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2014.07.08 13:22 robertskmiles Electric Skateboarding

A community to hang out and discuss anything related to electric-powered skateboarding. When technology replaces wheels with wind or anti-gravity magnets, you can still talk or find about it here.
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2014.07.10 19:10 Waynegravsky Food for foodies from around Birmingham, AL

Do you love Birmingham, AL? If so, it probably started with the food!! This sub is for all Birmingham food lovers. Feel free to submit tips on making this sub better.
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2023.06.04 06:20 ThrowRabadromance3 first ever relationship. i don’t know if i’m ready, but he’s not really hearing me

i’m f20 and he’s m20. i live in california and he lives in washington. we’ve only been recently talking/getting to know each other for 2 weeks. for the first week, he said he didn’t want to ask me out until he was happy with himself, which i completely understand, but then a week after that, he got drunk, we got into a fight and he said that he was trying to get over his ex
he forgot all about it the next day, but i was hurt and he could tell and was getting upset with me, but he felt bad when i told him what happened. he said “this is why i stay single, i don’t do relationships,” but then he was really sweet and it made me feel like everything would be okay, but the whole thing just drained me and i ghosted him for a day and a half.
he got drunk again last night, but not slurring his words type drunk. he texted me a bunch of times and said that he moved on from his ex, he was sad that i wasn’t texting him back and that he wanted to work on things with me this time and all this other stuff. i texted him back and told him that i was sorry, but i didn’t feel ready for a relationship. i have a a lot of trauma and recently went through something extremely traumatic in may, so i wanted time for myself to heal, before i got in any sort of relationship. he was saying how we could work on it together and that it’s hard to do things like that alone, but i told him being alone is what i’m used to. he didn’t really accept that and he’s not getting what i’m saying
he started getting upset again and kept saying that “if i wanted to leave him i could” and he kept telling me to go. then i don’t remember how, but we fixed it, he called me and i told him something very very personal and he accepted it and it made me feel incredibly happy, so on impulse, i agreed to be his girlfriend
but i’m just not sure what to do. when we call, it’s only audio. he doesn’t really ever make an effort to get to know me, he only knows what i tell him. i only found out his favorite color today. we don’t even talk much on the phone, we just play fight and flirt
he’s short with me and it reminds me of my parents, which is triggering.
i don’t know what to do. he’s not hearing me, but i trust him, but i feel like this relationship isn’t going to be stable.
what should i do? i’m kinda dumb
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2023.06.04 06:20 Nocturne3570 Who was the better story lets find out?

Seriously we hear it all the time written posted spoken you name it!! Let find out for once on at least this post which is better!!! of the two stories!!!
is Imperial Agent the BOND of SW, or the Slave who came form the bottom to ruling as one of the strongest being of the SW!!
think back on the story remember how you felt, remeber the excitement remember the feeling, Remember that. make your vote and let see who was top
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2023.06.04 06:20 KillingSnore The Daily Check-In for Sunday, June 4th: Just for today, I am NOT drinking!

*We may be anonymous strangers on the internet, but we have one thing in common. We may be a world apart, but we're here together!*
**Welcome to the 24 hour pledge!**
I'm pledging myself to not drinking today, and invite you to do the same.
Maybe you're new to /stopdrinking and have a hard time deciding what to do next. Maybe you're like me and feel you need a daily commitment or maybe you've been sober for a long time and want to inspire others.
It doesn't matter if you're still hung over from a three day bender or been sober for years, if you just woke up or have already completed a sober day. For the next 24 hours, lets not drink alcohol!
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**This pledge is a statement of intent.** Today we don't set out *trying* not to drink, we make a conscious decision *not to drink*. It sounds simple, but all of us know it can be hard and sometimes impossible. The group can support and inspire us, yet only one person can decide if we drink today. Give that person the right mindset!
What happens if we can't keep to our pledge? We give up or try again. And since we're here in /stopdrinking, we're not ready to give up.
**What this is:** A simple thread where we commit to not drinking alcohol for the next 24 hours, posting to show others that they're not alone and making a pledge to ourselves. Anybody can join and participate at any time, you do not have to be a regular at /stopdrinking or have followed the pledges from the beginning.
**What this isn't:** A good place for a detailed introduction of yourself, directly seek advice or share lengthy stories. You'll get a more personal response in your own thread.
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This post goes up at:
- US - Night/Early Morning
- Europe - Morning
- Asia and Australia - Evening/Night
A link to the current Daily Check-In post can always be found near the top of the sidebar.
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Hello SD! Wishing you all a peaceful Sunday.
I'd like to kick things off with a quote today: “Every day it gets a little easier… But you gotta do it every day — that’s the hard part. But it does get easier.” - Jogging Baboon from BoJack Horseman.
While originally about running (a pastime I've recently reclaimed), I've found it rings incredibly true for sobriety as well. In the early days, it was challenging to commit to being sober. I know I'm not alone in this - many of us have either chosen not to commit or have struggled to uphold our commitment. Because it is hard but, it got a little easier.
In my darker times, I suffered many losses due to my drinking - jobs, a wonderful girlfriend, and a significant amount of my health. These losses ironically made it even more difficult to commit to sobriety. The mindset of, “I’ve already lost so much. I’m a loser. What’s a little more to lose?” was all too easy to fall into. I felt unwell daily and even spent a month stuck in a hospital bed, unable to climb stairs without exhaustion or even finish a sentence without getting winded. Starting over is hard, but it got easier.
Fast forward to today, my life is unrecognizably better. I have a lovely puppy, a job I enjoy that is supported by an accommodating team, and my health has improved vastly. I rise early, enjoy jogging or biking, and barely notice conquering flights of stairs effortlessly. My diet has never been healthier, I'm cooking more and enjoying takeout less, and I'm consistently gaining strength and endurance. Work has become a place of learning and achievement. Above all, I'm able to spend endless amounts of time with my dog, who I absolutely adore. I can't even remember the last time I craved a drink. It was hard, but it got easier.
Here, in this community, we choose to tackle the hard part. To commit to sobriety today. To make it easier for tomorrow.
Sending you all strength and good vibes. This community is truly remarkable. Here's to making each day a little easier, together.
IWNDWYT
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2023.06.04 06:20 Rethtalos A Fair Wishlist for Dragons Dogma 2

For starters, let me just say like all of you, I was Über glad to see DD2 be officially revealed. Dark Arisen still tops my 5 fav games of all time so to say I’m hype for the sequel is an understatement. The announcement has me so fired up I went back and have been playing the first game again and it still holds up yet did notice some minor areas the sequel could improve. I can’t wait to see what the team can do on current gen! I do have a wishlist of things I’d hope to see at launch or a future update though, and here they are…
•Expanded character creator -not to say it didn’t already have a good creator, even for a ps3 era game but seeing those new models in the trailer I cannot wait to make my Arisen and Pawn again! Even tho there was only a few base selections you could pick, I’m still impressed you could make your character skinny/curvy/large/muscular without having the proportions looking off like in some games. Would enjoy an in-depth sliders system as apposed to the lesser triangle distributer . I hope they push the sliders to the limit(like how some games still kinda have small breasts/thighs even when on MAX slider) -Would also like them to allow both male and female presenting characters to be topless(OKAY HEAR ME OUT)as there’s nothing wrong with female breasts. If they have issues showing nipples(which they shouldn’t) they can do what they already did for some enemies and just not show them. All the harpies in the game were topples and just had smooth breasts and that blue feathered monster in the new trailer was the same. Would be a nice step forward in normalizing women’s bodies, it’s 2023 we still shouldn’t be having this debate
•Change vocations/ Gear on the fly -It is a bit of an inconvenience in the first game having to go to an inn anytime you want to change vocations. I think it would be a nice QoL improvement having gear and class sets you can easily equip and swap to while outside of battle. If there’s still the carry weight system, you could probably only hold a few gear sets anyways so Of course you can still go to an inn and change there as well!
•No genderlocked items/gear - I feel this is a simple enough request. For example, Was a little upset only female presenting characters could wear “silk lingerie” yet male presenting characters could not. -Also how some gear would completely change it’s look depending on the gender the character was. Like how “leather chest plate” on males was about what you’d expect whereas on females it was just a leather bra.. Or if they do still have it similar to that at least let us toggle between the two variations??? -Also, hope sexy and cool gear to make a return with no restrictions on who can wear it!!
•A lovely, much appreciated Glamor system - this could be the real use of the inns ❤️‍🔥 Allowing us to wear one item and having it appear as another ✅ can go to an in and apply glamours to gear you’re using. Could even make it so you’re only able to when an item has reached upgrade level 3 ⭐️ ⭐️ ⭐️ This is another QoL they could implement in a later update if it’s not in the base game!!
•Vocations can equip all their weapons at once - Basically, if I’m playing as magic archer, I should be able to have my daggers/bow/staff equipped all at once without having to swap in the inventory. Just a simple toggle between D-pad to go from bow to staff would do WONDERS
•Pawns can use special vocations -maybe this would be too OP but since it’s single player only I really don’t see the issue. Would love to have had my pawn rock Mystic Knight. Would love to see that change but could live if they kept pawns to basic vocations
Not much else comes to mind, I’m sure the map will be a bit bigger this time around. Which as long as there’s fun things to do in the overworked I think a smaller, richer map would continue to fit the gameplay well. I’m sure will see more smaller settlements around the map They already stated even more enemy types will be in the game which is exciting. Seeing the scary Gorgon and all smiles sphinx/harpy queen? In the trailer already let’s me know we’ll be eating good on that front! Honestly I’m super hyped for this game and even if some of these aren’t added I’ll still enjoy the game very much. Plus the improvements made from the base game to dragons dogma let me know they were willing to allow healthy feedback and update the game for the better! Anything you all would like to see at the launch of the game or in a future update? Anyway, Hope to summon your pawns from across the rift whenever the game releases, fellow Arisen!!
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2023.06.04 06:20 Kum1KumAll 21 [M4M] Looking to Help You Relieve Pressure Near Irving

Hello all!
Do you have a bit of inflammation going on down there? Does your lady not empty your balls enough?
Well I'd love to help. I can pump and suck that cum out.
I only ask that you're drug and disease free mainly. I'm also looking for people who don't do this all the time since neither do I. I'd love it if you were older too.
This will have to be carplay the first time.
Im located near Irving mostly but can do anywhere between that and Roanoke. PM me with your age, location, relationship status (the more married the better), and cock.
I'll ignore anyone who doesn't.
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2023.06.04 06:20 uncreativeusername75 Tips for the best water filtration system for apartment living?

I rent so I can't do anything crazy, but might be able to use a simple under the sink option or something on the counter. I used a Berky for a long time but I read recently they are in the midst of a class action lawsuit as their filters aren't nearly as good as they say they are. Looking for something simple yet very effective (especially for things like microplastics). Thank you!
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2023.06.04 06:20 ThrowRabadromance3 first ever relationship. i (f20) don’t know if i’m ready, but he’s (m20) not really hearing me

i’m f20 and he’s m20. i live in california and he lives in washington. we’ve only been recently talking/getting to know each other for 2 weeks. for the first week, he said he didn’t want to ask me out until he was happy with himself, which i completely understand, but then a week after that, he got drunk, we got into a fight and he said that he was trying to get over his ex
he forgot all about it the next day, but i was hurt and he could tell and was getting upset with me, but he felt bad when i told him what happened. he said “this is why i stay single, i don’t do relationships,” but then he was really sweet and it made me feel like everything would be okay, but the whole thing just drained me and i ghosted him for a day and a half.
he got drunk again last night, but not slurring his words type drunk. he texted me a bunch of times and said that he moved on from his ex, he was sad that i wasn’t texting him back and that he wanted to work on things with me this time and all this other stuff. i texted him back and told him that i was sorry, but i didn’t feel ready for a relationship. i have a a lot of trauma and recently went through something extremely traumatic in may, so i wanted time for myself to heal, before i got in any sort of relationship. he was saying how we could work on it together and that it’s hard to do things like that alone, but i told him being alone is what i’m used to. he didn’t really accept that and he’s not getting what i’m saying
he started getting upset again and kept saying that “if i wanted to leave him i could” and he kept telling me to go. then i don’t remember how, but we fixed it, he called me and i told him something very very personal and he accepted it and it made me feel incredibly happy, so on impulse, i agreed to be his girlfriend
but i’m just not sure what to do. when we call, it’s only audio. he doesn’t really ever make an effort to get to know me, he only knows what i tell him. i only found out his favorite color today. we don’t even talk much on the phone, we just play fight and flirt
he’s short with me and it reminds me of my parents, which is triggering.
i don’t know what to do. he’s not hearing me, but i trust him, but i feel like this relationship isn’t going to be stable.
i run when i’m scared and that’s what i want to do now, but i don’t want to hurt him. should i stay and work things out with him and myself so we can grow together? or do i go back into my old fucked up ways and ghost him to save myself?
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2023.06.04 06:20 packor personal opinion on gear

Weapons: Melee will lose to ranged, because time is always lost during positioning, so, Maw vs. Vengeance. Vengenace can switch targets midway, but in order for it to get significant "over" damage in the first place, it'd have not been able to kill by a little bit on the last shot, which means Maw would have scored a kill. Therefor, Maw is better because you potentially reduce mobs faster. There is not much of a difference, but Maw's require Flasks, so at first, it's better to craft Vengeance. While having both, I'd put Vengeance on explorers and Maw on questers.
Alts: Tape and Watches are not used by anything else, they could be used to make raider sword or miniguns. Raider swords use glue. Being melee, they would be less desireable. If you really must, you can craft miniguns with shovels, but if not necessary, I'd just sell the tape and watches for space and also ignore both glue and shovel items.
Outfits: I found the special outfits to not be as useful as regular +7's, with the exception of Death Suit for questing. Wasteland gear is, of course, first, but you only need a certain amount of them. Formalwear for exploring AND production, but it can conflict with Vengeance if you don't have Microscopes. You also need Fatigues for Weapons crafting. Handyman suits are the best for questing, imo, and can be crafted after Wasteland gear.
Junk: I found that most weapons will yield at least one required mat, so I'm hoarding them all for now, but I haven't really had to scrap for mats so far. Railway rifles and Junk jet only yield shovels and glue. Outfits are a good place to save space. It's probably easier to list what shouldn't be scrapped, but these are what I found don't really have useful materials(RARES):
Vault suit, Jumpsuit, Leather, Merc, Fatigues, Nightwear, Officer, Radiation, Raider, Scribe, Wasteland gear and medic, Bounty, Flight suit, Brotherhood, Jumper.
Powerarmor seems to be great for scrapping, all yielding Giddy's, and some yielding circuit boards.
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2023.06.04 06:20 GODZILLAKILT We’ll, I screwed up.

Used a mule account on wife’s main and private world to move stuff. Dump and log out times two. Without picking anything up with mule. Logged in with third character and made a mistake. Lost about 10 to 15 trade only guns and about 30 to 40 rare plans. Got too much in a hurry and screwed up.
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2023.06.04 06:19 sbb1991 Please help. I'm trying to figure out why my Senegalese twists look like this.

Please help. I'm trying to figure out why my Senegalese twists look like this.
I'm not super knowledgeable about protective styles. And I created a reddit account literally just for help with this lol.
I haven't gotten my hair braided since I was a teenager as I'm so tender-headed I've kinda stayed away from it. About 2 weeks ago I got some Senegalese twists installed. But lately I've been noticing that a few twists are kinda frizzing/unraveling and I think my hair is slipping from underneath. I'm not sure. I don't plan on keeping them in for TOO much longer but I'd still like to know what's going on here and if there's any way to fix it for the time being.
(Also some added context: I'm Black with Afro-textured hair though my curl pattern isn't very tight; I'd say I'm about 3a maybe).
https://preview.redd.it/0lt4wk8fgx3b1.jpg?width=1080&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=ad50bfa8e1babec1522249d596e8b629ed381043
https://preview.redd.it/zg0gaj8fgx3b1.jpg?width=1080&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=c8923745946d836500d5f2226b0f48a6bbd9809c
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2023.06.04 06:19 Low_Local_7534 Bereavement leave

Does anyone know if you can use anytime pay during this ? As I’m having a rough time and can’t afford to also miss out on access to funds same day
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2023.06.04 06:19 AragornNM Is the fajita veggie add-in for quesadillas just not really a thing?

This was the third time this has happened that I’ve tried ordering the fajita quesadilla like in the online ads, but each time the fajita veggies are forgotten. Is this not something Chipotle staff are trained to do? Or is there some other reason they keep forgetting to do this? I wouldn’t mind if it had to be on the side just bizzare it’s just always left out.
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2023.06.04 06:19 AliensAreComing4Tea What's your type and what pill?

For me, esfp and red pill
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2023.06.04 06:19 moodarrhythmia how many tabs to take?

I am trying to plan my first trip on LSD ever. I have experience taking mushrooms i dosages up to 4 grams, as well as smoking DMT numerous times and once breaking through.
That being said, I do acknolwedge the necessities that come with LSD and I treat my preparation no less serious than any other I did. I also never had a bad trip before.
I am contemplating taking 1.5 tabs of what my source claims to be a 190ug tab. From the posts that I've read this is almost certainly an overexaggeration, so even assuming the dose is rather high for a tab, at say 150ug, this should be just south of 200ug at best.
On the other hand, good practice would suggest simply sticking to one tab.
What do you think? 1.5 tabs or just one?
in addition, any particular do's and dont's that are important to address regarding LSD specifically? I'm guessing the longer time duration means I should seriously plan multiple different activities, and laying down vibing simply won't be entertaining forever.
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2023.06.04 06:19 TheSleepyVin [RANT AND STORY] A boy who wasn't love by all living things.

These few days I been ranting, I hope nobody will bash me with words. It's okay to read my rant just don't push me down further as I don't even know how to lead in life with a smile, My heart feels so stigmatized, tight and heavy. Being born shortly after by my biological mom, some unverified reason happen between my mom and dad leads to divorce. I was very young back then, probably 3-5 years old and I can't talk as I have not yet learn how to, suddenly as this point of time writing this post, I can't believe how much time has passed, the last time I was a child, I felt small, my hands, legs, and there are less things I know about the world, I wasn't so upset or so depressed, but something wasn't feeling right, that love and emptiness I felt, even though I can't describe how it feels back then but subconsciously I miss my mom so much, I have only a memory left of my mom that before she abandoned me, my dad bring me to visit my mom once in awhile, ok very attached to my mom and would hug her everytime I see her. Even though like I said I can't speak, I enjoyed spending the short time with her at her house with my grand mother, I can no longer remember their faces, I know my mom was a very pretty lady wnd petite lady though she was short. She would buy DVDs something that genz won't understand, of Pokemon and digimon animes but back then I don't know it's an anime _(..)/ I could sit at the bedroom on the bed watching peacefully, I don't know what the story in Pokemon and digimon was about back then but the memory remains there till as I grow up with understanding of Pokemon I know what was the thing of memory I had. The two things I remembered was that Bulbasaur refused to evolve even though his species has all evolve, despite Venusaur wanted him to do so, he was so attached to its trainer and that love force him to remain the same which I do not know why maybe the fear to be no longer the same identity? The another was whereby ash, misty, Brock was put into sleep by Gengar and they saw a giant gengar and Alakazam was fighting, but when they touch Gengar or it ate them they fell into his stomach not dead as of they're inside a giant jar, I also remember my grandma bring me to her work place which was primary school but everytime it was emlty, filled with no students maybe because it's weekend? I don't know but when I was with her, I would just run around the canteen while my grandma cleans the canteen, it was so nostalgic, life was so simple back then. I don't need to care anything else.. it was a very simple and sacred love I had from then, but looking backwards, it was a just call before the storm. Everything bad starts happened, before I notice I no longer able to see my mom and grandma again, I was sent to different of my mom I think from my dad but it was just a short time, and I was constantly move from one place to another, but of course the reason was because nobody want to for free especially without money, fast forward that my dad married another woman, and that was really the nightmare that soon to begin, although when I was told to call her mom, it will never ever replace the love I had for my biological mom even though her love for me and the time spending her was short. As I was growing I will always ask my dad where's my mom and he know I was referring to my biological mom as I was very attached to her. I miss her and I know she will never come back but a child I do not know why and I just only kept missing her. That woman that my dad marries brought me to her family, they are a very traditional kind of mindset family and sort of rich, well selling fishball noodles till able to demolish and rebuild terrace house ya over the last few years and I was living there since then till I'm 12 years old. Moving to my dad's house was the hell period and start of the nightmare, always constantly I get beaten up by canning all over my leg and body, forcing to stand for 2 hours because I was too stupid unable study well. I remembered now suddenly that I was force to keep memorize English words for 2 hours sometimes and while crying and standing I had to repeat the words that I am learning for, spelling test often has in school that's why*
Fast forward to secondary school a new school for me, at age of 13/14, lost my previous friends as they went other schools because I wasn't staying at the woman's family house anymore which was nearer to my previous school. Orientation of the school day which is first day, my days of being bullied starts, was bullied by my group of Malay classmates, and I got angry but I cried while angry that is why the bullying continues for 3-4 years, each time I angry, I'll cry at the same time even when I'm angry. There was once my entire school books in my school bag was thrown into the dustbin according to the teachers and couldn't be found. It will be funny, like who even bring entire year of school books? Yup that's me, that woman wanted me to bring and I hate to bring or put it in my bag. I wanted to make friends with my classmates, even those female classmates but I do not know how, like 13 years old kids nowadays knows how to use iphone and I don't even know how to say: May I be your friend, because this doesn't exist in my brain, which I do not know how to even say or what's sentence so the only way to get their attention was by running around in class, and running to slam myself into the wall, pulling girls hairs to get their attention, it's kind of childish, but what to do? I literally don't even know how basic gestures works. Another reasons why I can't express myself properly was also because of my ADHD symptoms and back then I was very very hyperactive! for my school life, can't go anywhere after school and only home and I only can study at home, there's nothing for me to play and it was very bored as I can't sit still, it feels like a prison especially when holiday comes because I can never go out to play. Although I dislike that woman but I like her mother, she's the only one who will pamper me, and often I go back with her to that family house when I was at the hakwer centre, well they're selling fishball noodles that's why. Always when I wanted those toys from capsule machine, which cost a dollar, she gave me but when that woman knows I always get scolded for asking people to buy for me things. My classmates sometimes ask me why does my legs are full of blackmarks but I was scared, I do not dare to tell them that it was because that woman canes me almost everyday. Something causes my parents to talk to my school counselor because of me getting bullied in school everyday and that was a huge alarm as when I get bullied I would scream to the extend almost the whole school would heard and teachers has to come out of the office to look what's happening, my school counselor advise my dad to bring me to see a psychologist I think which is at child guidance clinic and also a time table where by I can go out 2-3 days, but when I was late on of the days when I called that woman, as my dad was busy driving taxi. She threatened me in Chinese that when I go home I will know what happened, terrified of that I dare not go home and had to sleep outside my classmates house which is at the stairs for 1 night, that woman made a police report not because of me lost but because I didn't return home to get beaten by her. Police didn't understand me either and there's no child protection law back then so I only can constantly get more beatings, as mentioned for going to child guidances, I was given to do IQ test but, of course they didn't tell me and till now I don't even know how high is my IQ level but more importantly my dad and that woman just wanted that medicine as they thought it will call me down even after getting beaten, everytime I get beaten and my anger and fear reach broke I will cried and lost control of myself and when one day I decided not to eat anymore they stop bringing me to see doctor because it can no longer control me. I was given only $4 a day, but my classmate who pity me will bring me out after school to lan cafe to play computer with my other classmates, a group of 5 including me. My dad and that women eventually found out and also knows that my school has a system of giving food coupons and that made that woman make her next move by reducing my pocket money to $2. I forgot to mention too, with my medical condition I was unstable in my mind and emotions but they seems to have a habit of further scolding, beating, and agitating me further and alot of times I only can cry in fear against them in the house as there's no other adults there to protect me. This fear letched on to me and made me very very negative, lonely, till today. Alot of times I wanted to find ways to (sui side, wrote in this way to avoid using sensitive words) there was once in army (19 years old) I went and bought a box of Panadols and swallowed 15 -18 tablets but I somehow knew it wasn't enough or deadly to end my life, ended up me seeing medical doctor at the airbase I was in and went to hospital to have IV drip to also flush out the paracetamol, ever since them I no longer able to take Panadol or tablets with similar taste and size due to allergic or the the featrauma of my body subconscious.
At the end of the day, during my entire growing stage life from child to adult, my brain devloped twice as slow than everyone my age and even till today there are some things I may not understand which sounds complicated to me or I'll never understand. I didn't have a normal love life either having girls comes up to me telling me they like me or me confessing to girls I like because I don't even know what's like and love, there was a girl I like and everytime she saw me she would wave to me, she's from a different class as she's smart, probably express or normal acad and is a sort of student council, a contemporary dancer in her cca, I subconsciously like her back then not know that. I always envy others when I walker pass those children with their parents who bring them out or when I sees them so happy playing or interacting with each other. I could only ask my self in my heart, why am I so different and why I couldn't have what normal people haves. Things that are worse is when I see baby or young child cries, my heart start to beat fast and I start to become Abit distracted and uncomfortable, maybe emotional because of the trauma I got child abused. I always sees many girls confessing to my classmate and his younger brother, envy that why so many girls like them, like felt they're so cool enough for girls to approach them be it irl, or online through Facebook. I guess the most depressing and unpleasant moments was I constantly sees girls going to their house to get **** by my classmate's brother, and I knew those girls like them but to him it's just flings, I felt so engioue everything in my life I'm opposite of what normal humans are, and all these experience and memories letch on to me till today made me unable to express or communicate well with people, I feel very lonely, especially after whek my ex classmate and his family treated me so badly, as I was degraded for not working, and saying my medical condition is nothing compared to people with autism and disability like having no hands and no legs, I was also compared to Michael Phelps through my ex-classmate brother, when I have no money I was treated badly and look down on, especially when they buy food for me and then proceed to say those stuffs towards me but when I have money they became so friendly, they made me left my dad's house which give my dad to tell me not to go back his house anymore as he was planning to "sell his house to buy a smaller house" due to debts. My classmate doesn't bother how I felt or my situation, because they lost job during covid period so asking me to rent there would help them have some cash, fast forward to 1 year ago I was rushed by them to get out of their house we one or their siblings coming back from oversea with his wife. I have no one else so I have to apply for a shelter from social workers, and when that extend from November to December till today they demand me to pay $300 when they knew I have no money even when I'm planning to study. Last few weeks because if that I started crying and got very uncontrollably depressed, I realisi that one of the reason because of them that made me depress and affect my behavior and life was because of them. My dad doesn't talk to me for 2 years and suddenly he message me to wish my birthday wish last year but realized he wanted to borrow money from me. Many people told me just let go off the past but how many actually knows that it's easier said than done, basically like a heavy chain are anchoring to me. Nobody knows how it feels to be alone in this entire world, having no one to be there with you be it, the time where I'm happy, sad, having surgery, suffering and crying alone. Even though I can't end my life because of fear and lack of beavery, I'm living a life of monochrome just to wait for me one day to leave this world be it old, sickness, or accident. I really hope one day I will be free from this anchors of pain, fear and grief.
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2023.06.04 06:19 ilovemushiessontoast I was denied by a psychiatrist team for psychedelics (ketamine) treatment as I have underlying trauma and psychosocial stressors? WTF?!?

TDLR; I have treatment-resistant depression, and have been on multiple medications and therapies. I was referred to a psychiatrist team as a last resort however they denied me the ketamine treatment, this was their statement to me...
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Whilst there was a sense of weariness of life and at times hopelessness, there were no suicidal thoughts or thoughts of harm to others. There were no obsessions, compulsions, delusions or perceptual disturbance. Cognition appeared grossly intact, although not formally tested. Insight was reasonable.
Impression ilovemushiesontoast presents with non-melancholic depressive symptoms and generalised anxiety on a background of prominent trauma.
Her case was discussed with our multidisciplinary team. Given the above impression, our team recommends at this point ketamine therapy would not be the most suitable treatment option. In considering the underlying trauma and psychosocial stressors driving depression, a biological treatment such as ketamine is unfortunately unlikely to provide sustained significant benefit.
The risks of ketamine therapy (side effects, precipitation of further mood destabilisation) would not outweigh likelihood of potential benefit. It is also important to consider the substantial time and financial costs that this treatment involves, which may not be reasonable given this assessment.
Similarly, TMS is unlikely to provide amelioration of her symptoms which are often significantly related to trauma, anxiety and psychosocial factors.
These considerations are made within the limitation of a one-hour cross sectional assessment, and we do note of course that you have had extensive engagement with ilovemushiesontoast.
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Can anyone break this down for me?
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2023.06.04 06:19 gabrybhmg so scared it's gonna happen

i live in italy so rn it's 6:16 a.m. while i'm writing. i spent the whole night feeling kinda n* especially when i tried to sleep. i wandered all night from bed to sofa and viceversa. i'm feeling kinda worse now cause my stomach hurts a bit like on the lower side and my n* is worse. i burped a few times during the night and it tasted like acid. i have no meds at home (im on a vacation) and i'm panicking, currently writing this while walking in the kitchen. what should i do guys
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2023.06.04 06:18 lilellaspring Feeling so guilty and torn

We just put everything we had into attending a wedding for my brother-in-law. Meanwhile my husband's uncle is dying and we can't afford to go visit. I have never been in a situation like this.
His uncle has been like a dad to my husband, since his dad was never around. And if something happens his wife is alone with not much, if any, support around. They live in a remote area and she is originally from Europe so she doesn't have family. I don't even know how we could help her if he did suddenly pass away.
We chose to take our new baby and 6 year old on this wedding trip in order to support his brother. It was a huge sacrifice for us. They both lost their mom a few years ago and have experienced so much loss since then. He is also a recovering addict who has developed a strong relationship with God. So we wanted to support their marriage, his sobriety (and life), and also their relationship with God. It seemed like the right decision at the time, even if it was painfully out of our comfort zone on many levels.
His uncle isn't a believer and neither is his wife. When we were there last year I left with a peace, and the hard realization, that they weren't going to let us help. They were stuck in their ways and not open to talking about end of life stuff, or how we might help. He barely lets my husband pray with him over the phone because he doesn't want to believe in God. But of course they are now suffering so badly. They want my husband and my brother-in-law to visit. We just can't afford the trip. They live an 18 hour drive away, we have two small kids, no paid time off, and no extra money at the moment.
How would you handle this? How can I be sure that we made the right choice to do the wedding? While knowing that would potentially forgo seeing his uncle before he passes? And should we just go into some sort of debt to see the uncle anyways? Would we regret it if we dont?
Maybe this is a lot to ask. But at least I can ask for prayers. And if by some chance someone has a relatable experience I would be open to hear.
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2023.06.04 06:18 transcribersofreddit oldpeoplefacebook Image "Seems sarcastic..."

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2023.06.04 06:18 Live-Degree1570 My nparents did nothing with their lives and I want to make sometning of mine

I was just shitted out the womb and learned as I grew. My own parents didn’t even seem to think “oh hey, we have a kid now! let’s teach them valuable things that could help them become an independent!!!” They never taught me things like basic life, skills, cooking, health and well-being, independence, financial literacy, money management, budgeting. I had to learn that all on my own, mostly through my parents faults and their shitty habits. Never help me for college either. They just lived their life like I wasn’t even there. They didn’t change anything when I came into the world. Their relationship was so fucked up even before they had of me, and it didn’t change when I came in the world. Like, why would you birth a kid into your fucked up marriage ????
All my mom does is work, go to bars, hang out with her boyfriend all day, come home late and drink. And repeat. Shw can’t even provide enough for the family cuz she’s always buying drugs. My dad is unemployed on purpose. Never scummed to anything in his life. My mom never never had time for me even tho those were all the things she did in a day. Like seriously???? My mom never finished to high school and never went to college. I feel like there’s more to life than what my parents do. Way more. I want to travel the world, complete my associates degree, get my own place, build credit. Get my license and the chance heal my inner child. Having my parents exists make me so stressed in my chances to complete my associates degree. I don’t even wanna complete my next years cuz I’m so traumatized by the stress. I just want to take a gap year and save.
My parents are just some pathetic excuse abusive scumbags. They have done nothing with their lives, and it’s just so fucking surreal to me in how many years they lived and they’ve done nothing with their lives. And the best thing they could do is create a family, but tear the family down!!! Abuse them! Then just make them succumb to what they were their entire lives…but I want to be better.
I wanted to learn how to cook food on my own and she didn’t wanna teach me! I wanted to learn how to drive but she made up excuses and why she couldn’t teach me. So I never learn how to drive. I wanted to get my license but she didn’t wanna take me to get my license. She says she never has time because she’s busy with work or some shit, but she always had time for her boyfriend and for the bar and for her alcohol, but never for me. If I knew this was what was in-store was for my life, I would’ve pulled the plug on myself long time ago. I can’t I can’t I can’t. I can’t just believe it. I can’t believe it. It’s hard for me to just fucking understand.
They never spent any quality time with me. We never did any outdoor activities together. We never had a family meals together. Whenever I ask to hang out with my mom, she would say she has no time but then she would go and skip out to see her boyfriend. Their marriage was in shambles. My parents members was in shambles eaten before they had me so I think they still having a kid would fix i.mt. Because even after having me, my mom was not even looking at me, she was so focused on men, boyfriends and boys boys boys. And then she wonders why we aren’t a close family. stupid bitch.
If I had to go to the dentist and she had to leave work, she would get mad at the fact that she had to leave work and care about the fact that I was in pain. She wouldn’t take me to dentist appointment/clinics without having a literal fit. i’m so convinced I was an accident because there’s no fucking way. She’s literally like “UGG I have to get my child basic parental care!!! UGH! I have to give them basic healthcare. I hate my life.” As soon as I turn 18, she literally was like you’re not my problem anymore. WHAT???? It’s such a depressing moment , that i was just born to be a addition to their lives for attention.
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2023.06.04 06:18 Poyo-Espacial My partner wants to creampie and I am afraid of it

So, i liked a meme about "my love for creampies vs my fear of having children" and when she saw it she thought it was hilarious. Then she told me she would love to do that and I agreed as I find it incredibly hot but it was really not a possibility for a variety of reasons, almost entirely because we are 19.
She started taking the pill 10 days ago because of hormone imbalances and she mentioned something about creampies but I just thought it wasn't really serious until today.
If there's a chance that we can have sex when we have plans I ask her if I should bring a condom and she either tells me yes or no. This time she said "no, but we are still doing it ;)"
I was really excited at first but now I am really fucking afraid it might go wrong and she gets pregnant. My father told me once I was a result of the pills failing and it has stuck with me since. That was very much something you don't tell your children but ultimately it accomplished it's purpose and I'm afraid of it.
Does anybody have any tips on how to aproach this? That meme is just way too accurate
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