This is the third track from Modest Mouse’s seventh album, The Golden Casket. How do you feel about this song? What are some of your favorite lyrics? What’s your favorite live performance of the song? How would you rank it among the rest of the band’s discography? How would you rate it out of 10 (decimals allowed)?
Studio version
SUGGESTED SCALE: 1-4: Not good. Regularly skip. 5: It’s okay, but I might have to be in the right mood to listen to it. 6: Slightly better than average. I won’t skip it, but I wouldn’t choose to put it on. 7: This is a good song. I enjoy it quite a bit. 8-9: Really enjoyable songs. I rank them pretty high overall. 10: Masterpiece, magnum opus, or similar terminology.
Rating Results 1. Fuck Your Acid Trip: 2. We Are Between: 3. We’re Lucky:

TLDR : dad got pacemaker, didn't change life style and symptoms seem to be coming back
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Hello all, first of all, I am aware this is the internet. I am not looking for medical advice, I am looking for a community and experiences. Thank you for taking the time to read the following !
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My father (71) has had arrhythmia his whole life (nobody ever knew before all of this). He had a severe episode that brought him to the hospital where he became very unstable after a few days. After they got him stable enough, he got a pacemaker. He got a bunch of meds prescribed as well. Last week was his last follow up. He won't go back for a while. My father is a very passive person who has the mentality of "if it still works, it aint broken". This applies to everything in his life : the house is crumbling down, he fixes everything with duck tape (fridge, computer, windows). This mentality applies to his health as well. It took him being unable to walk to finally book a doctor appointment. As soon as she checked him, she sent him straight to ICU. When asked about heart diseases in his family, he said there was no history. Yet, his brother d**d from a heart attack and both his parents from a stroke. He did not lie, he just, didn't make the connexions.
My father is a horticulturist. His job is outside, demanding and physical. He is a heavy smoker as well. I thought he would stop though, because he told me he did not feel any need/urge for nicotine when being hospitalized for a whole month. He is a pack a day guy and did not have one cigarette for 33 days. But as soon as he got back home, that was the first thing he did. Summer has finally arrived here (well, spring), so he is back to work. And the symptoms have started to come back : mostly sleep issues for now. That's how his decent started last year.
My question is : if he was okayed by everybody not too long ago after many check ups, are his meds + pacemaker gonna do the trick ? The cardiologist told me at the beginning of his hospitalization that it was absolutely out of the question for him to go back to his job with the state of his heart (ejection fraction around 15). But it was the holidays, and there were so many different doctors in the ICU. So the last doctor who okayed him did not see any problem with him going back to regular physical labor. I never understood really, but I know the heart is a complicated organ. But it really seemed it went back to normal.
My dad will never change his way. It took my mother threatening legal action for him to redo the bathroom because mushrooms (literal mushrooms you could pick from the floor and cut up in a salad) were growing. His laptop is drowning in dust, his countertops are always sticky, he does not do any maintaining. Everything in his house is dirty, but dirty from YEARS of dirt. You know, those brownish streaks on walls ? that's just everywhere. Doors are dirty around the handles because he never washes his hands other than when he gets back from work. He is a wonderful person, but he does not take care of anything unless it is no longer working. his whole fridge holds up with duck tape. it is a mindset that I fear is slowly killing him ...
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Can y'all share your experience post implant and starting meds ? much appreciated

To the American people and anyone wishing to read,
They teach us in school, as we are growing up, telling children, that our histories of people going against their government, and that rebellion and anarchy are just ways of the past. That in the past is how we've gotten to this world today, now able to "live in this luxury" of the 21st century, having the convenience of it all, just to grow up now and see the reality. To blend in with societies ignorance and choose to just follow the pack. To remain distracted by this or that celebrity, and see what extravagant vacations they went on and the lives they're leading. To watch the movies that big Hollywood actors and actresses make, with all the amazing and life fulfilling moments, stories, and lives, to just be an average adult. To have to start contributing to fulfill a power-driven ego boss or government, who doesn't feel they should have to work for all that they have or feel the need or responsibility to take care of humanity with the power and wealth they are provided. No matter how few things you have, the working day by day average American like me, has to say I succeeded. If you are breathing and working, you are a success to the product of your environment, even if you a late on bills or can’t afford food, you are doing what they intended. But we need to just wake up and realize that the history is not gone. If we don't learn from them, then what good was having to sit around and listen to this stuff? To just conform? To become a little working bee in corporate America, and look the other way when bad things are happening. We have all done this up to a certain point. But trying to take away our constitutional rights, what this country was based on, seems beyond what we were taught. To have our own freedom, just slowly slip away from our grasp. To no longer be able to live freely to provide our own way of social endeavors and exchanges between other humans. It wasn't meant to be perfect, but it gave people their free will to do as you please, to live as you please, and to spend your time and your money doing what you enjoyed most in life. No restrictions, no boundaries. I don’t believe our founding fathers were encouraging people to be even more corrupt or controlling with time, as these men were probably the most intelligent, literate, and richest people around at their time in our newly created country. Regardless of their actions, the intent for good cause and good reason I believe was there. Men who decided that the British government was taking away their freedoms and restricting their lives. And so fought for it because they wanted to believe in something better! So as with time, things changed, as they always tend to do throughout all our lives. But this! This is our right and what the entire country is based on! This is what our constitution based this country on! I do not agree with the whole ‘world police’ act, when we need a lot of help that our military could provide here in the United States of America. The leaders of this country, the monopoly corporations, the selfish investors hoarding all the wealth into politics for their own gain; all of this all needs to be invested into something better for the economy and more affordable for humanities rapid way of living, there ARE other possibilities. They need to stop invading other countries for their assets and claiming they started a war. War has been constant to simply feed the motivates of the extremely rich running the world and no one knows or sees or cares about any of this because they want to watch the new Kardashians or Miley kissing Katy Perry and we remain ignorant because it's easier, more convenient. This is when I've had enough and everyone needs to open their eyes and stand up for what our basic human rights for being alive should be. Whether you are American or not, this is everyone's right. We should not be struggling to eat and live. Your change needs to be to fix capitalism, the ones with the wealth who pay for the extravagant lifestyle of corruption that the average American can only dream of. We can begin in the betterment of humanity by taking action to FULFILL YOUR AMERICAN GIVEN RIGHT TO STAND UP FOR YOUR RIGHTS WHEN THEY ARE TAKEN AWAY!!
I wrote this 10 years ago and recently came across it. It is crazy to think how much more prominent and influenced this mindset has gained over the years and this community really makes me have a pride in our world to see the small changes happening to work towards a better future for all and I just wanted to share to keep the hopes and perseverance up.

This is the first track from David Bowie’s fifth album, The Rise and Fall of Ziggy Stardust and the Spiders from Mars. How do you feel about this song? What are some of your favorite lyrics? What’s your favorite live performance of the song? How would you rank it among the rest of the band’s discography? How would you rate it out of 10 (decimals allowed)?
Studio version
SUGGESTED SCALE: 1-4: Not good. Regularly skip. 5: It’s okay, but I might have to be in the right mood to listen to it. 6: Slightly better than average. I won’t skip it, but I wouldn’t choose to put it on. 7: This is a good song. I enjoy it quite a bit. 8-9: Really enjoyable songs. I rank them pretty high overall. 10: Masterpiece, magnum opus, or similar terminology.
Rating Results 1. Five Years:

Hello fellow Redditors,
I hope you're all doing well. I wanted to share my current situation and seek some advice and support from this wonderful community. Recently, I secured a job in Gujarat, a state that I was excited to explore. Coming from Kolkata, it was a big move for me, but the job opportunity seemed too good to pass up.
Before I made the decision, my dad was already concerned about the potential challenges I might face as a alone Muslim girl in Gujarat, due to the prevailing anti-Muslim sentiments that have been portrayed in the media. However, I reassured him that it might not be as bad as it seems, believing that these were just media exaggerations.
Now, my parents are away on Hajj, and I have arrived in Gujarat with a few of my friends to join the company. Unfortunately, I have faced significant difficulties in finding accommodation. It's disheartening to share that I have been denied housing opportunities solely because of my Muslim identity. This has been a recurring issue across various societies I have approached. The only alternative option of shared accommodation in girls' PGs, with a room filled with seven people, isn't something I feel comfortable with.
After an exhaustive search, I finally found a small room near my office. However, the space is cramped and suffocating without having no windows, and the owner refuses to install an AC. It feels like I have to compromise on basic comforts just to have a place to stay with privacy. Although my name sounds Bengali, which may not immediately reveal my Muslim identity, and I don't wear a hijab, I can't help but feel fearful about living alone in a city where hatred towards my community exists.
I must clarify that the landlords I have encountered so far have been polite and haven't expressed any issues with me being a Muslim. However, the general atmosphere of hostility and the tragic incident I recently learned about, involving a Muslim girl who took her own life due to relentless harassment and familial pressures, have left me deeply scared and concerned.
I wanted to reach out to this community to gain some insight and advice. Are Muslims generally targeted in Gujarat, particularly in the workplace? I understand the dynamics of corporate politics but fear facing additional challenges simply because of my religious background. My intention was to work here for at least 2 years for the experience, but now my priority has shifted to ensuring my personal safety and well-being.
Considering the difficulties in securing accommodation, I am now considering the possibility of finding a place where I can live with my parents. Having them by my side would provide a sense of comfort and security.
Are there any areas or communities in Gujarat known to solely provide accommodation for Muslims? Are there specific housing societies or agencies that prioritize offering housing to Muslims?
Additionally, if anyone can recommend reliable resources or websites that specialize in connecting individuals with Muslim-friendly accommodations, that would be immensely helpful.

Hello! I just want to vent my feelings. I really need to, and I just don't have anyone to tell this to that I can trust Sorry for spelling errors, etc. just need to get this out.
I should say that he and him are waiting until we meet each other (might be pretty soon actually!) to make things official! Anyway
I been very upset lately and that's because he will meet his online friend shew trans! (Born as a boy) and I have always been jealous of her and he knows that but when I told him he just said thanks for being honest with me which it really didn't make me feel even better about it. They have said how they see each other as siblings and she calls me his wife sometimes but today something really bothered me I wanted to play minecraft with him since I made him a cute world lol anyway i texted him id we could play together since i made him something but then I saw they were playing together so great. I was about to delete my message when he answered so that was great I told him that what I was going to ask he invited to join them I didn't want to I feel like she hates me also so I jusy couldn't I wanted it to be us just us 2 but my friends kept saying to jusy go so I did. I joined it was so cute though! They had flamingos and many animals I asked where they were and they ignored me they kept talking to each other but not me which really made me feel bad and so I left. It made me feel very sad and unwanted and that moment.
I'm very jealous that they are going to see each other next week as well. I can't brush it off that they secretly like each other it really bugs me and I don't want to ask since it's probably just me. I can't handle it and it's really affecting me. I know he won't text me much for being with her and they also going to vlog hanging out :( I really don't want to see it he seems more happy with her so I unsubbed from her channel and muted her notifications I don't wish to see it ever. I'm scared he won't text me much for being with her and that his and my feelings will change but mine are really being affected and will get worse when they see each other.

My friend is making cake pops wholesale. She’s looking for a commercial machine that can knead the cakes after baking. She’s currently supposed to start producing at least 13k cake pops per month and we are trying to find an easier way than by hand. I’m not sure if mixer can yield same result. She says it takes them at least 45 minutes to do a big tub of cakes. We are willing to spend the money if anyone has any ideas.

Has anyone else got their TE from Covid? I had Covid in December of 2021 for the first time and I had zero side effects after it cleared up. Had it again August of 2022 and noticed major hair loss some time after followed by waking up one day and parting my hair down the middle to braid it and noticing all these tiny baby regrowth hairs. I work in a dermatology office so I knew what TE was prior, however best believe I went to work and had my doctor check my hair and see what she thought. Sure enough, telogen effluvium. So I stopped getting my hair done and just said I’m going to grow my natural color out but I am so embarrassed I was a platinum blonde now my roots (and thankfully regrowth) are growing out brown :/ (I am a dark blonde but side by side my regrowth looks very dark). I have thought about shaving it all off and getting a wig but Idek how to install a wig lol. And I’ve thought about extensions but they are so expensive. No one understands what I have everyone just thinks my stylist burned my hair off lol. I made a video explaining what TE was but ended up just taking it down. I am 8 months into this, but I feel like the regrowth has barely grown lately… such a struggle. And so embarrassing :(

So my gf and I (along with some friends) are going on freedom of the seas in September, and are wanting to book another cruise for early next year. Not 100% sure yet on which one (still deciding on wonder or icon), but we definitely are booking. I recall seeing Next Cruise on our past ships we went on, never went in or know what goes on, but should I go in when I go on freedom or just book online sooner? Is it worth it and get any big benefits? Like for example, let’s say our next cruise is $2700 in total (as of right now) with a needed $500 deposit. What changes? Are there any deals to final price, lower deposit, longer wait time for final payment, onboard credit, etc? Any experience and opinions appreciated :) if no big difference I’ll just book it via website, if so then I’ll wait for my upcoming cruise. Thank you!

Krunker io has gone through multiple big changes over the course of 5 years. It has grabbed many players, especially during 2020-2022 period. I first got to know of krunker as a shooter game with a simple and easy to play game. The game was absolutely fun and enjoyable during mid 2020- mid 2021 year because of the updates and changes such as raids, new maps, graphic changes and many new customisable features during gameplay. People enjoyed the rewarding system and they were always eager to play this game, it also allowed for potential new people to try out this game. My favourite ones were clan wars, raids. The game was back then filled with less hackers too. In end of 2021 faceit was launched and it was fully functional by november(may be wrong). this was a revolutionary step towards growing its reach, it grew only for a short period however its pre-existing players were quite happy with this decision and it received lot of love. However in this ranked system there were occasional internet and server issues at times and were sometimes so serious that they completely ruined the experience.
I quitted this game in 2022 April because I lost all interest and focussed on my life. After I came back (summer vacations) this game has gotten worse in terms of pubs (my personal opinion). There are too many weird and meaningless maps and too many uninteresting game modes. I feel if krunker can keep the game modes and maps less then the game can become interesting. Specifically maps that are small and easy in movement- as krunker is a fast paced game it would make more sense and people would enjoy it.
Krunker could thrive during 2020-2022 well because of COVID. It was a way for students and people who were burdened by work as a way of stress buster. Today lifestyle has changed which has lead to the fall of daily players. If krunker wants to grow then it must create an environment and system where actual gamers and normal people would enjoy doing such as making the game even more fast paced or bringing in competitiveness in its gameplay. I know I might sound far fetched. But what I mean to say is that krunker cannot stick to its old system now, it must bring many big changes in its game now. Krunker must focus more on long term objectives that can grow and retain the players instead of just adding new skins, features and maps every godam season.

When I got diagnosed with Adderall I had had mild issues with anxiety and issues with loss. Thanks to my ADHD (and probably depression) I was too numb to really focus on it so it never really stuck. Sure I had a few bad episodes waking up as a teen sobbing because I was scared of dying and scared of my dogs and mom dying, but it was all far away and I could barely focus on any one thing anyway so it passed.
WHELP!~✨
Guess who can now focus on things and has flashes of anxiety where I feel so much fear and despair it causes actual pain. And it's not like low-level pain either, it's serious agonizing pain. But how the frick do you explain that to people? How do I explain that my great weekend was ruined because while home and chilling and taking care of the dogs I noticed my adorable little goblin of a dog was getting even more and more grey fur and it fucking DESTROYED me for like an hour.
I don't want to die but I hate that I have to exist with this brain that barely functions for a few hours every day thanks to fancy medical meth. I hate how my brain has intrusive thoughts no matter what that cause spikes of genuine pain when I see the fact that time is passing in some way. any way. ancient history? Pain. A few grey hairs? Pain. My own mom limping cause of her bad knee because she's getting older? Immense pain...
I got given Lexapro and it mostly works. The Anxiety is far more numb and bearable but it's been a month and my libido and creativity and enjoyment of things have STILL yet to come back...but they are...very slowly.
But that's the thing, isn't it? It MOSTLY works...and I'm somehow just supposed to keep existing like this because it mostly works with minimal side effects is considered a great success with mental health meds.
Just going throughout my days trying to avoid literal thought landmines that I probably need a therapist I can't afford to see. Little thought knives that slide into my gut randomly throughout the day that I know will only grow worse with time.
I just hate existing like this and hate how I can't convey to anyone else around me just how awful I really feel every day...the fact that EVERYTHING is temporary and thus on a timer fucking eats away at me on some fundamental level and I absolutely fucking hate it and it fills me with the worst kinds of feelings.
It feels like LIFE ITSELF has a guillotine over its head and that mere fact bugs the fuck outta me...

How tf are y’all killing him? His guards are head,eyes’ing me from 100m without agroo’ing them. As soon as I ads I’m suppressed.

Last Christmas I received a used Xbox 360 as a gift, and I've been enjoying a couple of great racing games. First, I am not a fan of simulation racing games, so my racing interest lean closer to the arcade side of the spectrum. I've just never been interested in sim racers, because I don't have the patience for playing the same race track a thousand times to perfect every turn. I am also not a fan of most mobile racing games either, because their track length is too short. Even though I am not perfect at arcade racing games I really do enjoy them. Here are some that I have played so far.

Most Favorites:

Need For Speed: Hot Persuit - Made by the same people who developed the Burnout Series. This game is like the love child between burnout and NFS. This game feels more refined gameplay wise and looks more refined visually.

1. Even though the graphics look a little pixelated and dated by today's standards the environments still look beautiful to look at. I always prefer graphical aesthetics over fidelity.
2. Multiple shortcuts and alternative routes make the environments feel more believable and make then more replayable.
3. Various tools like EMP and spikes give the gameplay more depth. This turns a standard racetrack into a playground.
4. Preview tracks and vehicles lets you try them out before you race them. Great if you want to learn where all the shortcuts are and learn the tracks really well.
5. There is an open world mode where you can just drive and explore. Great to help you relax after a stressful day.
6. There are no penalties for crashing and driving reckless!

Split/Second - This game is just reckless abandonment embodied and the most fun that I've had in a racing game in a very long time. I just can't believe that Disney even published it.

1. Graphics and environments still look great to this day. It's exciting to see them explode and crumble before your eyes.
2. Earning powerplays by drifting is a very thoughtful gameplay mechanic. The driving also feels very smooth and intuitive. I don't have to think about it.
3. Using the powerplays to change the routes gives the races replayability and makes the courses feel more fluidic and dynamic.
4. There are no penalties for crashing and driving reckless!

Least Favorites:

Need For Speed: The Run - There is just something about this game that I just don't like. It leans too close to a simulation racing game for my tastes. Trying to balance the gameplay and perfect my cornering is difficult for me. I also don't like how the game gives you a finite number of retries per stage. It feels like the game penalizes you for making mistakes. Some of the rock textures in the wilderness areas also look really bad in my opinion. They used bump mapping, gloss and bloom effects when they should have left them eternally lit with a matte finish instead.
Crackdown - Crackdown is a really fun game, but its racing segments are really, really bad. Let's just leave it at that.

Wanted Games:

Outrun 2006 - You can't go wrong with Outrun 2006 for the Original Xbox. Running the game on the 360 these days is the most premiere way of playing it. You can go wrong with how much it cost these days. For a game that was originally under $50 new it is often priced at over $200 used. I'm not paying that much for a game that I would play rarely anyways.
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What were and still are your favorite racing games for the Xbox 360? Please comment below and please tell me why too. Thank you!

Hey, just wondering what peoples experiences are with owing tax and getting paid a salary - I don't understand how it can be half a grand off unless the finance team at my job aren't doing it properly - the year prior at the same company I owed $200ish. This is after a few years of never owing tax.
The only thing I can think of is a got a payrise, but even then I thought the tax should just adjust to compensate. I had some shares I sold through sharesies as well, but they were all at a loss so thought that would be untaxed...
Anyway it's just more annoying then anything that these discrepancies keep popping up each year now.

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I really struggle with self-confidence/ social anxiety and panic attacks. It definitely got worse during the pandemic and seems to have intensified. I see a therapist weekly, but this constant anxiety and self doubt are always there under the surface.
I’ve had a really stressful couple of years, mostly around work and the general financial concerns other millennials find themselves in, and now I’m in a clinical depression.
Any tips out there for how not to negative self-talk? Every interaction I have leaves me playing it over and over in my mind that everyone hates me or I messed up and leaves a general spiral. And not only is this not healthy, it feels selfish too.
Looking for approaches maybe I haven’t tried 😬

These few days I been ranting, I hope nobody will bash me with words. It's okay to read my rant just don't push me down further as I don't even know how to lead in life with a smile, My heart feels so stigmatized, tight and heavy. Being born shortly after by my biological mom, some unverified reason happen between my mom and dad leads to divorce. I was very young back then, probably 3-5 years old and I can't talk as I have not yet learn how to, suddenly as this point of time writing this post, I can't believe how much time has passed, the last time I was a child, I felt small, my hands, legs, and there are less things I know about the world, I wasn't so upset or so depressed, but something wasn't feeling right, that love and emptiness I felt, even though I can't describe how it feels back then but subconsciously I miss my mom so much, I have only a memory left of my mom that before she abandoned me, my dad bring me to visit my mom once in awhile, ok very attached to my mom and would hug her everytime I see her. Even though like I said I can't speak, I enjoyed spending the short time with her at her house with my grand mother, I can no longer remember their faces, I know my mom was a very pretty lady wnd petite lady though she was short. She would buy DVDs something that genz won't understand, of Pokemon and digimon animes but back then I don't know it's an anime _(..)/ I could sit at the bedroom on the bed watching peacefully, I don't know what the story in Pokemon and digimon was about back then but the memory remains there till as I grow up with understanding of Pokemon I know what was the thing of memory I had. The two things I remembered was that Bulbasaur refused to evolve even though his species has all evolve, despite Venusaur wanted him to do so, he was so attached to its trainer and that love force him to remain the same which I do not know why maybe the fear to be no longer the same identity? The another was whereby ash, misty, Brock was put into sleep by Gengar and they saw a giant gengar and Alakazam was fighting, but when they touch Gengar or it ate them they fell into his stomach not dead as of they're inside a giant jar, I also remember my grandma bring me to her work place which was primary school but everytime it was emlty, filled with no students maybe because it's weekend? I don't know but when I was with her, I would just run around the canteen while my grandma cleans the canteen, it was so nostalgic, life was so simple back then. I don't need to care anything else.. it was a very simple and sacred love I had from then, but looking backwards, it was a just call before the storm. Everything bad starts happened, before I notice I no longer able to see my mom and grandma again, I was sent to different of my mom I think from my dad but it was just a short time, and I was constantly move from one place to another, but of course the reason was because nobody want to for free especially without money, fast forward that my dad married another woman, and that was really the nightmare that soon to begin, although when I was told to call her mom, it will never ever replace the love I had for my biological mom even though her love for me and the time spending her was short. As I was growing I will always ask my dad where's my mom and he know I was referring to my biological mom as I was very attached to her. I miss her and I know she will never come back but a child I do not know why and I just only kept missing her. That woman that my dad marries brought me to her family, they are a very traditional kind of mindset family and sort of rich, well selling fishball noodles till able to demolish and rebuild terrace house ya over the last few years and I was living there since then till I'm 12 years old. Moving to my dad's house was the hell period and start of the nightmare, always constantly I get beaten up by canning all over my leg and body, forcing to stand for 2 hours because I was too stupid unable study well. I remembered now suddenly that I was force to keep memorize English words for 2 hours sometimes and while crying and standing I had to repeat the words that I am learning for, spelling test often has in school that's why*
Fast forward to secondary school a new school for me, at age of 13/14, lost my previous friends as they went other schools because I wasn't staying at the woman's family house anymore which was nearer to my previous school. Orientation of the school day which is first day, my days of being bullied starts, was bullied by my group of Malay classmates, and I got angry but I cried while angry that is why the bullying continues for 3-4 years, each time I angry, I'll cry at the same time even when I'm angry. There was once my entire school books in my school bag was thrown into the dustbin according to the teachers and couldn't be found. It will be funny, like who even bring entire year of school books? Yup that's me, that woman wanted me to bring and I hate to bring or put it in my bag. I wanted to make friends with my classmates, even those female classmates but I do not know how, like 13 years old kids nowadays knows how to use iphone and I don't even know how to say: May I be your friend, because this doesn't exist in my brain, which I do not know how to even say or what's sentence so the only way to get their attention was by running around in class, and running to slam myself into the wall, pulling girls hairs to get their attention, it's kind of childish, but what to do? I literally don't even know how basic gestures works. Another reasons why I can't express myself properly was also because of my ADHD symptoms and back then I was very very hyperactive! for my school life, can't go anywhere after school and only home and I only can study at home, there's nothing for me to play and it was very bored as I can't sit still, it feels like a prison especially when holiday comes because I can never go out to play. Although I dislike that woman but I like her mother, she's the only one who will pamper me, and often I go back with her to that family house when I was at the hakwer centre, well they're selling fishball noodles that's why. Always when I wanted those toys from capsule machine, which cost a dollar, she gave me but when that woman knows I always get scolded for asking people to buy for me things. My classmates sometimes ask me why does my legs are full of blackmarks but I was scared, I do not dare to tell them that it was because that woman canes me almost everyday. Something causes my parents to talk to my school counselor because of me getting bullied in school everyday and that was a huge alarm as when I get bullied I would scream to the extend almost the whole school would heard and teachers has to come out of the office to look what's happening, my school counselor advise my dad to bring me to see a psychologist I think which is at child guidance clinic and also a time table where by I can go out 2-3 days, but when I was late on of the days when I called that woman, as my dad was busy driving taxi. She threatened me in Chinese that when I go home I will know what happened, terrified of that I dare not go home and had to sleep outside my classmates house which is at the stairs for 1 night, that woman made a police report not because of me lost but because I didn't return home to get beaten by her. Police didn't understand me either and there's no child protection law back then so I only can constantly get more beatings, as mentioned for going to child guidances, I was given to do IQ test but, of course they didn't tell me and till now I don't even know how high is my IQ level but more importantly my dad and that woman just wanted that medicine as they thought it will call me down even after getting beaten, everytime I get beaten and my anger and fear reach broke I will cried and lost control of myself and when one day I decided not to eat anymore they stop bringing me to see doctor because it can no longer control me. I was given only $4 a day, but my classmate who pity me will bring me out after school to lan cafe to play computer with my other classmates, a group of 5 including me. My dad and that women eventually found out and also knows that my school has a system of giving food coupons and that made that woman make her next move by reducing my pocket money to $2. I forgot to mention too, with my medical condition I was unstable in my mind and emotions but they seems to have a habit of further scolding, beating, and agitating me further and alot of times I only can cry in fear against them in the house as there's no other adults there to protect me. This fear letched on to me and made me very very negative, lonely, till today. Alot of times I wanted to find ways to (sui side, wrote in this way to avoid using sensitive words) there was once in army (19 years old) I went and bought a box of Panadols and swallowed 15 -18 tablets but I somehow knew it wasn't enough or deadly to end my life, ended up me seeing medical doctor at the airbase I was in and went to hospital to have IV drip to also flush out the paracetamol, ever since them I no longer able to take Panadol or tablets with similar taste and size due to allergic or the the featrauma of my body subconscious.
At the end of the day, during my entire growing stage life from child to adult, my brain devloped twice as slow than everyone my age and even till today there are some things I may not understand which sounds complicated to me or I'll never understand. I didn't have a normal love life either having girls comes up to me telling me they like me or me confessing to girls I like because I don't even know what's like and love, there was a girl I like and everytime she saw me she would wave to me, she's from a different class as she's smart, probably express or normal acad and is a sort of student council, a contemporary dancer in her cca, I subconsciously like her back then not know that. I always envy others when I walker pass those children with their parents who bring them out or when I sees them so happy playing or interacting with each other. I could only ask my self in my heart, why am I so different and why I couldn't have what normal people haves. Things that are worse is when I see baby or young child cries, my heart start to beat fast and I start to become Abit distracted and uncomfortable, maybe emotional because of the trauma I got child abused. I always sees many girls confessing to my classmate and his younger brother, envy that why so many girls like them, like felt they're so cool enough for girls to approach them be it irl, or online through Facebook. I guess the most depressing and unpleasant moments was I constantly sees girls going to their house to get **** by my classmate's brother, and I knew those girls like them but to him it's just flings, I felt so engioue everything in my life I'm opposite of what normal humans are, and all these experience and memories letch on to me till today made me unable to express or communicate well with people, I feel very lonely, especially after whek my ex classmate and his family treated me so badly, as I was degraded for not working, and saying my medical condition is nothing compared to people with autism and disability like having no hands and no legs, I was also compared to Michael Phelps through my ex-classmate brother, when I have no money I was treated badly and look down on, especially when they buy food for me and then proceed to say those stuffs towards me but when I have money they became so friendly, they made me left my dad's house which give my dad to tell me not to go back his house anymore as he was planning to "sell his house to buy a smaller house" due to debts. My classmate doesn't bother how I felt or my situation, because they lost job during covid period so asking me to rent there would help them have some cash, fast forward to 1 year ago I was rushed by them to get out of their house we one or their siblings coming back from oversea with his wife. I have no one else so I have to apply for a shelter from social workers, and when that extend from November to December till today they demand me to pay $300 when they knew I have no money even when I'm planning to study. Last few weeks because if that I started crying and got very uncontrollably depressed, I realisi that one of the reason because of them that made me depress and affect my behavior and life was because of them. My dad doesn't talk to me for 2 years and suddenly he message me to wish my birthday wish last year but realized he wanted to borrow money from me. Many people told me just let go off the past but how many actually knows that it's easier said than done, basically like a heavy chain are anchoring to me. Nobody knows how it feels to be alone in this entire world, having no one to be there with you be it, the time where I'm happy, sad, having surgery, suffering and crying alone. Even though I can't end my life because of fear and lack of beavery, I'm living a life of monochrome just to wait for me one day to leave this world be it old, sickness, or accident. I really hope one day I will be free from this anchors of pain, fear and grief.
I do not dare to even think of what happened in five years time even though I previously try to plan because as I'm struggling to live each day, by working and study I do not know if I can handle stress with my condition especially when there's no one there for me. Even tomorrow I do not know what is it like, but I really want to be illustrator or graphic designer in future, with the realistic nature of Singapore and my status, can I even make it? There's so much I want to do evem like opening a art theme, or cat theme or anime, cafe that shllort mental health, but can I even make it ? With the harsh reality

Basically what the title says 😊 my son turned 5 a few months ago and he’s always been “smart.” I recently realized it’s more than that, he is doing 3rd grade math just because it’s super fun for him. I am a public school teacher and I work at a school that does not have a gifted program of any kind. I am considering moving jobs to be at a school that would better serve my son after we see how kindergarten goes.
I really want to make sure he doesn’t experience burnout and that he just generally grows up well-adjusted- but I also don’t want him bored in school.
So far, it seems socially he has no struggles, beyond being a little shy at first. I do not think he has ASD or ADHD, but he seems to check all the boxes for giftedness.
If you are “gifted” what helped or didn’t help you that your parents did? If you are a fellow parent, I’d also love to hear your experiences.

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For some backstory, i’ll try to make it as understandable as possible.
I live in ohio and my boyfriend lives in illinois. I have a friend, M, who used to live in illinois and grew up with my boyfriend and other people our age. Then, in fifth grade, she moved to my school and we became friends. During the pandemic, M started a server with me, a few friends from school, and her friends from illinois. My boyfriend was NOT a part of this as they had more distance over the years. Eventually, in 11th grade, M invited me and a few other friends to visit a college in her hometown in illinois, and to meet with the friends we had in the group chat. We agreed, and during this trip M’s family had a get together with everyone they knew from illinois and my future boyfriend attended. He and I hit it off, and the next day he even attended the college tour and ice skating with us. We started dating about 1.5ish months later.
Now during our relationship, we’ve had to learn a lot of communication and how to be more mature during it due to the distance. We are doing extremely well and don’t have any major issues besides some struggle with the distance. We meet every 2-4 weeks depending on circumstances. Ever since the tour i took with M i fell in love with her hometown and she and i both planned to attend the college. However, due to cost, I instead took an opportunity at a college an hour away where I got nearly a full ride scholarship and massive opportunities in the honors program. M will likely attend the college in her hometown. Due to this, I will be living an hour away from my boyfriend, and I am really nervous about the transition and would appreciate any advice. I do have some friends in his and M’s hometown but most are his friends so i do not exactly count them. I plan to not see him for a couple of weeks to settle in and meet people and then we will go from there. Thank you for advice!