etc are then invisible and only Tablet / Vertical is selectable.
The only way for me to exist Tablet mode is to literally tilt my laptop back, making it impossible to use with the keyboard open while laying sideways in bed.

WTS/WTT some WTFs that don't quite work for me. tagged 31, new way 5-5 in blue af, top opening 15.75” tried on, never worn $57 shipped
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Paypal FF or add fee.

• I also posted this in the CPTSD sub -

Yesterday my T and I spoke about treatment plan, exercises, and goals, and stuff to work on, and she said there isn't just one specific exercise or one specific path to follow, it's important I talk about stuff. I said, well, I could talk about a lot of things but there's only just a few things that weigh really heavy on my mind and heart, and I'm afraid ppl will be bored hearing the same stuff over and over and they probably don't want to hear about it all the time. And she said, well, you tell it one time, then the next time you tell it differently bc you've learned stuff, you had insights, you process things, you change. And it's good if I talked, it's ok ...
I was quiet for a while and she asked about my thoughts. And I said I feel funny, like some sliding feeling, I could not really tell whether it was "good" or "bad", like something sliding off and to the side into a corner somewhere.
Then we talked about other stuff and I left.
5 minutes later I had tears in my eyes. She said it's ok to talk - whatever is there to talk about is ok, everything is ok, I am allowed to be just the way I am, she wants to hear it, someone wants to hear it! It's ok! I'm ok the way I am. Whatever wants to be spoken is ok; everything that comes up is ok. I am allowed to speak about it, and someone wants to hear it! I don't have to hide it, I don't have to pretend everything is fine. She actually wants to hear it! There's someone there who wants to hear it!
I am so grateful that she actually said it's ok that I talk and also if I talk about certain things many times. When I grew up emotions weren't talked about, showing them meant weakness, that was shamed, so I shut them off. My first T had said my emotional flashbacks were malbehavior that needs to be ignored so it would get extinguished and whenever I tried to talk about the stuff that still haunts me he would interrupt me, that made me really desperate and hopeless and it confirmed the belief that emotions are not to be talked about and talking about them will be punished in some form and that ppl really don't want to listen.
And now I am sitting here crying bc I am so happy that my T said what she said. That she said it explicitly that it's ok, and while she didn't explicitly say that she wants to hear it, I still take her words to mean it, and I am so happy. It's ok for me to talk, I am ok, I am not bad for having this mega urge to talk about my trauma(s), I am good, I am ok just the way I am, and everything that will come up will be ok.
And my wounded inner child, little me, is crying too, out of pure relief and happiness bc it feels it's not an inherently bad little person; it was never bad, it's ok the way it is, someone wants to hear what little me has to say.
Little me is ok, little me is a good little human.
I am crying so hard and I feel relief. And I think that sliding feeling yesterday was part of my armor sliding away. I feel more open, grateful, relieved, like this is the beginning of something good and healing. 😄❤️🫂

Hi guys! It is with much hesitation (nerves lol) that I’m posting this for you to (hopefully) enjoy……
“Do you love her?”
One elder’s question to me during my second judicial committee meeting.
I thought for a few seconds, but still a full believer and wanting to be completely honest despite the consequences, I replied: “Yeah, I do.”
My head hung low, my gaze fixed on the pattern in the carpet. I was too ashamed to look them in the eyes while I spoke.
Of course, being in love is nothing to be ashamed of.
But it is when you are one of Jehovah’s Witnesses.
To say that I was an anxiety-ridden person - even in my day-to-day life, would have been accurate, and at times even an understatement.
So one could only imagine how a tribunal of three men asking probing questions about my sexuality and deepest intentions would have made me feel.
Each word within each sentence plagued me. Any feelings of relief following their decision to allow me to continue to be with my family was trailed by guilt and worry that I hadn’t divulged enough.
“Remember, Jehovah is going to be very disappointed in you if this happens again,” the other elder said to me near the conclusion of our two-hour long interrogation disguised as a “support meeting.”
The term “support meeting” isn’t a Witness term, either. It’s a good way to describe how they paint judicial committees, though.
Magazines and books, of which the Watchtower has published thousands, showed pictures of elders with their hands on our shoulders, comforting us in our guilt that the organization – the same one they represented – had manufactured.
This being my second meeting in two years for the same sin, sexual immorality, I was on thin ice.
Doing something twice and being “forgiven” was difficult, and I knew that regardless of my demeanor a third time would surely mean the worst.
The Witnesses use scriptures like arrows shot out of a bow.
It’s one verse, and it’s used by itself, the majority of the time taken out of context in order to forward whichever standard or rule they are enforcing at the time.
First Corinthians 14:40 is a favorite. “But let all things take place decently and by arrangement.”
What is the context of that verse?
I never knew growing up, only that God wanted things to be arranged. And that is why we listened when a man in the congregation made a schedule of who would mow the lawn at the Kingdom Hall and on which date it would be done.
Nearly each meeting you attended as a young man in the organization would begin with that scripture, whether it be a building project, a toilet-cleaning assignment or raking leaves on a Sunday afternoon.
Or a judicial committee.
It was the arrangement that “God’s” people had put in place, and since that verse in First Corinthians said to let things take place in that way, that is what we did.
I learned later in life, after waking up to the disgusting hypocrisy within that organization, the context of that verse.
It was referring to refraining from things that were childish, vain, things that would make a person seem crazy, or that would create confusion.
As with many things in the bible, those seem like common sense to any average person.
This is one of the tamest examples of the Witnesses using a verse in their own pursuits.
But what it highlights is the mechanism they use to employ scriptures.
It would be like me finding a newspaper clipping with a photo of a dog. The caption reads: “He was a very good boy.”
Then, each time anyone did anything I found unacceptable, I quoted that caption to them, saying: “Remember the dog, he was a very good boy. You should be, too.”
That is as much depth as any Witness needs to use a scripture on someone.
In a reinstatement committee, the third elder read me the verse in Second Corinthians where the apostle Paul commended a congregation for “showing itself holy in every aspect” and that was the verse he used to help explain to me why they would not reinstate me. It was not because I had continued doing the thing they disfellowshipped me for in the first place. It was because I was honest, and told them I had recently viewed pornography.
One strike, and I was out. That was all it took.
“How long ago?” one asked.
I answered – again to my fault – honestly.
“Maybe two weeks ago . . .” I replied.
For them, that was too close. It showed that I didn’t take it seriously enough.
And so back out into the world I went, alone.
But not before a little added humiliation.
“I don’t know anything about that,” he said. Unconvincingly. “So what site do you go on? Is it a website, a magazine, your phone, where do you get it?”
“Uh, the internet,” I said.
“What website, what is the name of it?” He pressed.
“Um, Pornhub,” I said.
“Pornhub?” He parroted back to me to make sure he heard me correctly. He said it as if he’d never heard of it before.
I nodded, shamefully, and with that – my meeting had ended.
My resolve was weakened.
I sat in a chair in my apartment and stared at the wall later that night, unsure of whether to go on living life as before, or whether I should give up, go to bed or something else. I didn’t know what to do.
I had powered through those 300-plus days with such drive and focus, and admittedly had gotten my hopes up.
Who wouldn’t, after not seeing any of their friends or family for nearly a year?
I had done 300 days alone to that point, so 30 more shouldn’t have felt like an eternity.
My hopes had been pinned on that 300th day, when I would turn in my letter.
And when your happiness hinges on what three men think of you, you can forget how in control they really are.
The first few days of that next month were some of the most difficult of my life, even after having gone through several spells of deep depression and suicidal thoughts in the previous months.
But I made it back, and that was the start of my waking up process.
Many Witnesses do not get to see behind that curtain.
Of course, many do see behind it and continue right on going, but the fickleness of it all stuck with me.
I couldn’t shake it, the feeling that my fate lied in a 50/50 coin flip based upon my answers to very specific questions asked by men who were uneducated, and in many cases, ignorant.
I do not hold anything against those men personally. But people’s lives are affected by them and the decisions they make, and so to feel that some of those decisions are made on a whim is too much to bear.

Growing up, my father was very Catholic, going to church every Sunday and even having an altar in his room fully dedicated to Jesus Christ. To say I found it intimidating wouldn’t be far from the truth, as I personally held no belief within religion… But I found staring at Jesus’ face to be unnerving.
The photo he hung up was like any other regular picture of Jesus, depicting his long hair, stony face, and palms which faced the door, but it was his eyes that made me the most uncomfortable. Those blank eyes made me feel like he was constantly staring me down; eyes glued onto me and judging me for unseen actions and words, like I was being watched all the time. It wasn’t a nice feeling to say the least and perhaps my parents would disagree, but I knew something was off, this being more of a gut feeling.
So I avoided that area of the house frequently, opting to stay inside my room or downstairs next to the kitchen.
My extreme dislike of this image only increased. It was a stormy night and I had just turned six, lying alone in my parent’s bed by myself. My memory is very vague when it comes to what I was doing before the incident, lazing about and laying in silence.
In the corner of the room where the altar was, I looked there, staring at the dim photo, the rosary draped across it. My eyes didn’t leave the picture of Jesus and the eerie silence didn’t make me feel any better. Then all of a sudden, I felt a cold whisper, like something was telling me to look to the right. Outside my parents room, down the stairs, I saw a tall silhouette standing at the bottom, looking up at me.
My heart stopped beating altogether and my eyes widened, frozen in shock as my eyes locked onto it. I propped myself up to get a better view. This person appeared nothing like my parents… but then who could it be?
The stairway was dark, as was the rest of upstairs, but I could still make out its face and I vividly recall almost every detail. It resembled… Jesus, that same Jesus from the altar, with the signature hair, clothes down to his face and feet… yet it had an unnatural height, about seven feet tall and towering, coveted in the shadows, and devoid of any color… save for the red liquids that ran down his head.
It was unmoving, still, not saying a word or interacting, just gazing back up at me; like a predator watching prey… It was unnerving observing him observing me. And those eyes, those sunken-in eyes, I’ve never seen eyes more empty than in that moment. The pitchblack that crept across his face only made my breath hitch.
I was frightened by the creepy apparition, sweat dripping down my forehead and stuck in place, waiting for him to move, to run up the stairs and snatch me… But that didn’t happen.
Instead, my mother started calling me from the attic and I snapped out of it immediately, looking to the hallway to see her by the backdoor.
“Mom… who’s that standing down the stairs?” I pointed down the stairwell.
She looked at me, puzzled. “No one.”
“But!” I turned back and it was gone, as if it was never there, nothing else at the bottom except for the dimness of the stairwell. “Oh…”
To this day, I still don’t know what I saw by the stairs. It was so real, so true, like I had actually seen some disturbing version of Jesus that very night. The experience itself was… horrible and from then on, I never looked at my father’s altar nor stayed too long in their room after that.
I don't necessarily believe in spirits but after this, I suppose there is something out there. It couldn’t have been my imagination, no, my imagination would never think of something so grisly... and I’m sure I wasn’t dreaming.
But after all this time, now in college and moving onward as an adult, I still get goosebumps from that same section. I still feel like I’m being watched every time I pass that corner, almost tripping on nothing but air sometimes. I try to pay this aspect no mind, but out of the corner of my eyes… I suspect it’s still here, still watching and waiting for the right chance to appear again, to surprise me once more… but so far, I’ve been lucky. Or so I hope.

Hi all, so this is what happened to my vehicle.
I got into an accident last March and after I got my car back from the body shop there's warning lights for the pre-collision/secondary brake/LDA on and says "see dealership". So I took my car to the dealership and the dealership confirmed it was related to the accident. But the sensor didn't come after 7-8 months due to supply chain problem. After the dealership change my sensor, we sent the invoice to AAA and they issue the refund to me for the payment. However, after changing the sensor, the warning the lights are still on, the dealership recommend a diagnosis on the car and this time AAA declined and requested me to take the vehicle to the previous body shop who fixed my car after the accident to check my car to see if it is related to the repaiaccident.
I want to ask what is the standard procedure for supplement charge. Do I have to/MUST take the vehicle to the old body shop to check? Or can I decline the request and have the dealership to continue with the repair and perform a diagnosis on the car? (The dealership is asking AAA to pay for the diagnosis). What should I do here since I never have the experience dealing with car insurance. Please advice and help. Thank you.

I am incredibly, incredibly disappointed with recent events connected to the Solus Project. I understand Datadrake's issues and that isn't what has me angry.
A few months back I spoke on the forum about organizing a campaign to help people begin using Solus again. The drop in ranking in DistroWatch worried me about the long term viability of the project. Increasing adoption increases not only the user base but likely contributors to the project code base. Obviously if there were more people contributing to the project there would be less stress on Datadrake to do everything alone.
A marketing campaign would have consisted of more consistent updates to the blog, helping to find additional devs if needed, communicating on various social platforms used by the distro and working to bring up adoption rates and increase the Distrowatch score. It would have also worked to help build up the Open Collective so there was funding for the project.
I was shouted down by one of the key moderators (Justin I think) and screamed at about how useless marketing was and why it wasn't needed and that resulted in me asking to delete my account. I never went back to the forums and I had been a daily poster for several years.
Just so everyone knows.. I don't think this is Datadrake's Fault. Beatrice has put her heart and soul into this project. There are external issues which I understand has affected her life and I don't think people should be putting any blame on her for what is going on. There is only so much one person can do when surrounded by people who don't seem particularly supportive.
I don't feel like finding a new distro. I like this one. Changing distros is going to cause me an INCREDIBLE amount of work. I am sick and tired of not having patches, including security patches, and I expect someone to respond at some point.
Datadrake should NOT be the only person expected to respond. What's happened to Justin and Kyrios? There were other people on the back end and they aren't sick or affected by real life issues like Beatrice is.
Even if the answer is "I don't know" that answer is more sufficient than nothing at all.
This has already happened once before when Ikey left. Josh came in and revitalized the project (which I am grateful for). If it happened once, it can happen again.
How do we get Solus running again?

This is going to be a little all over the place, and I’m sorry for that. Let me start by saying that I love my partner very much, which is probably why this is so difficult. Context: my partner and I have been together for about a year and a half. She has a 10 year old daughter. We all live together and naturally that means that I’ve taken up some responsibility for her daughter, and I also love her daughter very much. I am aware that she is her mother and has parented for a decade already while I don’t have any children, she is even an education worker.. but the way she parents her daughter makes me not want to have kids with her in the future. I don’t know what that means, because we both want children. She lets her daughter get away with just about everything unless it inconveniences her. She doesn’t get punished for being a bully, she isn’t held accountable for any of her messes or chores, she has nearly unfettered access to her devices which has caused her to shirk every responsibility she has, she is rude to her friends, she doesn’t shower when told to, she would rather starve than eat anything but junk food, lies through her teeth constantly, and all of these things? They’re enabled. And I try to be on top of it and my partner says I’m being too harsh or commanding or I can’t expect her to do any of those things but, while my recollection of being 10 isn’t great, I know I wasn’t helpless and incapable of doing anything for the household or my well-being. And honestly this isn’t even her daughter’s fault that she has no structure or discipline so I can’t really be mad at her. It’s just a lot, all the time trying to help look after this kid while I’m contradicted the whole time (and I AM expected to look after her, often). It is really making me feel like I need to reevaluate if my partner is the kind of person I can build a family with in the future.

Hello. Im a 19 yo male residing near chicago. Last saturday, i was ticketed with failure to yield for an emergency vehicle. Allow me to explain. Leaving a car meet, a Chicago PD officer pulled out of the right hand side of the 4 way intersection with little regard of oncoming traffic with his lights on, forcing me to come to an abrubt stop, as he stopped his vehicle directly across my lane. After waiting a few moments of nothing, i peeked around his car, confirmed it was clear, and went around him, crossing a solid double yellow line. Pulling up to the rest of traffic, He traveled past other vehicles in the opposite way lane, and pulled up next to me. He then cut me off when traffic moved, and began a usual traffic stop. Multiple cops arrived and boxed me in. I cooperated flawlessly and gave the officer everything he wanted with no question. There was a bit of marijuana in the open that my passenger was using, thought not I, seeing this, we were instantly pulled out of the vehicle and cuffed and my vehicle searched. After finding nothing, we were uncuffed and allowed to pull my vehicle out of the roadway where i was then cited for failure to yield for an emergency vehicle. Im 19 with a flawless driving record and no criminal record. If i explain the story as, the officer pulled out in front of me causing me to come to an abrubt stop, waited a few moments and made sure the opposite lane was clear, while mentioning my clean history, do you think i have a chance at winning?