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2023.06.04 06:06 ceiling_terms9 If a dog has a food allergy - will there always be other signs?
I’ve scheduled a skin test for my dog at the dermatologist unfortunately it’s not for several months.
I know there are no accurate tests for food allergies. I think with the signs, it’s NOT pointing to a food allergy but I thought I’d ask you all.
For those whose dogs do have a TRUE food allergy or intolerance and confirmed by a strict HP diet for the appropriate amount of time: did your dog have other symptoms?
Because my dog started itching and biting/ licking his paws and legs very suddenly and hasn’t stopped (it’s being managed by apoquel AND Cytopoint,and it’s barely holding over honestly.) but the food hasn’t changed super recently (changed to a RX diet a few months ago) and his stool has been very firm, honestly best it’s ever been after starting this RX diet.
He DOES have gas but i believe that’s not new. (Noticeable in small spaces such as in the car or in a hallway).
So if a dog doesn’t have GI upset, has firm stool, can they still have a food allergy?
I’m just trying to see if it’s worth going through a food allergy trial or not. It would be highly inconvenient which is why I’m really trying to not do it unless if it’s indicated.
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I know there are no accurate tests for food allergies. I think with the signs, it’s NOT pointing to a food allergy but I thought I’d ask you all.
For those whose dogs do have a TRUE food allergy or intolerance and confirmed by a strict HP diet for the appropriate amount of time: did your dog have other symptoms?
Because my dog started itching and biting/ licking his paws and legs very suddenly and hasn’t stopped (it’s being managed by apoquel AND Cytopoint,and it’s barely holding over honestly.) but the food hasn’t changed super recently (changed to a RX diet a few months ago) and his stool has been very firm, honestly best it’s ever been after starting this RX diet.
He DOES have gas but i believe that’s not new. (Noticeable in small spaces such as in the car or in a hallway).
So if a dog doesn’t have GI upset, has firm stool, can they still have a food allergy?
I’m just trying to see if it’s worth going through a food allergy trial or not. It would be highly inconvenient which is why I’m really trying to not do it unless if it’s indicated.
2023.06.04 06:06 InfernoAA Inferno, PAC, and Brummie WiFi: A Tale of Three Bastards
Bermuda Triangle
Following their victory in Double or Nothing’s main event over The Elite, Blackpool Combat Club promptly return their attention to The Lucha Bros after interference from The Young Bucks cost them their shot at the ROH World Tag Team Championship. A Six-Man Tag on Dynamite sees Jon Moxley, Claudio Castagnoli, and Wheeler YUTA destroy Rey Fenix, Penta El Zero Miedo, and Bandido, a screwdriver and Seatbelt Clutch from YUTA bloodying Fenix for the win! With Rey out of commission, Bandido steps up in defence of his former home of ROH, agreeing to defend with Penta against Claudio & YUTA.
In a valiant effort, Penta & Bandido manage to hold off their ruthless foes for the most part, but when Bryan and Mox interject themselves, the numbers start to become too much. That is, until… PAC’S MUSIC HITS!!! Nailing the two with his trusty hammer, he levels the playing field for Penta to hit the Fear Factor on Claudio to retain! As a ticked BCC leave with their tails tucked, PAC helps the Tag Champs up… BEFORE NAILING BANDIDO TOO!!! Penta’s stunned as PAC coldly informs him the Bandit’s purpose is up, forcing Penta to follow him out.
With the Bastard back, he sets his sights on reclaiming his throne – the International Championship. Facing an angsty YUTA in a Forbidden Door 4-Way Qualifier, Misawa-lite’s overzealousness becomes his downfall as PAC destroys him like he did a year prior, proving nothing’s changed between them. Alas, he meets rival Orange Cassidy at the PPV, along with Tomohiro Ishii and Shingo Takagi. Like no time has passed, PAC and OC leave each other in ruin, though a closing Black Arrow is intercepted by a screwdriver from Claudio, allowing the Orange Punch to win out!
Pissed, Death Triangle challenge BCC for their NEVER Openweight 6-Man Tag Team Championship at Fyter Fest as PAC tries to reclaim his other throne… except, that was never the plan. As Lucha Bros go to nail the Double Stomp/Fear Factor, PAC NAILS FENIX WITH THE HAMMER! PENTA EATS IT TOO! Walking out on them, BCC retains…
Why PAC, Why?
PAC explains that before his injury, he had the world, two titles over his shoulders. But you know what took that from him? Death Triangle. Divided attentions cost him his All-Atlantic strap, and Fenix’s initial hesitance to use the hammer on The Elite told him enough about his weak-minded company. As Bandido steps up to avenge his friends, a Brutaliser massacres him, PAC stealing his mask after the match! With the Bros still injured, PAC declares a hitlist on anyone like Rey & Penta that’ve wronged him in the past, starting with…
Will Ospreay’s been nipping at BCC’s heels ever since their interference in his Omega rematch cost him the win, Mox stealing the title for himself. Once The Elite are vanquished in Blood & Guts, Ospreay’s set to fight them on Dynamite with Kyle Fletcher… except, he finds his partner out cold, a hammer and a note on his chest, extending a challenge for ALL IN! As PAC defeats Michael Oku the night before at RevPro’s 10 Year Anniversary in their rubber match, Ospreay gives his acceptance in person with an OsCutter! A rematch 4 years in the making sees PAC finally vanquish Will at Wembley!
But as PAC celebrates, flaunting Bandido’s mask, he’s chased off by the returning Lucha Bros, setting the stage for ALL OUT! The long-awaited Triple Threat implosion to DT sees PAC submit Penta, though when he tries to steal the mask, he’s ran off by Fenix. Out for nothing but vengeance, a bloody ‘Grave Consequences’ match a la Lucha Underground sees PAC finally end the Phoenix, tearing his mask as a reward!
International Bastard
With one year approaching on Orange’s reign of dominance, the knackered champion lays his title on the mat, welcoming his next challenger, and not having forgotten who dethroned him, out walks PAC! The 4 Year Anniversary Dynamite is capped off by a thrilling 2-out-of-3 Falls match, where PAC reclaims the International Title, putting OC out of his misery!
Kickstarting his own iron fist reign, PAC uses the title as a platform to pit him against higher-profile names, claiming he’s been overlooked since the company’s start, deserving to have won the World Title long ago. Destroying Fletcher to put a bow on his attack on the Aussie, Full Gear has him face BCC’s Konosuke Takeshita! After robbing Ospreay’s chance at revenge, saying he has first dibs on the group, he finally makes good on that, proving his DT betrayal a good long-term investment when he submits DDT’s Ace to the LeBell Lock!
Naturally drawing Bryan Danielson’s attention, the two meet at Winter is Coming to end the Bastard’s saga with BCC, PAC proclaiming himself better than the one who called himself the ‘Best in the World’ upon his heel turn, managing to avenge his losses to Danielson from his early indie days with the Brutaliser to show how far he’s come. Jack Perry and Adam Page bite the dust next, PAC knocking off a Pillar before revisiting his feud with the Hangman at Beach Break for costing him in the World Title Eliminator Ladder match three years prior.
Once he’s met by Komander though, ‘Mask the Ripper’ is reminded of his old ways and tries to strike again after passing him out, BUT FENIX MAKES THE SAVE!!! Sporting a darker and crimson mask since PAC stole his, Rey’s unlocked the killer instinct PAC claimed he lacks, and at Revolution, a rematch sees three straight Fenix Drivers end PAC’s reign!
Bastard-Eye View
Freed of his responsibilities, PAC turns his attention to the one victim that’s continued to elude him – AEW World Champion Kenny Omega. Saving the company from MJF’s reign of terror, his defeat of Jay White at Revolution paves the way for one more match, three years on from their last World Title match together, where PAC finally claims the crown in a gruelling 60-Minute Iron Man match!
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Following their victory in Double or Nothing’s main event over The Elite, Blackpool Combat Club promptly return their attention to The Lucha Bros after interference from The Young Bucks cost them their shot at the ROH World Tag Team Championship. A Six-Man Tag on Dynamite sees Jon Moxley, Claudio Castagnoli, and Wheeler YUTA destroy Rey Fenix, Penta El Zero Miedo, and Bandido, a screwdriver and Seatbelt Clutch from YUTA bloodying Fenix for the win! With Rey out of commission, Bandido steps up in defence of his former home of ROH, agreeing to defend with Penta against Claudio & YUTA.
In a valiant effort, Penta & Bandido manage to hold off their ruthless foes for the most part, but when Bryan and Mox interject themselves, the numbers start to become too much. That is, until… PAC’S MUSIC HITS!!! Nailing the two with his trusty hammer, he levels the playing field for Penta to hit the Fear Factor on Claudio to retain! As a ticked BCC leave with their tails tucked, PAC helps the Tag Champs up… BEFORE NAILING BANDIDO TOO!!! Penta’s stunned as PAC coldly informs him the Bandit’s purpose is up, forcing Penta to follow him out.
With the Bastard back, he sets his sights on reclaiming his throne – the International Championship. Facing an angsty YUTA in a Forbidden Door 4-Way Qualifier, Misawa-lite’s overzealousness becomes his downfall as PAC destroys him like he did a year prior, proving nothing’s changed between them. Alas, he meets rival Orange Cassidy at the PPV, along with Tomohiro Ishii and Shingo Takagi. Like no time has passed, PAC and OC leave each other in ruin, though a closing Black Arrow is intercepted by a screwdriver from Claudio, allowing the Orange Punch to win out!
Pissed, Death Triangle challenge BCC for their NEVER Openweight 6-Man Tag Team Championship at Fyter Fest as PAC tries to reclaim his other throne… except, that was never the plan. As Lucha Bros go to nail the Double Stomp/Fear Factor, PAC NAILS FENIX WITH THE HAMMER! PENTA EATS IT TOO! Walking out on them, BCC retains…
Why PAC, Why?
PAC explains that before his injury, he had the world, two titles over his shoulders. But you know what took that from him? Death Triangle. Divided attentions cost him his All-Atlantic strap, and Fenix’s initial hesitance to use the hammer on The Elite told him enough about his weak-minded company. As Bandido steps up to avenge his friends, a Brutaliser massacres him, PAC stealing his mask after the match! With the Bros still injured, PAC declares a hitlist on anyone like Rey & Penta that’ve wronged him in the past, starting with…
Will Ospreay’s been nipping at BCC’s heels ever since their interference in his Omega rematch cost him the win, Mox stealing the title for himself. Once The Elite are vanquished in Blood & Guts, Ospreay’s set to fight them on Dynamite with Kyle Fletcher… except, he finds his partner out cold, a hammer and a note on his chest, extending a challenge for ALL IN! As PAC defeats Michael Oku the night before at RevPro’s 10 Year Anniversary in their rubber match, Ospreay gives his acceptance in person with an OsCutter! A rematch 4 years in the making sees PAC finally vanquish Will at Wembley!
But as PAC celebrates, flaunting Bandido’s mask, he’s chased off by the returning Lucha Bros, setting the stage for ALL OUT! The long-awaited Triple Threat implosion to DT sees PAC submit Penta, though when he tries to steal the mask, he’s ran off by Fenix. Out for nothing but vengeance, a bloody ‘Grave Consequences’ match a la Lucha Underground sees PAC finally end the Phoenix, tearing his mask as a reward!
International Bastard
With one year approaching on Orange’s reign of dominance, the knackered champion lays his title on the mat, welcoming his next challenger, and not having forgotten who dethroned him, out walks PAC! The 4 Year Anniversary Dynamite is capped off by a thrilling 2-out-of-3 Falls match, where PAC reclaims the International Title, putting OC out of his misery!
Kickstarting his own iron fist reign, PAC uses the title as a platform to pit him against higher-profile names, claiming he’s been overlooked since the company’s start, deserving to have won the World Title long ago. Destroying Fletcher to put a bow on his attack on the Aussie, Full Gear has him face BCC’s Konosuke Takeshita! After robbing Ospreay’s chance at revenge, saying he has first dibs on the group, he finally makes good on that, proving his DT betrayal a good long-term investment when he submits DDT’s Ace to the LeBell Lock!
Naturally drawing Bryan Danielson’s attention, the two meet at Winter is Coming to end the Bastard’s saga with BCC, PAC proclaiming himself better than the one who called himself the ‘Best in the World’ upon his heel turn, managing to avenge his losses to Danielson from his early indie days with the Brutaliser to show how far he’s come. Jack Perry and Adam Page bite the dust next, PAC knocking off a Pillar before revisiting his feud with the Hangman at Beach Break for costing him in the World Title Eliminator Ladder match three years prior.
Once he’s met by Komander though, ‘Mask the Ripper’ is reminded of his old ways and tries to strike again after passing him out, BUT FENIX MAKES THE SAVE!!! Sporting a darker and crimson mask since PAC stole his, Rey’s unlocked the killer instinct PAC claimed he lacks, and at Revolution, a rematch sees three straight Fenix Drivers end PAC’s reign!
Bastard-Eye View
Freed of his responsibilities, PAC turns his attention to the one victim that’s continued to elude him – AEW World Champion Kenny Omega. Saving the company from MJF’s reign of terror, his defeat of Jay White at Revolution paves the way for one more match, three years on from their last World Title match together, where PAC finally claims the crown in a gruelling 60-Minute Iron Man match!
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I cannot afford my bank account be overdrafted, and especially not as someone who's taking care of a loved one with dementia and I'm not getting any kind of compensation from my family for even doing this. I didn't expect to fall on hard times and this is an additional situation that I wasn't prepared to handle on such short notice. Can anyone help me? Even a small donation that's not the full amount is deeply appreciated in a time like this.
I'm especially worried since it's not just me I'm taking care of, and the city taxes that come out of my paycheck are HIGH, I thought I was underpaid when I got my first paycheck from my job as well. I am going to need any kind of help by 6/5/23 at best. This is truly a long shot but I have no idea what else I can do.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, and please spread this to others if you can.
2023.06.04 06:04 Piano-player25 I've just lost the most important person in my life, and it was all my fault.
I have no idea how to formulate this, so I'll just give some info and paste our discussion. I'm 16, biologically male (I have no idea what my actual gender is and I don't even have the energy to think about it so whatever), gonna turn 17 this month. I also have Asperger, maybe important for what's going to come. Three months ago I made a friend on AO3 (Archive of our own, fanfiction website), we were kinda into the same fandoms and kinds of writing so I asked her to become her friend on Discord (btw she's 17). She accepted, and so we started talking about lots of different stuff that we liked. What was kinda difficult though, is that she lives in the USA (whereas I live in France), so timezones usually got in the way of our discussions. I don't really remember how this started, I believe that it was at some point in late March when she wished me good night or something, I just felt... really weird, loved even. It was late in the night for me and I had a ton of butterflies in my stomach at this moment, so much that I had to wait the next day to reply to her. Slowly but surely I began to grow completely obsessed with her, and it felt really weird because to this day I still have no idea how she even looks like or what her actual personality is. These last weeks I started sending love messages in a private channel on a Discord server I use for testing bots (there's only myself in there) went as far as using AI to write romantic stories between me and her (I want to precise though, nothing sexual because I hate sex in all its forms, especially the new kinks/promiscuity that "progressives" like so much). I just craved for hugs, kisses, and intimacy. I was pretty sure she was the one I wanted to spend my life with. I was already starting to look into how I could travel to the USA to meet her in person and everything. I was also so damn afraid that she might find a partner before I could rejoin her, and that she would reject me because she likes women (I have no idea if she's a lesbian or bi but I so damn hoped she was bi). I think I've always experienced discomfort with the more masculine parts of my body that started growing at puberty, but this obsession pushed me to the point where I seriously considered transitioning (and so become a lesbian as well I guess). This was like the 3rd time in my life, first was in November 2022 because I used to hate masculinity (I still kinda do but less), second was a year later because there was some trans girl that made damn good music on Youtube and kinda reminded me of myself (and this caused me to start growing out of homo and transphobia btw). Right now I do not think I am trans, most of my discomfort comes from my body and not so much my gender itself (I still wish to remove my genitals regardless because testosterone kinda sucks but whatever). A few days ago I started looking into long-distance relationships and stories of people falling in love with their online friend, at some point I saw someone saying that the best was to be honest with your friend. Whoever wrote that, f*ck that person.
Here's the discussion we had on Discord, unfiltered (except for her name which I censored for obvious reasons) :
Me Hello ***, I am really sorry for not sending you anything yesterday, I currently have something on my mind that I really need to talk to you about. Is that ok for you ? (you told me to warn you before I tell you something like that that's why I'm asking) Her what does it contain?? like summarize bc I am not comfy with like heavy heavy shit rn (I wouldnt know what to say, anyways) Me oh god I can summarize it in 5 words : I'm in love with you. And just to add something, just so you kinda understand what I mean by that - I don't expect anything from you. I don't even know why I feel that way or how it's even possible considering I don't know you well, it's very confusing to me sometimes. Now I'm 99% sure you don't reciprocate my feelings, and as I said I'm not expecting anything, I'd rather be simple friends with you than losing you altogether. What really makes me feel bad is knowing we probably won't even ever meet irl, you most probably don't love me back and... just feeling distant to you is already painful lmao. The thing is I'm a bit tired to be hurt for stuff that shouldn't hurt me like that, keeping that to myself makes me feel even worse so I decided to just be honest with you. But again - I don't expect anything (I don't even think I'm worthy of anything lol). I'll stop it there, I would probably have other stuff to say but you told me to summarize so I'm not gonna go into any further detail. Sorry if that's already too long for you, I just wanted to be sure you wouldn't misunderstand anything (this took me wayy too long to write but oh god this is soooo difficult to say lol). Her DAMN OKAY im so sorry but im not interested in literally ANYONE rn (let alone you, sorry if that sounds rude at all) I barely know you too, which is unfortunate but GOD and that therefore makes me VERY uncomfortable because I might have not mentioned it before but I don't know if I even like men or men-adjacent people in the first place let alone me liking really anybody at all Honestly you should really choose someone who suits you better because I know it isn't me,, I can only wish you luck in your love endevours but you saying that just makes me feel odd as hell (again, no offense to you and I hope you don't take this the wrong way but I literally have never experienced anyone liking me and while I previously have experienced liking other people, the period im in rn im just not in the mood for a relationship like that at all) Me I just want to cry rn, but only because I am so damn relieved to finally be able to tell you that, and I was super scared you might block me or something, idk lol Speaking of men, it is weird because HAHA I still have not solved my gender problem but it was hard to think about that when all my brain wanted to think about was hugs lol (also ik it's random but I'm sure I will remove my genitals, I've wanted that since I was 13 anyway) The only thing I know is that rn I have a big crush on you, ik it's cringe as hell but yesterday I was literally considering suicide if you didn't like me back (and NO I'm not going to do that I'm much more at peace today). But what I can tell you is that I won't insist on that, I really want you to be happy and not uncomfortable about that (side note, I just genuinely wish so much you had a better life, it makes me feel bad seeing you having to work at mcdonalds when you should win all your money from your art, but whatever that's just a tiny part of how much today's world is corrupt) Also I don't take anything you've said as an offense, if I'm not the right person for you I am not and there isn't anything wrong with it (and same thing if you just don't want any relationship). Maybe you're right about you not suiting me as well, although I have literally no idea since I don't know you very well lol. I really don't know what else to say, I'm feeling like 14535 emotions at the same time, and again I really want to cry rn (I just hope my stupid damn hormones will let me for once) (also thank you very much for wishing me good luck, I never had luck and don't think I'll ever have but hey maybe it'll change now) Her honestly, I do wish you further luck in life but I may talk to you less because of this,,, it's nothing against you I just feel very uncomfortable with the notion you like me to begin with I feel very bad for you when you say you dont have many friends, and theres nothing I can really do about that or to change that. But for now, I do not really feel like being your friend in the meantime out of my own personal reasons (the stuff I've mentioned about being heavily uncomfortable.) I'm trying to say this in the nicest way possible because it's not your fault you have feelings and it's not my fault I have my own feelings. Please don't contemplate hurting yourself in ANY fashion because honestly that just makes me continue to feel bad (AND i dont wish to feel like im being manipulated to feel even WORSE becuase of that even if you say you're good now) I may block you, and again it's nothing against you and I clearly am going to state that I do not hate you. Let me make that VERY clear. And I also dont' want to feel like im being manipulated when you say you contemplated suicide and even if that's not the case now its VERY concerning and I don't like it. I honestly suggest talking to someone more, I know you have someone you've been talking to, because I can't handle being directly told stuff like that because it hurts me as a person. Like said, please don't think I hate you. I just don't have time for shit like this because im a busy person who's stressed as is, and thats that. See you on the flipside because I don't intend on talking to you for a bit, it's unfortunate but I cannot do anything about my own emotions.
So here we go, a long read but whatever. I wanted to apologize for talking about my suicide thoughts, I really didn't want her to feel manipulated (that wasn't my intent at all, I just tried to be honest about everything, I probably shouldn't have) but she had already blocked me and I couldn't even tell that to her. LIKE I CAN'T EVEN APOLOGIZE FOR MY F*CKING STUPID BEHAVIOUR. I realized my mistake, but now it's too late anyway, I've lost her for good. I don't know her well but I know she tends to forget stuff a lot, no doubt she'll forget about me altogether eventually. I won't even have the occasion to be her friend anymore. All of that happened in late evening for me and I literally can't sleep now, I tried to play videogames but kept failing over and over, watching Youtube didn't help either. Right now it's almost 6 am and I haven't slept of the night. Like she said she doesn't hate me but why would she even block me ? I thought I made it clear I wasn't expecting anything from her (because I simply couldn't anyway). Right now I just wish I had a time machine to go back and remove that stupid suicide mention because it was useless anyway and I'm pretty sure that's what costed me one of my only friends in my entire stupid, dumb life. I still can understand her discomfort with that kind of things, and I recognize I might have done something similarly if someone told me they loved me, but being blocked is just too much for me. I feel like I can't even do anything to repair my mistake.
On the good side, one of my irl friends contacted me back two days ago. I've known him since I was 12 and I feel like talking to him might help me, so I'll do that whenever he replies to me. I guess I still have some people in my life to help me, but I don't think anybody will replace the one I lost. She was a big part of my life for the last 3 months, I used to tell her about nearly everything I was doing, waiting with impatience for the days she wasn't working to be able to talk to her more. We used to talk about our crazy Hollow Knight ships, our silly stories, and I feel like although we didn't have much in common we still had some things, and I'll miss all of that terribly. I still have passions in my life, like video games, writing, or politics, but what is even life without anyone to love ? What does make a loveless life really different than death ? I know all of that was probably just an obsession, but I still had some feelings for her, now I'll just have to kill what's left of those by myself because I can't even contact her anymore and I'll never even have the 0.0001% chance to be with her anymore.
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Here's the discussion we had on Discord, unfiltered (except for her name which I censored for obvious reasons) :
Me Hello ***, I am really sorry for not sending you anything yesterday, I currently have something on my mind that I really need to talk to you about. Is that ok for you ? (you told me to warn you before I tell you something like that that's why I'm asking) Her what does it contain?? like summarize bc I am not comfy with like heavy heavy shit rn (I wouldnt know what to say, anyways) Me oh god I can summarize it in 5 words : I'm in love with you. And just to add something, just so you kinda understand what I mean by that - I don't expect anything from you. I don't even know why I feel that way or how it's even possible considering I don't know you well, it's very confusing to me sometimes. Now I'm 99% sure you don't reciprocate my feelings, and as I said I'm not expecting anything, I'd rather be simple friends with you than losing you altogether. What really makes me feel bad is knowing we probably won't even ever meet irl, you most probably don't love me back and... just feeling distant to you is already painful lmao. The thing is I'm a bit tired to be hurt for stuff that shouldn't hurt me like that, keeping that to myself makes me feel even worse so I decided to just be honest with you. But again - I don't expect anything (I don't even think I'm worthy of anything lol). I'll stop it there, I would probably have other stuff to say but you told me to summarize so I'm not gonna go into any further detail. Sorry if that's already too long for you, I just wanted to be sure you wouldn't misunderstand anything (this took me wayy too long to write but oh god this is soooo difficult to say lol). Her DAMN OKAY im so sorry but im not interested in literally ANYONE rn (let alone you, sorry if that sounds rude at all) I barely know you too, which is unfortunate but GOD and that therefore makes me VERY uncomfortable because I might have not mentioned it before but I don't know if I even like men or men-adjacent people in the first place let alone me liking really anybody at all Honestly you should really choose someone who suits you better because I know it isn't me,, I can only wish you luck in your love endevours but you saying that just makes me feel odd as hell (again, no offense to you and I hope you don't take this the wrong way but I literally have never experienced anyone liking me and while I previously have experienced liking other people, the period im in rn im just not in the mood for a relationship like that at all) Me I just want to cry rn, but only because I am so damn relieved to finally be able to tell you that, and I was super scared you might block me or something, idk lol Speaking of men, it is weird because HAHA I still have not solved my gender problem but it was hard to think about that when all my brain wanted to think about was hugs lol (also ik it's random but I'm sure I will remove my genitals, I've wanted that since I was 13 anyway) The only thing I know is that rn I have a big crush on you, ik it's cringe as hell but yesterday I was literally considering suicide if you didn't like me back (and NO I'm not going to do that I'm much more at peace today). But what I can tell you is that I won't insist on that, I really want you to be happy and not uncomfortable about that (side note, I just genuinely wish so much you had a better life, it makes me feel bad seeing you having to work at mcdonalds when you should win all your money from your art, but whatever that's just a tiny part of how much today's world is corrupt) Also I don't take anything you've said as an offense, if I'm not the right person for you I am not and there isn't anything wrong with it (and same thing if you just don't want any relationship). Maybe you're right about you not suiting me as well, although I have literally no idea since I don't know you very well lol. I really don't know what else to say, I'm feeling like 14535 emotions at the same time, and again I really want to cry rn (I just hope my stupid damn hormones will let me for once) (also thank you very much for wishing me good luck, I never had luck and don't think I'll ever have but hey maybe it'll change now) Her honestly, I do wish you further luck in life but I may talk to you less because of this,,, it's nothing against you I just feel very uncomfortable with the notion you like me to begin with I feel very bad for you when you say you dont have many friends, and theres nothing I can really do about that or to change that. But for now, I do not really feel like being your friend in the meantime out of my own personal reasons (the stuff I've mentioned about being heavily uncomfortable.) I'm trying to say this in the nicest way possible because it's not your fault you have feelings and it's not my fault I have my own feelings. Please don't contemplate hurting yourself in ANY fashion because honestly that just makes me continue to feel bad (AND i dont wish to feel like im being manipulated to feel even WORSE becuase of that even if you say you're good now) I may block you, and again it's nothing against you and I clearly am going to state that I do not hate you. Let me make that VERY clear. And I also dont' want to feel like im being manipulated when you say you contemplated suicide and even if that's not the case now its VERY concerning and I don't like it. I honestly suggest talking to someone more, I know you have someone you've been talking to, because I can't handle being directly told stuff like that because it hurts me as a person. Like said, please don't think I hate you. I just don't have time for shit like this because im a busy person who's stressed as is, and thats that. See you on the flipside because I don't intend on talking to you for a bit, it's unfortunate but I cannot do anything about my own emotions.
So here we go, a long read but whatever. I wanted to apologize for talking about my suicide thoughts, I really didn't want her to feel manipulated (that wasn't my intent at all, I just tried to be honest about everything, I probably shouldn't have) but she had already blocked me and I couldn't even tell that to her. LIKE I CAN'T EVEN APOLOGIZE FOR MY F*CKING STUPID BEHAVIOUR. I realized my mistake, but now it's too late anyway, I've lost her for good. I don't know her well but I know she tends to forget stuff a lot, no doubt she'll forget about me altogether eventually. I won't even have the occasion to be her friend anymore. All of that happened in late evening for me and I literally can't sleep now, I tried to play videogames but kept failing over and over, watching Youtube didn't help either. Right now it's almost 6 am and I haven't slept of the night. Like she said she doesn't hate me but why would she even block me ? I thought I made it clear I wasn't expecting anything from her (because I simply couldn't anyway). Right now I just wish I had a time machine to go back and remove that stupid suicide mention because it was useless anyway and I'm pretty sure that's what costed me one of my only friends in my entire stupid, dumb life. I still can understand her discomfort with that kind of things, and I recognize I might have done something similarly if someone told me they loved me, but being blocked is just too much for me. I feel like I can't even do anything to repair my mistake.
On the good side, one of my irl friends contacted me back two days ago. I've known him since I was 12 and I feel like talking to him might help me, so I'll do that whenever he replies to me. I guess I still have some people in my life to help me, but I don't think anybody will replace the one I lost. She was a big part of my life for the last 3 months, I used to tell her about nearly everything I was doing, waiting with impatience for the days she wasn't working to be able to talk to her more. We used to talk about our crazy Hollow Knight ships, our silly stories, and I feel like although we didn't have much in common we still had some things, and I'll miss all of that terribly. I still have passions in my life, like video games, writing, or politics, but what is even life without anyone to love ? What does make a loveless life really different than death ? I know all of that was probably just an obsession, but I still had some feelings for her, now I'll just have to kill what's left of those by myself because I can't even contact her anymore and I'll never even have the 0.0001% chance to be with her anymore.
2023.06.04 06:04 TheDankyBoi RALLY YALL
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2023.06.04 06:02 Mizque The Pantomath Becomes a Dungeon: Chapter 42
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Curator POV
Watching the runners sprint out from the camp I can't help but heave a mental sigh. A'right Poppit, more than one ran, make a show of each of them. Maybe throwing a bit of game theory at them was a bit cruel, but, I mean, do I really want stupid people escaping from a slaver camp. The smart ones will understand not to do stupid things like trying to retaliate against me in some manner.
That said, the mana income from Poppits' feasting on the former beast is nothing to scoff at. It did say that tainted flesh rewarded a significant amount more, perhaps there's levels of tainting where it increases the amount further? Although, wouldn't that have been listed to start with, or maybe the descriptions are just kind of an 'overview' and a 'usually how it works' type deal? Ah well, thoughts for another time.
Watching the sand shift and writhe as my lil hungy boyos split off into groups to chase down the runners, I can't help but think of how fish will move to swarm a piece of bread. The smarter folks who realized that running is a trap if any one runs though look at the idiots who fled with pale faces, and a pallid expression that I am quite familiar with. Not many folks can look away from a car crash as it's happening after all and this isn't much different. With almost simultaneous shrieks the Poppits catch their running quarries and with a surge burst up from under the sand lifting their victim up into the air for a moment before rapidly silencing the screams as they swarm over and bodily drag them under the sand.
The pregnant silence that follows is, understandable, even as the sand rapidly turns red around the camp. While I can make out a good overview of things without jumping into the senses of my followers, I want to get a proper feel of things. Shifting into Vahlu's point of view, I can feel the shudder of horror he also suppresses at the sites just now.
"Ah, right, your people have had issues with Poppit's kind in the past. Don't worry though, that'll not be an issue again lil buddy." (Curator)
My voice seems to break the heavy atmosphere of that little...demonstration. Vahlu shakes his head which, while understandable, is also really weird when I'm riding side saddle in his senses like this. As he turns to face our foe, they simply seem to collapse. Weapons or tools dropped, some just looking off in abject horror as they fall to their backs, others falling to their hands and knees, looking down at the sand as they shake, sweat, and gasp for air almost like a fish out of water. The interesting ones though, those are the ones that start kowtowing toward my little Pandora's box of a surprise.
"Hey, Vahlu, you and Paul gonna be okay sorting things out for the minute, getting every one freed, and getting the slavers all 'lined up' so I can judge them properly? I don't think they'll give yall ANY resistance in this current state. Their morale is completely shattered." (Curator)
All that and none of my people are hurt, gotta say this makes me really appreciate the attention to leadership being so important in table top games. Fear is a much more powerful weapon than a gun at times. If any one tries to start stuff in the future, that'll come in handy.
"Ah, yes Curator, we should be able to handle it, and if people act up. I don't think Poppit is ever not hungry anymore." (Vahlu)
"Good lad, ya really get it. Oh, right, Poppit does have a new skill that should come in handy, if being close to some of those slavers results in them starting to drool uncontrollably, that means that person is irredeemable. If they make any sudden movements, or make any threatening movements, END them, be it you, Paul, any of the rescued slaves, doesn't mater. That said, those that are properly subdued shouldn't be attacked or harmed until I've had a chance to judge them." (Curator)
"Understood, and good to know, that's...weird that they drool from that, but also, like ya said, it's pretty handy." (Vahlu)
"Your will will be done Curator, you can trust us with this." (Paul)
Good good. With that big mana influx, and the weirdness of what I've seen through the eyes of Vahlu, or...when I tried it Poppit, I need to do something about that...limitation. I've also got the best idea, and well, if I'm going to be an object of Worship, I should give them a proper thing to worship, no?
Returning my view back to my domain, I sigh, this really is home. Hey there lil snaketus, I didn't forget about you and how you supported me when I first came too in this place. Seeing how magic is all about how you visualize things, aaand, how I changed your flower some too, well, more changing is fine and this will be great for both of us I think.
Looking at myself, I have a good bit of mana, so...lets only conserve one ring and spend all the rest on this. After all, I'll be getting more soon. With that, I need a good name to focus with what I intend. Hmmm...yeah, let's go with that, and it should make that other idea work even better I bet. Now, the image of how I want the change to take place, and that's surprisingly easy. Now for the proper pomp and circumstance, just to make things feel right. Heavily focusing on the snaketus I start to flow mana into it, the density of it almost visibly palpable and I can feel eyes of all the skinkles looking in on this, which isn't surprising really.
"First to bear me, and give me shelter. Rearing me in my earliest stages of existence in this new land you are indispensable to my early survival. I name you Renenutet. You shall bear me forth inside yourself, sheltering me from those that would dare wish me harm, act as my flesh and sinew so I can better exert my will. To help me raise those I feel deserve to be uplifted and protected, while also allowing me to unleash my wrath properly on those that have truly earned my ire." (Curator)
Those words spoken the massive flow of mana rushes out compared to it's comparative trickle before. Part of me wishes to cackle as the snaketus starts to rapidly morph and grow. A proper head developing, eyes forming from azure flower petals as a wide hood opens to give the proper cobra appearance. Colorful 'scales' in the forms of petals and short spines forming inside that distinct spread neck to give a properly regal appearance. Surging forward toward my ziggurat as it grows, a mouth opens up, sharp and long quills for teeth easily seen, yet it carefully takes me in. My gem like core being hidden away inside it, stopping at the back of it's maw, veins of it's soft flesh covering over me, properly hiding me away as it yet grows longer and larger. Already I can see from it's eyes, as though they are my own, even turning it's head and shifting it's gaze.
Through that connection with it, like my other scions, there is simply a sense of joy and contentment. Not that I mind, honestly it's quite relaxing. Although....I do need to do something to keep my domain 'locked' here, don't I?
As if reading my mind Renenutet leans her head forward once more, and through me passes a...surprisingly large seed which is placed where I once was, crushing the pedestal and causing Babe even more distress than seeing me be engulfed like this. Seeing roots rapidly dig into the structure I feel a strong connection to it, almost like an anchor, or maybe a keystone of sorts.
"Will that keep my domain here, even if we go elsewhere?" (Curator)
With a quick nod of affirmation from my new 'body' I guess, they would speak.
"Yesss, that isss the cassse my Father. Alssso, sssister Archivissst, do not fret ssso. I will keep Father sssafe and sssound, from prying eyesss and the harshnesss of the elementsss till the end of daysss." (Renenutet)
Oh, they can talk....and have a properly effeminate voice to boot. That's good. I think.
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Not gonna lie, kinda bummed that despite having this planned out early on (why do you think I noted how specifically the snaketus flower changed so early on!) I didn't get it done sooner on. Ah well, as the pacing feels is right. I wanted to do this around the time Curator would be bringing in an influx of people, but only after he had a large amount of mana to do so. The 'Sin Eater' was the solution I came up with that actually two chapters before that skill specialization was pointed out.
And today's Random Fact: Basket Ball was originally made as a random PE sport by a high school coach who cut the bottoms out of some fruit baskets to use (thus why it's a 'basket'!)
Also find this on Royal Road and if you feel like getting me a drink, I did set up a ko-fi
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Curator POV
Watching the runners sprint out from the camp I can't help but heave a mental sigh. A'right Poppit, more than one ran, make a show of each of them. Maybe throwing a bit of game theory at them was a bit cruel, but, I mean, do I really want stupid people escaping from a slaver camp. The smart ones will understand not to do stupid things like trying to retaliate against me in some manner.
That said, the mana income from Poppits' feasting on the former beast is nothing to scoff at. It did say that tainted flesh rewarded a significant amount more, perhaps there's levels of tainting where it increases the amount further? Although, wouldn't that have been listed to start with, or maybe the descriptions are just kind of an 'overview' and a 'usually how it works' type deal? Ah well, thoughts for another time.
Watching the sand shift and writhe as my lil hungy boyos split off into groups to chase down the runners, I can't help but think of how fish will move to swarm a piece of bread. The smarter folks who realized that running is a trap if any one runs though look at the idiots who fled with pale faces, and a pallid expression that I am quite familiar with. Not many folks can look away from a car crash as it's happening after all and this isn't much different. With almost simultaneous shrieks the Poppits catch their running quarries and with a surge burst up from under the sand lifting their victim up into the air for a moment before rapidly silencing the screams as they swarm over and bodily drag them under the sand.
The pregnant silence that follows is, understandable, even as the sand rapidly turns red around the camp. While I can make out a good overview of things without jumping into the senses of my followers, I want to get a proper feel of things. Shifting into Vahlu's point of view, I can feel the shudder of horror he also suppresses at the sites just now.
"Ah, right, your people have had issues with Poppit's kind in the past. Don't worry though, that'll not be an issue again lil buddy." (Curator)
My voice seems to break the heavy atmosphere of that little...demonstration. Vahlu shakes his head which, while understandable, is also really weird when I'm riding side saddle in his senses like this. As he turns to face our foe, they simply seem to collapse. Weapons or tools dropped, some just looking off in abject horror as they fall to their backs, others falling to their hands and knees, looking down at the sand as they shake, sweat, and gasp for air almost like a fish out of water. The interesting ones though, those are the ones that start kowtowing toward my little Pandora's box of a surprise.
"Hey, Vahlu, you and Paul gonna be okay sorting things out for the minute, getting every one freed, and getting the slavers all 'lined up' so I can judge them properly? I don't think they'll give yall ANY resistance in this current state. Their morale is completely shattered." (Curator)
All that and none of my people are hurt, gotta say this makes me really appreciate the attention to leadership being so important in table top games. Fear is a much more powerful weapon than a gun at times. If any one tries to start stuff in the future, that'll come in handy.
"Ah, yes Curator, we should be able to handle it, and if people act up. I don't think Poppit is ever not hungry anymore." (Vahlu)
"Good lad, ya really get it. Oh, right, Poppit does have a new skill that should come in handy, if being close to some of those slavers results in them starting to drool uncontrollably, that means that person is irredeemable. If they make any sudden movements, or make any threatening movements, END them, be it you, Paul, any of the rescued slaves, doesn't mater. That said, those that are properly subdued shouldn't be attacked or harmed until I've had a chance to judge them." (Curator)
"Understood, and good to know, that's...weird that they drool from that, but also, like ya said, it's pretty handy." (Vahlu)
"Your will will be done Curator, you can trust us with this." (Paul)
Good good. With that big mana influx, and the weirdness of what I've seen through the eyes of Vahlu, or...when I tried it Poppit, I need to do something about that...limitation. I've also got the best idea, and well, if I'm going to be an object of Worship, I should give them a proper thing to worship, no?
Returning my view back to my domain, I sigh, this really is home. Hey there lil snaketus, I didn't forget about you and how you supported me when I first came too in this place. Seeing how magic is all about how you visualize things, aaand, how I changed your flower some too, well, more changing is fine and this will be great for both of us I think.
Looking at myself, I have a good bit of mana, so...lets only conserve one ring and spend all the rest on this. After all, I'll be getting more soon. With that, I need a good name to focus with what I intend. Hmmm...yeah, let's go with that, and it should make that other idea work even better I bet. Now, the image of how I want the change to take place, and that's surprisingly easy. Now for the proper pomp and circumstance, just to make things feel right. Heavily focusing on the snaketus I start to flow mana into it, the density of it almost visibly palpable and I can feel eyes of all the skinkles looking in on this, which isn't surprising really.
"First to bear me, and give me shelter. Rearing me in my earliest stages of existence in this new land you are indispensable to my early survival. I name you Renenutet. You shall bear me forth inside yourself, sheltering me from those that would dare wish me harm, act as my flesh and sinew so I can better exert my will. To help me raise those I feel deserve to be uplifted and protected, while also allowing me to unleash my wrath properly on those that have truly earned my ire." (Curator)
Those words spoken the massive flow of mana rushes out compared to it's comparative trickle before. Part of me wishes to cackle as the snaketus starts to rapidly morph and grow. A proper head developing, eyes forming from azure flower petals as a wide hood opens to give the proper cobra appearance. Colorful 'scales' in the forms of petals and short spines forming inside that distinct spread neck to give a properly regal appearance. Surging forward toward my ziggurat as it grows, a mouth opens up, sharp and long quills for teeth easily seen, yet it carefully takes me in. My gem like core being hidden away inside it, stopping at the back of it's maw, veins of it's soft flesh covering over me, properly hiding me away as it yet grows longer and larger. Already I can see from it's eyes, as though they are my own, even turning it's head and shifting it's gaze.
Through that connection with it, like my other scions, there is simply a sense of joy and contentment. Not that I mind, honestly it's quite relaxing. Although....I do need to do something to keep my domain 'locked' here, don't I?
As if reading my mind Renenutet leans her head forward once more, and through me passes a...surprisingly large seed which is placed where I once was, crushing the pedestal and causing Babe even more distress than seeing me be engulfed like this. Seeing roots rapidly dig into the structure I feel a strong connection to it, almost like an anchor, or maybe a keystone of sorts.
"Will that keep my domain here, even if we go elsewhere?" (Curator)
With a quick nod of affirmation from my new 'body' I guess, they would speak.
"Yesss, that isss the cassse my Father. Alssso, sssister Archivissst, do not fret ssso. I will keep Father sssafe and sssound, from prying eyesss and the harshnesss of the elementsss till the end of daysss." (Renenutet)
Oh, they can talk....and have a properly effeminate voice to boot. That's good. I think.
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Not gonna lie, kinda bummed that despite having this planned out early on (why do you think I noted how specifically the snaketus flower changed so early on!) I didn't get it done sooner on. Ah well, as the pacing feels is right. I wanted to do this around the time Curator would be bringing in an influx of people, but only after he had a large amount of mana to do so. The 'Sin Eater' was the solution I came up with that actually two chapters before that skill specialization was pointed out.
And today's Random Fact: Basket Ball was originally made as a random PE sport by a high school coach who cut the bottoms out of some fruit baskets to use (thus why it's a 'basket'!)
Also find this on Royal Road and if you feel like getting me a drink, I did set up a ko-fi
2023.06.04 06:01 CakeDude34 A Hypothetical Fallout RTS
So have been thinking about a hypothetical Fallout RTS that could be interesting and Bethesda would have options for factions and mechanics so I thought of some.
Major Factions on launch
Minutemen
East Coast Brotherhood(Fallout 4)
Railroad
Institute
No particular reason I chose the Fallout 4 factions over the New Vegas ones I just wanted to have 4 factions on launch
DLC Factions Ideas
Realistic options
NCR
Caesar’s Legion
Vegas
Master
Enclave (Fallout 2)
These guys have decent options for content and useful array of troops that they would be realistic factions options
Possible factions
Enclave (Fallout 3)
East Coast Brotherhood (Fallout 3)
West Coast Brotherhood
Nuka World Raiders
Some faction from Fallout 76
These factions are possible but can't really think of much to flesh them out like how can I make the West coast Brotherhood stand out from the east coast variants. Thinking that the West Coast Brotherhood, Fallout 3 Brotherhood and Fallout 3 Enclave can be subfactions that you can chose when you start the game up
Strengths and weaknesses of the Base game factions
Generally how I thought of the Factions abilities is that I based on Lore and stuff we see in games, example give with the Enclave from Fallout 2 we see that they don't like outsider so that will be reflected in how they work
Minutemen- Good all arounder with easier time capturing settlements (more on that in the Gameplay) for resource production with maybe access to T-45 so they can hold their own against the Brotherhood. Also I am thinking they would be more defensive of the four base game factions as they will generally want to defend areas to hold out for reinforcements.
East Coast Brotherhood(Fallout 4)- Access to high end energy weapons and Power Armor. Weakness more Expensive Units and slower to build said units and capture time on settlements is slowed
Railroad- Smallest armies of the base game factions but higher quality troops and relying more on Hero like units such as Deacon and Glory and good tech options with Gauss rifles and Railroad Heavy Armor
Institute- Cheap and disposable units in Gen 1 and Gen 2 synths and powerful units in Coursers with maybe some Super mutants for fun. However Coursers are not cheap and slow to build and the Institute will have a terrible time capturing Settlements.
Some DLC factions Strengths and Weaknesses
NCR-access to good units in the form of Rangers and Heavy Troops but both will have a limit and are costly, for the majority will have to be the standard trooper. Along with this lack of good hero like units or none at all, can’t think of any charter that would fit except maybe Oliver or Boone along with a penalty to working with minor factions (I will touch on those in a bit)
The Legion- Cheap troops that level up the more combat they experience becoming better and better until reaching a limited number of Praetorian Guards. Good heroes in the form of Lanius, Joshua Graham, and maybe Ulysses. Downsides lack of a good tech tree with your better units coming from your soldiers being upgraded. Also when they capture settlements they enslave them for a time penalty on resource production as the settlers adjust to the new rule.
Vegas- Powerful Securitron Mk 1 units and has an easier time getting caps and can gain access to Mk 2 series. Downside said Mk 2 series requires the Platinum chip to be gained, an expensive and slow tech to research that would take a while to gain and would be an end game tech for Vegas. Along with a lack of good units outside of the Securitrons, after all the White Gloves run at the courier with dressing canes
Master- Strong mutants that can hold their own along with nightkin for more hit and run tactics. Downsides Mutants require a new resource specific to the Master, Humans which he will need to make new Mutants that can be gain from settlements of all types but is gained slowly and the Master has an option to take people from settlement for a cost of resource production for a time
Enclave (Fallout 2) best Power Armor available in the form of the Mark 1 and access to Gen 2 mutants to perform as a stop gap troop. Can not capture settlements only wipe them out and colonize faster than other factions and gain a production boost for them as well and gain more resources from their buildings
Gameplay
Every Faction has access to Hero Units on top of their standard units. These will be either Companions from said faction, Preston for the Minutemen, faction leaders Legate Lanius, or both if they have good options Maxson or Danse from Fallout 4. Each one will be better in different roles when compared to others like Danse would probably be one of the better ones from a combat perspective but Preston would be better in a support role.
There will be minor factions on the map like Boomers, Great Khans, Children of Atom or Brotherhood chapters if no player is a Brotherhood faction. They can give you rewards in the form of troops or abilities to aid in the battle if you manage to secure their loyalty, or be wiped out so no one can get it though it will be difficult. Also should note if they are secured by one faction then they will not be able to be taken control by another faction so they will have to be killed, though if the faction like the NCR gets the loyalty of the Boomers and the NCR is defeated then they go back to neutral. You can think of them like shops from Warcraft 3 where you can buy potions or items from them
Along with the more neutral factions there would be one the map hostile like raiders or hostile fauna that can be kill for exp for heroes or Legions soldiers
The map will have settlements around that are the key to getting resources such as food, water, caps and other items that can be captured and can act as staging ground for attacks. Idea based of the resource points from Company of Heroes
Once a settlement is taken it will have to be captured by force for a cost of production for a time or destroyed so the opponent can’t take it back. I am thinking that player owns it they can destroy it to prevent it from falling to the enemies hands
If a settlement is wiped out the player will be able to recolonize it for the same benefit. Thought it will be while for it come back online. This could be annoying to programed but it would be interesting to see
You can also build resource production buildings in your base that can give you resources but they will produce less than settlements but some factions will be able to get more out of them such as the Enclave and Institute.
Tech
How tech would work is that you can research it in dedicated buildings, for example a “research hub” is where you would research better armor or weapons. Another way is to have specific buildings to get it like in Starcraft, for example to build NCR rangers at your barracks you would need a Ranger station or something like that.
There would also be unique tech for some factions as mentioned before Gauss rifles and Railroad Heavy armor would be given to the Railroad and Mark 1 Power Armor for the Enclave.
Conclusion
So here are some of the ideas and general concepts of how I think a Fallout RTS would work and would like to hear what everyone else thinks.
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Major Factions on launch
Minutemen
East Coast Brotherhood(Fallout 4)
Railroad
Institute
No particular reason I chose the Fallout 4 factions over the New Vegas ones I just wanted to have 4 factions on launch
DLC Factions Ideas
Realistic options
NCR
Caesar’s Legion
Vegas
Master
Enclave (Fallout 2)
These guys have decent options for content and useful array of troops that they would be realistic factions options
Possible factions
Enclave (Fallout 3)
East Coast Brotherhood (Fallout 3)
West Coast Brotherhood
Nuka World Raiders
Some faction from Fallout 76
These factions are possible but can't really think of much to flesh them out like how can I make the West coast Brotherhood stand out from the east coast variants. Thinking that the West Coast Brotherhood, Fallout 3 Brotherhood and Fallout 3 Enclave can be subfactions that you can chose when you start the game up
Strengths and weaknesses of the Base game factions
Generally how I thought of the Factions abilities is that I based on Lore and stuff we see in games, example give with the Enclave from Fallout 2 we see that they don't like outsider so that will be reflected in how they work
Minutemen- Good all arounder with easier time capturing settlements (more on that in the Gameplay) for resource production with maybe access to T-45 so they can hold their own against the Brotherhood. Also I am thinking they would be more defensive of the four base game factions as they will generally want to defend areas to hold out for reinforcements.
East Coast Brotherhood(Fallout 4)- Access to high end energy weapons and Power Armor. Weakness more Expensive Units and slower to build said units and capture time on settlements is slowed
Railroad- Smallest armies of the base game factions but higher quality troops and relying more on Hero like units such as Deacon and Glory and good tech options with Gauss rifles and Railroad Heavy Armor
Institute- Cheap and disposable units in Gen 1 and Gen 2 synths and powerful units in Coursers with maybe some Super mutants for fun. However Coursers are not cheap and slow to build and the Institute will have a terrible time capturing Settlements.
Some DLC factions Strengths and Weaknesses
NCR-access to good units in the form of Rangers and Heavy Troops but both will have a limit and are costly, for the majority will have to be the standard trooper. Along with this lack of good hero like units or none at all, can’t think of any charter that would fit except maybe Oliver or Boone along with a penalty to working with minor factions (I will touch on those in a bit)
The Legion- Cheap troops that level up the more combat they experience becoming better and better until reaching a limited number of Praetorian Guards. Good heroes in the form of Lanius, Joshua Graham, and maybe Ulysses. Downsides lack of a good tech tree with your better units coming from your soldiers being upgraded. Also when they capture settlements they enslave them for a time penalty on resource production as the settlers adjust to the new rule.
Vegas- Powerful Securitron Mk 1 units and has an easier time getting caps and can gain access to Mk 2 series. Downside said Mk 2 series requires the Platinum chip to be gained, an expensive and slow tech to research that would take a while to gain and would be an end game tech for Vegas. Along with a lack of good units outside of the Securitrons, after all the White Gloves run at the courier with dressing canes
Master- Strong mutants that can hold their own along with nightkin for more hit and run tactics. Downsides Mutants require a new resource specific to the Master, Humans which he will need to make new Mutants that can be gain from settlements of all types but is gained slowly and the Master has an option to take people from settlement for a cost of resource production for a time
Enclave (Fallout 2) best Power Armor available in the form of the Mark 1 and access to Gen 2 mutants to perform as a stop gap troop. Can not capture settlements only wipe them out and colonize faster than other factions and gain a production boost for them as well and gain more resources from their buildings
Gameplay
Every Faction has access to Hero Units on top of their standard units. These will be either Companions from said faction, Preston for the Minutemen, faction leaders Legate Lanius, or both if they have good options Maxson or Danse from Fallout 4. Each one will be better in different roles when compared to others like Danse would probably be one of the better ones from a combat perspective but Preston would be better in a support role.
There will be minor factions on the map like Boomers, Great Khans, Children of Atom or Brotherhood chapters if no player is a Brotherhood faction. They can give you rewards in the form of troops or abilities to aid in the battle if you manage to secure their loyalty, or be wiped out so no one can get it though it will be difficult. Also should note if they are secured by one faction then they will not be able to be taken control by another faction so they will have to be killed, though if the faction like the NCR gets the loyalty of the Boomers and the NCR is defeated then they go back to neutral. You can think of them like shops from Warcraft 3 where you can buy potions or items from them
Along with the more neutral factions there would be one the map hostile like raiders or hostile fauna that can be kill for exp for heroes or Legions soldiers
The map will have settlements around that are the key to getting resources such as food, water, caps and other items that can be captured and can act as staging ground for attacks. Idea based of the resource points from Company of Heroes
Once a settlement is taken it will have to be captured by force for a cost of production for a time or destroyed so the opponent can’t take it back. I am thinking that player owns it they can destroy it to prevent it from falling to the enemies hands
If a settlement is wiped out the player will be able to recolonize it for the same benefit. Thought it will be while for it come back online. This could be annoying to programed but it would be interesting to see
You can also build resource production buildings in your base that can give you resources but they will produce less than settlements but some factions will be able to get more out of them such as the Enclave and Institute.
Tech
How tech would work is that you can research it in dedicated buildings, for example a “research hub” is where you would research better armor or weapons. Another way is to have specific buildings to get it like in Starcraft, for example to build NCR rangers at your barracks you would need a Ranger station or something like that.
There would also be unique tech for some factions as mentioned before Gauss rifles and Railroad Heavy armor would be given to the Railroad and Mark 1 Power Armor for the Enclave.
Conclusion
So here are some of the ideas and general concepts of how I think a Fallout RTS would work and would like to hear what everyone else thinks.
2023.06.04 06:00 roseycheekies Advisor screwed up and I have to take an extra semester, been feeling super depressed about it
I started college in 2017. I’ve been working to support myself throughout this time and as a result am still in college 6 years later. It’s been rough, so I was looking forward to finally graduating this fall.
A few months ago, while messing around on my student account looking for something unrelated, I found that I was short of the 120 units that are required to graduate. My heart sank when I saw this.
I made a degree completion plan years ago with the assumption that all the required courses and core classes would fulfill the 120 units needed to qualify for graduation. Apparently, it doesn’t, and I’m 11 credits short. So while I could technically finish my degree this fall, I won’t have enough credits to graduate. This means I need to pick 3 random classes just so I can graduate. (I’d also like to add that this degree completion plan was approved by multiple faculty members…..)
I found all this out months ago and no matter how hard I try I can’t get over it. I’ve been trying to ignore it as best as I can, but whenever my mind isn’t occupied I get extremely depressed thinking about it. This has screwed up so many things that I was planning for post-graduation not to mention will leave me even further in debt than I already am. I know there’s worse things in the world, but I’ve been completely devastated over this and don’t know what to do to feel better. Knowing that there is absolutely nothing I can do is making me feel so hopeless
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A few months ago, while messing around on my student account looking for something unrelated, I found that I was short of the 120 units that are required to graduate. My heart sank when I saw this.
I made a degree completion plan years ago with the assumption that all the required courses and core classes would fulfill the 120 units needed to qualify for graduation. Apparently, it doesn’t, and I’m 11 credits short. So while I could technically finish my degree this fall, I won’t have enough credits to graduate. This means I need to pick 3 random classes just so I can graduate. (I’d also like to add that this degree completion plan was approved by multiple faculty members…..)
I found all this out months ago and no matter how hard I try I can’t get over it. I’ve been trying to ignore it as best as I can, but whenever my mind isn’t occupied I get extremely depressed thinking about it. This has screwed up so many things that I was planning for post-graduation not to mention will leave me even further in debt than I already am. I know there’s worse things in the world, but I’ve been completely devastated over this and don’t know what to do to feel better. Knowing that there is absolutely nothing I can do is making me feel so hopeless
2023.06.04 05:59 griffyndour Why was there no consequences to Steven’s actions?
The Diamond Authority as a government stood for Millennium. It brought a “version” of peace, stability and order to the galaxy. Was it the best government? Hell no, but it still existed as it did for Millennia, and yet Steven faced no consequences for bringing down a galactic empire. He upheaved trillions of lives and their daily processes, and for what? To turn the leaders of said empire into a singing version of the golden girls?
Steven should have faced the consequences of his actions. We see nothing as far as what replaced the galaxy’s government, just a election for one planet in the empire. In reality, we should have seen a civil war. Higher Ranking Gems not wanting to loose their status vs the ones that wanted freedom. It’s ridiculous to think in the entire empire, only Jasper, Aquamarine, and Eyeball had ANY ISSUE with the empire falling.
Star Wars goes about this the right way.
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Steven should have faced the consequences of his actions. We see nothing as far as what replaced the galaxy’s government, just a election for one planet in the empire. In reality, we should have seen a civil war. Higher Ranking Gems not wanting to loose their status vs the ones that wanted freedom. It’s ridiculous to think in the entire empire, only Jasper, Aquamarine, and Eyeball had ANY ISSUE with the empire falling.
Star Wars goes about this the right way.
2023.06.04 05:59 Starlit-Dreams How to avoid repetitive actions
So I'm noticing this as I do rewrites on my stories. My characters are doing ALOT of the same actions over and over again. Like to the point that are starting to feel like animatronics at Disney World. What is the best way to avoid repeating the same action fifty different times.
Example: The biggest one I've noticed is hugging. I personally am kind of a touchy, feely person already, which reflects in my writing. I searched the document for the word hug, and it showed up 157 times. So, in one book (out of a six book series), my characters have hugged in some manner 157 times, and I'm nowhere near finished with the book. That just feels excessive, and there's multiple actions that fall into that same boat. I need ideas on how to get them to stop hugging.
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Example: The biggest one I've noticed is hugging. I personally am kind of a touchy, feely person already, which reflects in my writing. I searched the document for the word hug, and it showed up 157 times. So, in one book (out of a six book series), my characters have hugged in some manner 157 times, and I'm nowhere near finished with the book. That just feels excessive, and there's multiple actions that fall into that same boat. I need ideas on how to get them to stop hugging.
2023.06.04 05:56 rockgirlinachemclass Dear Internet (my funky little voices <3)
Dear Internet,
As you may have seen, Technodad and I have just launched the Festival of Voices. We have been working on this since February. I have been working on this every single day since February. This has been my life for MONTHS and I couldn’t tell you all. I wanted so desperately to tell you though. Believe me, I did. BUT NOW I CAN TOTALLY TELL YOU!!! LOOK AT THAT THING WE DID!!! LOOK AT WHAT WE BUILT!! It wasn’t perfect, but it truly had the spirit of Technoblade in it. We may have limped along but we never stopped, AND we raised SEVENTY THOUSAND DOLLARS!! I am exhausted, but so violently proud of it.
I want to say thank you to a couple of people because I believe in credit where credit is due. Icy, my day one on this. She was studying with me the day that Technodad first responded to me on Reddit. I told her I had a thing I needed help with, and 5 minutes later she texted me a Discord username she made just for this. She has let me sleep on her floor and eat her party muffins and sob uncontrollably at her desk. She has stood by me on this since the moment the idea slid into my brain. She was the one who saw me fall apart, she was there through every doubt, and every issue. She held my hand as we posted the announcements. She hugged me when I needed it. Without her, this would not have happened. I would have fallen flat on my face without her support. I don’t think I will ever be able to fully explain the depth of my gratitude.
Hous, Boomer, and Scar, my weird little internet siblings. They let me burst right into this little community they made, and they handled how quickly everything snowballed with a tremendous amount of grace. They deserve so much love for how quickly they adapted to my breakneck pace. But they also helped keep me sane. They keep my feet firmly on the ground, and I love them for it. Thank you for letting me keep my secrets, and learning a million and one things I asked you to. They are the brightest kids I know, and a testament to the power of young people. I have no doubts in my mind that they will all go on to do beautiful and amazing things.
Code, Spanner, Kiran, and Bump, the OGs. These guys have known me on the internet the longest. They watched me grow up, make a million and one mistakes and bounce back from them. They have seen me when I was a disaster and chose to stick with me anyway. I am so glad we found our way back together and I wouldn’t have picked a better team to build this dream with. They are truly incredible developers, certified geniuses, and WAY overqualified to be my tech support. I am so proud of that team, I am so proud to have worked with them, and I am so proud to continue to do so. Thank you for meeting stupid deadlines, your endless patience towards me, and your brilliant minds. I love you guys.
Tommy, the man himself. I was so initially nervous to work with him, but through this entire process, he has been unfailingly kind, endlessly patient, and beyond supportive. Since the moment we pitched it to him, Tommy has gone above and beyond to make this happen in the capacity that it has. He has shown up in ways I never expected of him. I am so proud to say I worked with him on this, and even more honored to consider him a friend. This man truly does not get enough credit for how cool he is.
Ranboo, king boober if you will. Thank you for helping me pivot. There was a time I was completely in freefall and they reached out and caught me and helped me screw my head on straight. Thank you for showing me the ropes, thank you for giving me the best advice I had ever gotten through this whole thing. I would be so much less sure of what I was doing if it wasn’t for him. Truly one of the most brilliant minds I have ever had the privilege of working alongside or calling a friend, and I cannot come up with enough ways to convince the world that they are just as kind, intelligent, and patient as they seem. More so even.
The Creators involved, thank you for showing up and turning out. You guys took a scuffed event and made it hilarious and memorable! Scott, and Aimee specifically, your insight was INVALUABLE. Thank you for letting me pick your brains!! WE DID THIS THING AND THEY CRUSHED IT! Apollo, Artemis, Demeter, and Persephone, my second family. It’s no secret that I totally adore these guys. They have made the last few months a total dream, and I will never stop being grateful for the way they adopted me into their ranks. I have more words for them than I will ever be able to type out. See you guys soon!
u/MrTechnodad , just, this guy. I was a risk for you. An unknown variable. To take me on so intensely as you did back in February has changed my life in some of the most beautiful ways. I wake up every day in the life I thought I could only dream about, in part thanks to you. You are insane, ADHD, eccentric, and so SO thoroughly weird it's ridiculous. But we are the same. You have taught me so much about myself and the world around me these last few months, even if it was entirely by accident. In our first conversation you said “Not just one of us, two of us.” and I had no way of knowing just how true that was going to be. I had no clue. Whatever cosmic forces or god or even Alex pulled some strings to make this happen, did it in the most SPECTACULAR way. I will never be able to thank you enough. You have a pretty decent idea already though.
Alex, Technoblade. Your shoes are ENORMOUS and woe to anyone who tries to fill them. Thank you for building this community, this space. Thank you for leaving your shovel and bucket behind when you left. Your legacy will not die, the words “Technoblade Never Dies” will ring true as long as those who loved you remember. I made a promise to you the day I got this job, and that was I will make you proud. I'm still going to make good on that. I tried so hard not to drop the dirt, to leave a pearl in the stasis chamber, to always feed the dogs on time, to check my island minions for secret buffs, to keep my steering wheel in good working order, and to sell out at every available opportunity. Without you, none of this would have ever been possible. Your fingerprints are all over this thing. You are EVERYWHERE. And I am so lucky to have been able to do this for you. Thank you. I carry you with me every day.
And to all the kids out there just like me, the ones who laugh a little too loud, with big dreams and ideas WAY beyond what everyone thinks is possible. The kids who bite off more than they can chew but remain determined to fail forward. The kids with notebooks full of plans, pants covered in paint, and nails with soil under them. The weird kids, the ones with big feelings, the ones who cry ALL the time. Every queer kid out there wondering if they have a place. Those funky little neurodivergents who are still figuring it out (hey same!) The ones who everyone expects big talk but low delivery from. The ones who don’t really fit into any box. This is for you, and you will always have a home with me. You are always welcome at my table. Thank you for learning and growing with me through all this, even though NONE of you knew you were doing it. I hold you in my heart.
If you can’t already tell from the nature of this post, this is a complete and utter dream come true. Every moment of this has felt so spectacularly surreal. Thank all of you for this opportunity, I understand so deeply just how unbearably lucky I am. This whole world burst into my life and made it technicolor. Techno-color? Hehe, get it? Anyway, all I have left is I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.
Yours in shenanigans, plots, and schemes,
Proton Pixie, u/rockgirlinachemclass, Athena, Internet Big Sister
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As you may have seen, Technodad and I have just launched the Festival of Voices. We have been working on this since February. I have been working on this every single day since February. This has been my life for MONTHS and I couldn’t tell you all. I wanted so desperately to tell you though. Believe me, I did. BUT NOW I CAN TOTALLY TELL YOU!!! LOOK AT THAT THING WE DID!!! LOOK AT WHAT WE BUILT!! It wasn’t perfect, but it truly had the spirit of Technoblade in it. We may have limped along but we never stopped, AND we raised SEVENTY THOUSAND DOLLARS!! I am exhausted, but so violently proud of it.
I want to say thank you to a couple of people because I believe in credit where credit is due. Icy, my day one on this. She was studying with me the day that Technodad first responded to me on Reddit. I told her I had a thing I needed help with, and 5 minutes later she texted me a Discord username she made just for this. She has let me sleep on her floor and eat her party muffins and sob uncontrollably at her desk. She has stood by me on this since the moment the idea slid into my brain. She was the one who saw me fall apart, she was there through every doubt, and every issue. She held my hand as we posted the announcements. She hugged me when I needed it. Without her, this would not have happened. I would have fallen flat on my face without her support. I don’t think I will ever be able to fully explain the depth of my gratitude.
Hous, Boomer, and Scar, my weird little internet siblings. They let me burst right into this little community they made, and they handled how quickly everything snowballed with a tremendous amount of grace. They deserve so much love for how quickly they adapted to my breakneck pace. But they also helped keep me sane. They keep my feet firmly on the ground, and I love them for it. Thank you for letting me keep my secrets, and learning a million and one things I asked you to. They are the brightest kids I know, and a testament to the power of young people. I have no doubts in my mind that they will all go on to do beautiful and amazing things.
Code, Spanner, Kiran, and Bump, the OGs. These guys have known me on the internet the longest. They watched me grow up, make a million and one mistakes and bounce back from them. They have seen me when I was a disaster and chose to stick with me anyway. I am so glad we found our way back together and I wouldn’t have picked a better team to build this dream with. They are truly incredible developers, certified geniuses, and WAY overqualified to be my tech support. I am so proud of that team, I am so proud to have worked with them, and I am so proud to continue to do so. Thank you for meeting stupid deadlines, your endless patience towards me, and your brilliant minds. I love you guys.
Tommy, the man himself. I was so initially nervous to work with him, but through this entire process, he has been unfailingly kind, endlessly patient, and beyond supportive. Since the moment we pitched it to him, Tommy has gone above and beyond to make this happen in the capacity that it has. He has shown up in ways I never expected of him. I am so proud to say I worked with him on this, and even more honored to consider him a friend. This man truly does not get enough credit for how cool he is.
Ranboo, king boober if you will. Thank you for helping me pivot. There was a time I was completely in freefall and they reached out and caught me and helped me screw my head on straight. Thank you for showing me the ropes, thank you for giving me the best advice I had ever gotten through this whole thing. I would be so much less sure of what I was doing if it wasn’t for him. Truly one of the most brilliant minds I have ever had the privilege of working alongside or calling a friend, and I cannot come up with enough ways to convince the world that they are just as kind, intelligent, and patient as they seem. More so even.
The Creators involved, thank you for showing up and turning out. You guys took a scuffed event and made it hilarious and memorable! Scott, and Aimee specifically, your insight was INVALUABLE. Thank you for letting me pick your brains!! WE DID THIS THING AND THEY CRUSHED IT! Apollo, Artemis, Demeter, and Persephone, my second family. It’s no secret that I totally adore these guys. They have made the last few months a total dream, and I will never stop being grateful for the way they adopted me into their ranks. I have more words for them than I will ever be able to type out. See you guys soon!
u/MrTechnodad , just, this guy. I was a risk for you. An unknown variable. To take me on so intensely as you did back in February has changed my life in some of the most beautiful ways. I wake up every day in the life I thought I could only dream about, in part thanks to you. You are insane, ADHD, eccentric, and so SO thoroughly weird it's ridiculous. But we are the same. You have taught me so much about myself and the world around me these last few months, even if it was entirely by accident. In our first conversation you said “Not just one of us, two of us.” and I had no way of knowing just how true that was going to be. I had no clue. Whatever cosmic forces or god or even Alex pulled some strings to make this happen, did it in the most SPECTACULAR way. I will never be able to thank you enough. You have a pretty decent idea already though.
Alex, Technoblade. Your shoes are ENORMOUS and woe to anyone who tries to fill them. Thank you for building this community, this space. Thank you for leaving your shovel and bucket behind when you left. Your legacy will not die, the words “Technoblade Never Dies” will ring true as long as those who loved you remember. I made a promise to you the day I got this job, and that was I will make you proud. I'm still going to make good on that. I tried so hard not to drop the dirt, to leave a pearl in the stasis chamber, to always feed the dogs on time, to check my island minions for secret buffs, to keep my steering wheel in good working order, and to sell out at every available opportunity. Without you, none of this would have ever been possible. Your fingerprints are all over this thing. You are EVERYWHERE. And I am so lucky to have been able to do this for you. Thank you. I carry you with me every day.
And to all the kids out there just like me, the ones who laugh a little too loud, with big dreams and ideas WAY beyond what everyone thinks is possible. The kids who bite off more than they can chew but remain determined to fail forward. The kids with notebooks full of plans, pants covered in paint, and nails with soil under them. The weird kids, the ones with big feelings, the ones who cry ALL the time. Every queer kid out there wondering if they have a place. Those funky little neurodivergents who are still figuring it out (hey same!) The ones who everyone expects big talk but low delivery from. The ones who don’t really fit into any box. This is for you, and you will always have a home with me. You are always welcome at my table. Thank you for learning and growing with me through all this, even though NONE of you knew you were doing it. I hold you in my heart.
If you can’t already tell from the nature of this post, this is a complete and utter dream come true. Every moment of this has felt so spectacularly surreal. Thank all of you for this opportunity, I understand so deeply just how unbearably lucky I am. This whole world burst into my life and made it technicolor. Techno-color? Hehe, get it? Anyway, all I have left is I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.
Yours in shenanigans, plots, and schemes,
Proton Pixie, u/rockgirlinachemclass, Athena, Internet Big Sister
2023.06.04 05:55 smitki Codependency
To myself I’ve been codependent whole life all I’ve ever known in life to show love was in codependency. Until I went to rehab and learnt how unhealthy it was. I worked so hard on learning how to be okay without someone to be happy in my own company, which can become addictive. Then learn okay with someone and not worried they would just hurt me like all the rest which I was learning and I wasn’t perfect I you think I was looking at your phone to spy but I really wasn’t just looking at your photos for sexy ones of you and your music to play together it was innocent and never attended it to look that way even though you had things to hide I was truely looking at those times I trusted you even though I saw a photo of him I just thought it was a stupid crush and what we were going to build was worth so much more.
Anyway got side tracked codependency was all I knew how to live how to survive I would obsess over them and be worried about everything and have no trust because of my own insecurities and core beliefs I hated who I was and the way I looked, also though everyone one would just abandon me but I didn’t realise how abandonment was an issue to me until you ghosted me and then I realise this is how I have felt my own life.
In my past when I obsessing I would do everything for them, would buy them gifts every chance I got repeatedly tell them I loved them and be so clingy, then if they would leave me I would find reasons to contact them, beg and pled for them to come back send them flowers letter, drive past their house or sit in my car around the corner or a few blocks away and cry endless. All stuff I am ashamed of and regret all because I thought that’s how you loved someone.
Now 10 years later after being single for 10 years, I meet a beautiful women and I vow to myself for her and myself I will do things better and slow no matter how much I care and start to fall in love I won’t obsess or clingy or anything of the toxic stuff to the best of my ability. Did this show I wasn’t in to you, I didn’t care or that I didn’t see or want a future with you? I don’t know but for me I was just enjoying every second with you and just letting us grow enjoying the little things holding hands, looking into you eyes, enjoying conversation, kissing you and just being able to be in your presence and being able to laugh with you I loved your humour and the first women that could make me laugh you were always my first thought and last at night.
When you ghosted me I said to myself I really am falling in love with this women, I genuinely wanted her back in my life and I have 2 choices to go be the old me the one that was toxic that would beg and plead go pass your house etc or the hardest one just let you go and be free let you do what you need to do no matter how much pains me no matter how much I want to fight to keep you and have a future with you. I knew for us both to grow and learn as humans and to have any chance of a future together I knew I had too just let you ghost me and go about your life have faith that one day you will realise my worth and your own and think what we could have if we end up together.
Letting you without a fight has been the hardest thing of my life, but I am proud of myself because I now know you are the first person genuinely been loving so I thank you for that and now understand that phrase if you truely love them let them go………….. unfortunately you haven’t found your way back and that hurts.
I know codependency will be an issue for me for ever and some would think writing these notes and still thinking of you daily is still bad after 3.5 months but I guess I will have to learn to express my feelings from love more and not fighting codependency
Thankyou for listening
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Anyway got side tracked codependency was all I knew how to live how to survive I would obsess over them and be worried about everything and have no trust because of my own insecurities and core beliefs I hated who I was and the way I looked, also though everyone one would just abandon me but I didn’t realise how abandonment was an issue to me until you ghosted me and then I realise this is how I have felt my own life.
In my past when I obsessing I would do everything for them, would buy them gifts every chance I got repeatedly tell them I loved them and be so clingy, then if they would leave me I would find reasons to contact them, beg and pled for them to come back send them flowers letter, drive past their house or sit in my car around the corner or a few blocks away and cry endless. All stuff I am ashamed of and regret all because I thought that’s how you loved someone.
Now 10 years later after being single for 10 years, I meet a beautiful women and I vow to myself for her and myself I will do things better and slow no matter how much I care and start to fall in love I won’t obsess or clingy or anything of the toxic stuff to the best of my ability. Did this show I wasn’t in to you, I didn’t care or that I didn’t see or want a future with you? I don’t know but for me I was just enjoying every second with you and just letting us grow enjoying the little things holding hands, looking into you eyes, enjoying conversation, kissing you and just being able to be in your presence and being able to laugh with you I loved your humour and the first women that could make me laugh you were always my first thought and last at night.
When you ghosted me I said to myself I really am falling in love with this women, I genuinely wanted her back in my life and I have 2 choices to go be the old me the one that was toxic that would beg and plead go pass your house etc or the hardest one just let you go and be free let you do what you need to do no matter how much pains me no matter how much I want to fight to keep you and have a future with you. I knew for us both to grow and learn as humans and to have any chance of a future together I knew I had too just let you ghost me and go about your life have faith that one day you will realise my worth and your own and think what we could have if we end up together.
Letting you without a fight has been the hardest thing of my life, but I am proud of myself because I now know you are the first person genuinely been loving so I thank you for that and now understand that phrase if you truely love them let them go………….. unfortunately you haven’t found your way back and that hurts.
I know codependency will be an issue for me for ever and some would think writing these notes and still thinking of you daily is still bad after 3.5 months but I guess I will have to learn to express my feelings from love more and not fighting codependency
Thankyou for listening
2023.06.04 05:54 smitki Codependency
To myself I’ve been codependent whole life all I’ve ever known in life to show love was in codependency. Until I went to rehab and learnt how unhealthy it was. I worked so hard on learning how to be okay without someone to be happy in my own company, which can become addictive. Then learn okay with someone and not worried they would just hurt me like all the rest which I was learning and I wasn’t perfect I you think I was looking at your phone to spy but I really wasn’t just looking at your photos for sexy ones of you and your music to play together it was innocent and never attended it to look that way even though you had things to hide I was truely looking at those times I trusted you even though I saw a photo of him I just thought it was a stupid crush and what we were going to build was worth so much more.
Anyway got side tracked codependency was all I knew how to live how to survive I would obsess over them and be worried about everything and have no trust because of my own insecurities and core beliefs I hated who I was and the way I looked, also though everyone one would just abandon me but I didn’t realise how abandonment was an issue to me until you ghosted me and then I realise this is how I have felt my own life.
In my past when I obsessing I would do everything for them, would buy them gifts every chance I got repeatedly tell them I loved them and be so clingy, then if they would leave me I would find reasons to contact them, beg and pled for them to come back send them flowers letter, drive past their house or sit in my car around the corner or a few blocks away and cry endless. All stuff I am ashamed of and regret all because I thought that’s how you loved someone.
Now 10 years later after being single for 10 years, I meet a beautiful women and I vow to myself for her and myself I will do things better and slow no matter how much I care and start to fall in love I won’t obsess or clingy or anything of the toxic stuff to the best of my ability. Did this show I wasn’t in to you, I didn’t care or that I didn’t see or want a future with you? I don’t know but for me I was just enjoying every second with you and just letting us grow enjoying the little things holding hands, looking into you eyes, enjoying conversation, kissing you and just being able to be in your presence and being able to laugh with you I loved your humour and the first women that could make me laugh you were always my first thought and last at night.
When you ghosted me I said to myself I really am falling in love with this women, I genuinely wanted her back in my life and I have 2 choices to go be the old me the one that was toxic that would beg and plead go pass your house etc or the hardest one just let you go and be free let you do what you need to do no matter how much pains me no matter how much I want to fight to keep you and have a future with you. I knew for us both to grow and learn as humans and to have any chance of a future together I knew I had too just let you ghost me and go about your life have faith that one day you will realise my worth and your own and think what we could have if we end up together.
Letting you without a fight has been the hardest thing of my life, but I am proud of myself because I now know you are the first person genuinely been loving so I thank you for that and now understand that phrase if you truely love them let them go………….. unfortunately you haven’t found your way back and that hurts.
I know codependency will be an issue for me for ever and some would think writing these notes and still thinking of you daily is still bad after 3.5 months but I guess I will have to learn to express my feelings from love more and not fighting codependency
Thankyou for listening
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Anyway got side tracked codependency was all I knew how to live how to survive I would obsess over them and be worried about everything and have no trust because of my own insecurities and core beliefs I hated who I was and the way I looked, also though everyone one would just abandon me but I didn’t realise how abandonment was an issue to me until you ghosted me and then I realise this is how I have felt my own life.
In my past when I obsessing I would do everything for them, would buy them gifts every chance I got repeatedly tell them I loved them and be so clingy, then if they would leave me I would find reasons to contact them, beg and pled for them to come back send them flowers letter, drive past their house or sit in my car around the corner or a few blocks away and cry endless. All stuff I am ashamed of and regret all because I thought that’s how you loved someone.
Now 10 years later after being single for 10 years, I meet a beautiful women and I vow to myself for her and myself I will do things better and slow no matter how much I care and start to fall in love I won’t obsess or clingy or anything of the toxic stuff to the best of my ability. Did this show I wasn’t in to you, I didn’t care or that I didn’t see or want a future with you? I don’t know but for me I was just enjoying every second with you and just letting us grow enjoying the little things holding hands, looking into you eyes, enjoying conversation, kissing you and just being able to be in your presence and being able to laugh with you I loved your humour and the first women that could make me laugh you were always my first thought and last at night.
When you ghosted me I said to myself I really am falling in love with this women, I genuinely wanted her back in my life and I have 2 choices to go be the old me the one that was toxic that would beg and plead go pass your house etc or the hardest one just let you go and be free let you do what you need to do no matter how much pains me no matter how much I want to fight to keep you and have a future with you. I knew for us both to grow and learn as humans and to have any chance of a future together I knew I had too just let you ghost me and go about your life have faith that one day you will realise my worth and your own and think what we could have if we end up together.
Letting you without a fight has been the hardest thing of my life, but I am proud of myself because I now know you are the first person genuinely been loving so I thank you for that and now understand that phrase if you truely love them let them go………….. unfortunately you haven’t found your way back and that hurts.
I know codependency will be an issue for me for ever and some would think writing these notes and still thinking of you daily is still bad after 3.5 months but I guess I will have to learn to express my feelings from love more and not fighting codependency
Thankyou for listening
2023.06.04 05:53 smitki Codependency
To myself I’ve been codependent whole life all I’ve ever known in life to show love was in codependency. Until I went to rehab and learnt how unhealthy it was. I worked so hard on learning how to be okay without someone to be happy in my own company, which can become addictive. Then learn okay with someone and not worried they would just hurt me like all the rest which I was learning and I wasn’t perfect I you think I was looking at your phone to spy but I really wasn’t just looking at your photos for sexy ones of you and your music to play together it was innocent and never attended it to look that way even though you had things to hide I was truely looking at those times I trusted you even though I saw a photo of him I just thought it was a stupid crush and what we were going to build was worth so much more.
Anyway got side tracked codependency was all I knew how to live how to survive I would obsess over them and be worried about everything and have no trust because of my own insecurities and core beliefs I hated who I was and the way I looked, also though everyone one would just abandon me but I didn’t realise how abandonment was an issue to me until you ghosted me and then I realise this is how I have felt my own life.
In my past when I obsessing I would do everything for them, would buy them gifts every chance I got repeatedly tell them I loved them and be so clingy, then if they would leave me I would find reasons to contact them, beg and pled for them to come back send them flowers letter, drive past their house or sit in my car around the corner or a few blocks away and cry endless. All stuff I am ashamed of and regret all because I thought that’s how you loved someone.
Now 10 years later after being single for 10 years, I meet a beautiful women and I vow to myself for her and myself I will do things better and slow no matter how much I care and start to fall in love I won’t obsess or clingy or anything of the toxic stuff to the best of my ability. Did this show I wasn’t in to you, I didn’t care or that I didn’t see or want a future with you? I don’t know but for me I was just enjoying every second with you and just letting us grow enjoying the little things holding hands, looking into you eyes, enjoying conversation, kissing you and just being able to be in your presence and being able to laugh with you I loved your humour and the first women that could make me laugh you were always my first thought and last at night.
When you ghosted me I said to myself I really am falling in love with this women, I genuinely wanted her back in my life and I have 2 choices to go be the old me the one that was toxic that would beg and plead go pass your house etc or the hardest one just let you go and be free let you do what you need to do no matter how much pains me no matter how much I want to fight to keep you and have a future with you. I knew for us both to grow and learn as humans and to have any chance of a future together I knew I had too just let you ghost me and go about your life have faith that one day you will realise my worth and your own and think what we could have if we end up together.
Letting you without a fight has been the hardest thing of my life, but I am proud of myself because I now know you are the first person genuinely been loving so I thank you for that and now understand that phrase if you truely love them let them go………….. unfortunately you haven’t found your way back and that hurts.
I know codependency will be an issue for me for ever and some would think writing these notes and still thinking of you daily is still bad after 3.5 months but I guess I will have to learn to express my feelings from love more and not fighting codependency
Thankyou for listening
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Anyway got side tracked codependency was all I knew how to live how to survive I would obsess over them and be worried about everything and have no trust because of my own insecurities and core beliefs I hated who I was and the way I looked, also though everyone one would just abandon me but I didn’t realise how abandonment was an issue to me until you ghosted me and then I realise this is how I have felt my own life.
In my past when I obsessing I would do everything for them, would buy them gifts every chance I got repeatedly tell them I loved them and be so clingy, then if they would leave me I would find reasons to contact them, beg and pled for them to come back send them flowers letter, drive past their house or sit in my car around the corner or a few blocks away and cry endless. All stuff I am ashamed of and regret all because I thought that’s how you loved someone.
Now 10 years later after being single for 10 years, I meet a beautiful women and I vow to myself for her and myself I will do things better and slow no matter how much I care and start to fall in love I won’t obsess or clingy or anything of the toxic stuff to the best of my ability. Did this show I wasn’t in to you, I didn’t care or that I didn’t see or want a future with you? I don’t know but for me I was just enjoying every second with you and just letting us grow enjoying the little things holding hands, looking into you eyes, enjoying conversation, kissing you and just being able to be in your presence and being able to laugh with you I loved your humour and the first women that could make me laugh you were always my first thought and last at night.
When you ghosted me I said to myself I really am falling in love with this women, I genuinely wanted her back in my life and I have 2 choices to go be the old me the one that was toxic that would beg and plead go pass your house etc or the hardest one just let you go and be free let you do what you need to do no matter how much pains me no matter how much I want to fight to keep you and have a future with you. I knew for us both to grow and learn as humans and to have any chance of a future together I knew I had too just let you ghost me and go about your life have faith that one day you will realise my worth and your own and think what we could have if we end up together.
Letting you without a fight has been the hardest thing of my life, but I am proud of myself because I now know you are the first person genuinely been loving so I thank you for that and now understand that phrase if you truely love them let them go………….. unfortunately you haven’t found your way back and that hurts.
I know codependency will be an issue for me for ever and some would think writing these notes and still thinking of you daily is still bad after 3.5 months but I guess I will have to learn to express my feelings from love more and not fighting codependency
Thankyou for listening
2023.06.04 05:53 One_Grapefruit6214 Red album lore
Weezer (red album) is Weezer at there very best.
The album follows a rockstars descent into madness. The first part of the record is all fun pop songs about being a rebel and being the coolest. Then in dreaming we see that he isn’t all of that and that he is a spoiled brat. The three tracks sang by the rest of the band are how the band and people around him see him. Cold dark world especially shows that he is piece of shit who cares about nothing but getting laid and fame.
Something happens to the rockstar. Maybe he lost his main girl he hooks up with or he just ain’t as famous as he was. He realizes that he’s a piece of shit and falls into a sad pity. That being the angel and the one.
The bonus tracks continues the story The rockstar starts fresh he likes this cute coworker he gets with her but he then gets hit with existential dread about death and falls into a deep depression. He loses everything and remains a depressed drunk who thinks he’s the best. The last song I can love is him trying to prove to himself that he can in fact love and that he is human.
The way I see the story ending is he drinks himself until he eventually dies surrounded by no one he has nothing.
The red album may not be about this at all it could just be rivers being a weirdo and making some funny tracks but I do not believe this. My view of the story may not be correct but it does fit at least in my opinion.
I think the red album shows where rivers was at in the late 2000s. Mr.cool but still burnt out.
Idk I could be wrong I’m very tired when writing this lmao.
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The album follows a rockstars descent into madness. The first part of the record is all fun pop songs about being a rebel and being the coolest. Then in dreaming we see that he isn’t all of that and that he is a spoiled brat. The three tracks sang by the rest of the band are how the band and people around him see him. Cold dark world especially shows that he is piece of shit who cares about nothing but getting laid and fame.
Something happens to the rockstar. Maybe he lost his main girl he hooks up with or he just ain’t as famous as he was. He realizes that he’s a piece of shit and falls into a sad pity. That being the angel and the one.
The bonus tracks continues the story The rockstar starts fresh he likes this cute coworker he gets with her but he then gets hit with existential dread about death and falls into a deep depression. He loses everything and remains a depressed drunk who thinks he’s the best. The last song I can love is him trying to prove to himself that he can in fact love and that he is human.
The way I see the story ending is he drinks himself until he eventually dies surrounded by no one he has nothing.
The red album may not be about this at all it could just be rivers being a weirdo and making some funny tracks but I do not believe this. My view of the story may not be correct but it does fit at least in my opinion.
I think the red album shows where rivers was at in the late 2000s. Mr.cool but still burnt out.
Idk I could be wrong I’m very tired when writing this lmao.
2023.06.04 05:49 TheUltimateDreamer I fell in love with an aromantic person
Hello, aromantic! I'm looking for advice on this situation, but all the advice I've gotten has been from alloromantic friends, and so I thought asking actual aromantic people with an unbiased opinion might be the best for my situation. English is not my first language, so I apologize for any mistakes!
I met him half a year ago, and we became really close friends. We text each other "good morning" the moment we wake up and "good night" the moment we go to sleep. We spend a lot of time together, share our interests with each other, have frequent sleepovers... we've both expressed how special we feel the other is, and we're very affectionate towards each other.
Here's the issue: I caught feeling for him. And it wouldn't be an issue if he was 100% aromantic (I find it really easy to lose feeling if the other person is not interested at all), but when he told me about it, he said he was "on the spectrum". He explained that he feels little to no romantic attraction; he has only felt it once, when he fell in love with his ex and they had a brief relationship. They fell out of love, the relationship ended, and that's it. So, in his words, “It's really hard for me to fall in love, but it could happen”. There have been some things that gave me a glimmer of hope that he might feel romantic attraction towards me, such as:
• He avoids the subject whenever I ask if he's fallen for someone after that one time. • He gets nervous and flustered around me often. • He has expressed many times that he dislikes physical affection, but loves it and feels comfortable when I'm affectionate with him. • We talk about our future together often.
Among other things, but I don't wanna make this too long. All my (allo) friends have said that, since there is a small chance, I shouldn't give up just yet. However, I looked for advice on Google and found a story about an allo confessing to their aro friend, who was horrified and never spoke to them again. And here's the thing; I'm not only interested in him as a lover, I value him a thousand times more as a friend. He's incredible, and I could absolutely live without a relationship, but I don't know what I'd do without his friendship. I'd rather not confess at all and quietly lose feelings instead of making him uncomfortable.
So, here are my questions; is there a chance of him feeling the same? Should I stop any sort of flirting altogether, get myself together, and forget about the possibility of being together? Absolutely any sort of advice is very welcome, thank you so much! All I want is for my friend to be comfortable and safe with me, and if I have to forget about my feelings, so be it. But if there's a chance, I'd like to give it a shot.
Thank you so much, and happy aro visibility week! 💚🤍🖤 (I believe it's this week, correct me if I'm wrong pls!)
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I met him half a year ago, and we became really close friends. We text each other "good morning" the moment we wake up and "good night" the moment we go to sleep. We spend a lot of time together, share our interests with each other, have frequent sleepovers... we've both expressed how special we feel the other is, and we're very affectionate towards each other.
Here's the issue: I caught feeling for him. And it wouldn't be an issue if he was 100% aromantic (I find it really easy to lose feeling if the other person is not interested at all), but when he told me about it, he said he was "on the spectrum". He explained that he feels little to no romantic attraction; he has only felt it once, when he fell in love with his ex and they had a brief relationship. They fell out of love, the relationship ended, and that's it. So, in his words, “It's really hard for me to fall in love, but it could happen”. There have been some things that gave me a glimmer of hope that he might feel romantic attraction towards me, such as:
• He avoids the subject whenever I ask if he's fallen for someone after that one time. • He gets nervous and flustered around me often. • He has expressed many times that he dislikes physical affection, but loves it and feels comfortable when I'm affectionate with him. • We talk about our future together often.
Among other things, but I don't wanna make this too long. All my (allo) friends have said that, since there is a small chance, I shouldn't give up just yet. However, I looked for advice on Google and found a story about an allo confessing to their aro friend, who was horrified and never spoke to them again. And here's the thing; I'm not only interested in him as a lover, I value him a thousand times more as a friend. He's incredible, and I could absolutely live without a relationship, but I don't know what I'd do without his friendship. I'd rather not confess at all and quietly lose feelings instead of making him uncomfortable.
So, here are my questions; is there a chance of him feeling the same? Should I stop any sort of flirting altogether, get myself together, and forget about the possibility of being together? Absolutely any sort of advice is very welcome, thank you so much! All I want is for my friend to be comfortable and safe with me, and if I have to forget about my feelings, so be it. But if there's a chance, I'd like to give it a shot.
Thank you so much, and happy aro visibility week! 💚🤍🖤 (I believe it's this week, correct me if I'm wrong pls!)
2023.06.04 05:44 Quaithe_Of_Asshai I Made A Sleep Token Song Tier List
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2023.06.04 05:41 DutchAuction "To Whom It May Concern" thoughts
Have been listening to this album a lot lately. Like way too much. And figured I'd write about it while falling asleep here.
There are maybe 3 fantastic songs on this. Not top-top shelf Bee Gees - I don't think this album has any of their absolute best and I think many would agree - but a few songs are just really terrific and noteworthy.
I Can Bring Love is one of my favorite theatrical performances of the Bee Gees. What I mean is, the message of the song is embodied in the instrumentation, arrangement, mix - this song has lofty, lazy wings, with powerful and meaningful euphoria. Barry's vibrato sounds amazing. It feels small but it feels endless... like love.
Run to Me is one of those songs that really solidifies Barry's rep as a top songwriter. This is AM Gold. The melody is infectious, the chord progression relentless. It's a bop. An amazing chorus that anyone can sing and they hit it so many times in this song you can't help but sing along.
Sweet Song of Summer is so strange and out there for these guys and it is wonderful. I wish bands took more risks like this. It is weird and psychedelic an
Bad Dreams is less of a risk, but still unlike the rest of the album and is a rager. The riff is great, but the guitar tone seems to me like something that would have been beyond their interest or capabilities. Its fuzzy and distorted as heck! It's almost proto-metal, and certainly more riffed based pentatonic stuff than we're used to with Bee Gees.
Maurice's You Know Its For You is such a curious and neat track. The weird break/breaks in the song where it kind of kick-starts back into the chorus and the way the melody is kind of like an unresolved pier the singer wanders on to is so unlike Barry's exacting approach to songwriting it feels almost like a completely different band.
It is kind of amazing Road to Alaska got released. That song feels so half baked - the repetition of the words "really" and "every single" to chew up lyric-to-melody syllables in the verse and the bizarre geography makes this feel like Robin is spitting freestyle over 12 bar blues. If you're going to make filler, take a risk like Sweet Song of Summer.
There are a few instances of psychedelia showing up on tracks like Paper Mache and SSoS I was certain this was the Bee Gees attempt at a Dark Side of the Moon-esque sound. I was surprised to see Dark Side wasn't out when this was released.
It's their tenth album. And it sounds like the band is kind of figuring themselves out. Less at a crossroads and more at a nebulous liminal space - the disco stuff was a few years away and the global supply of flower-power had pretty much dried up. They're kind of sticking their noses into a lot of different ideas of what this band sound likes, which makes the album title so appropriate.
That said, I do enjoy it, and the stuff that hits on here is superb.
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There are maybe 3 fantastic songs on this. Not top-top shelf Bee Gees - I don't think this album has any of their absolute best and I think many would agree - but a few songs are just really terrific and noteworthy.
I Can Bring Love is one of my favorite theatrical performances of the Bee Gees. What I mean is, the message of the song is embodied in the instrumentation, arrangement, mix - this song has lofty, lazy wings, with powerful and meaningful euphoria. Barry's vibrato sounds amazing. It feels small but it feels endless... like love.
Run to Me is one of those songs that really solidifies Barry's rep as a top songwriter. This is AM Gold. The melody is infectious, the chord progression relentless. It's a bop. An amazing chorus that anyone can sing and they hit it so many times in this song you can't help but sing along.
Sweet Song of Summer is so strange and out there for these guys and it is wonderful. I wish bands took more risks like this. It is weird and psychedelic an
Bad Dreams is less of a risk, but still unlike the rest of the album and is a rager. The riff is great, but the guitar tone seems to me like something that would have been beyond their interest or capabilities. Its fuzzy and distorted as heck! It's almost proto-metal, and certainly more riffed based pentatonic stuff than we're used to with Bee Gees.
Maurice's You Know Its For You is such a curious and neat track. The weird break/breaks in the song where it kind of kick-starts back into the chorus and the way the melody is kind of like an unresolved pier the singer wanders on to is so unlike Barry's exacting approach to songwriting it feels almost like a completely different band.
It is kind of amazing Road to Alaska got released. That song feels so half baked - the repetition of the words "really" and "every single" to chew up lyric-to-melody syllables in the verse and the bizarre geography makes this feel like Robin is spitting freestyle over 12 bar blues. If you're going to make filler, take a risk like Sweet Song of Summer.
There are a few instances of psychedelia showing up on tracks like Paper Mache and SSoS I was certain this was the Bee Gees attempt at a Dark Side of the Moon-esque sound. I was surprised to see Dark Side wasn't out when this was released.
It's their tenth album. And it sounds like the band is kind of figuring themselves out. Less at a crossroads and more at a nebulous liminal space - the disco stuff was a few years away and the global supply of flower-power had pretty much dried up. They're kind of sticking their noses into a lot of different ideas of what this band sound likes, which makes the album title so appropriate.
That said, I do enjoy it, and the stuff that hits on here is superb.
2023.06.04 05:40 BarelyConscious_ I (19) have been struggling with life and death
When I was little my parents sent me to church on my own and I was taught that when you die you either go to heaven or hell, I never felt that to be true, along with almost everything else Christian related. I’m not an atheist, I’m not sure the best way to explain my beliefs, but I can feel there’s something greater than us and that there’s nothing really to fear when it comes to death. I never worried about death.
About a month or two ago I ate a high dose edible and ended up laying in my bed, unable to move and unable to fall asleep. I just laid there and eventually the topic of death entered my head. I thought about growing old and what the moments leading up to death must feel like, knowing everything you’ve known and experienced will be gone. I thought about what it’d be like getting sick young, having your life ripped from you. I thought about car crashes and mass shootings.
When I was younger I attempted to take my own life and since then, since surviving, I’ve been learning to love the little things. I now have a great love and appreciation for the things around me and the connections I’ve made. I don’t want to ever stop experiencing things or connecting with people. I want to live a great life full of experiences, good and bad. I just want to live. I don’t want my life to be taken from me at any point, I don’t want to stop experiencing.
While I feel very spiritual, I have no idea what comes after death. Nobody does. I have my hopes for what happens, but hopes aren’t very comforting to me. I like the idea of a heaven because I’ll still get to experience things and connect with the other dead people there, including people I never got to meet in this life, but it feels silly to cling to that.
With my newfound fear of death, I’ve also developed a huge anxiety about not living the life I want to live, not ending up where I want to be. I need to let go of so much that’s happened to me, so many fears, to get to where I want to be. I don’t know where to start.
If you read all of this, thank you. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about life and death since that edible experience, I needed to get it out somewhere.
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About a month or two ago I ate a high dose edible and ended up laying in my bed, unable to move and unable to fall asleep. I just laid there and eventually the topic of death entered my head. I thought about growing old and what the moments leading up to death must feel like, knowing everything you’ve known and experienced will be gone. I thought about what it’d be like getting sick young, having your life ripped from you. I thought about car crashes and mass shootings.
When I was younger I attempted to take my own life and since then, since surviving, I’ve been learning to love the little things. I now have a great love and appreciation for the things around me and the connections I’ve made. I don’t want to ever stop experiencing things or connecting with people. I want to live a great life full of experiences, good and bad. I just want to live. I don’t want my life to be taken from me at any point, I don’t want to stop experiencing.
While I feel very spiritual, I have no idea what comes after death. Nobody does. I have my hopes for what happens, but hopes aren’t very comforting to me. I like the idea of a heaven because I’ll still get to experience things and connect with the other dead people there, including people I never got to meet in this life, but it feels silly to cling to that.
With my newfound fear of death, I’ve also developed a huge anxiety about not living the life I want to live, not ending up where I want to be. I need to let go of so much that’s happened to me, so many fears, to get to where I want to be. I don’t know where to start.
If you read all of this, thank you. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about life and death since that edible experience, I needed to get it out somewhere.
2023.06.04 05:40 SecretScrappy I feel like a failure and I’m not sure what else to do about it.
I have created art all my life. It began making comic books, character designs, realism (as much as I could make it) and turned to painting during Covid as well as specializing in a digital photography program for a couple years, and having a good niche in photomontages.
I am majoring in graphic design, and I’m about to be in my senior year. I’m nervous. I’m nervous about making a huge senior thesis, nervous about after graduation, etc. My art is never good enough and I believe that people who look at it say and say is good is lying. It doesn’t seem impressive. Which is fine, I guess, I know I’m not some sort of graphic design prodigy like other people in my class, but graphic design is competitive. I try my best to word hard and practice but I’m starting to get to a point of burnout and exhaustion.
Other graphic designers make it look so easy. Some students in my class at my age already have full time jobs, or have a successful freelance. It makes me so nervous. I hate falling behind. I hate feeling so competitive. I can never talk about it with other people in my class because I don’t want to complain, or just look weak and whiny. I mean we discuss how annoyed we are with projects and professors, but not as deep as “This work, or in general this major” makes me feel like I’m drowning and I produce average work.” Do you know what I mean? I feel like if I talk about it in the graphic design subreddit, I feel like I’ll get looked down upon. I’ve had very pretentious comments on there when I ask for advice on portfolios or career choices. Why would it be any different when it would be my own feelings instead of a design work?
I just don’t want to be seen like I’m a terrible artist when I’ve been working my whole life for this. I know it’s my art and I can do whatever I want and nobody can change that, but for graphic design I NEED people to like my art so I can design for them. It’s such a competitive field, and don’t even get me started on the big rise of AI into the design world as well. I’m working as hard as I can, and it’s never enough, and I’m scared.
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I am majoring in graphic design, and I’m about to be in my senior year. I’m nervous. I’m nervous about making a huge senior thesis, nervous about after graduation, etc. My art is never good enough and I believe that people who look at it say and say is good is lying. It doesn’t seem impressive. Which is fine, I guess, I know I’m not some sort of graphic design prodigy like other people in my class, but graphic design is competitive. I try my best to word hard and practice but I’m starting to get to a point of burnout and exhaustion.
Other graphic designers make it look so easy. Some students in my class at my age already have full time jobs, or have a successful freelance. It makes me so nervous. I hate falling behind. I hate feeling so competitive. I can never talk about it with other people in my class because I don’t want to complain, or just look weak and whiny. I mean we discuss how annoyed we are with projects and professors, but not as deep as “This work, or in general this major” makes me feel like I’m drowning and I produce average work.” Do you know what I mean? I feel like if I talk about it in the graphic design subreddit, I feel like I’ll get looked down upon. I’ve had very pretentious comments on there when I ask for advice on portfolios or career choices. Why would it be any different when it would be my own feelings instead of a design work?
I just don’t want to be seen like I’m a terrible artist when I’ve been working my whole life for this. I know it’s my art and I can do whatever I want and nobody can change that, but for graphic design I NEED people to like my art so I can design for them. It’s such a competitive field, and don’t even get me started on the big rise of AI into the design world as well. I’m working as hard as I can, and it’s never enough, and I’m scared.